sometimes nobody seems to understand..

monkey..thx 4 ur call..
serene..i jus suddenly miss u so much..evntho i jus saw u.. cant wait 2 c u later..wish u were here rite nw..i noe u'd try n understand..at e least u'd bitch wit me..muck
juzme...i cant wait 2 see ya
my princess..could i get one or ur awesome hugz pls

it breaks my heart to hear my best fren cryin... it shatters it to pieces when it's one of my bestest.. sigh felt myself tearing wen i heard all tt pain in her voice... how i wish i could jus hold her close til evrythin jus boils over..til the world's a safe place again for a heart like hers.. babe wat can i do.. tell me coz i dunno wat to say..i dunno wat to do..

i'l b here
i love u...

it'l b ok...

oh my gosh... somebody jus save me pls! drowning in assignments...siggggh...with a whole big box of work related stuff jus watin to be completed...wat was i ever thinking la!!!focus grace focus...

has it been long? it has? well... im back now.. not that long considerin ur take on long.. long to person in pain may juz b one day..but long to a person filled with everythin they every wanted or needed would never be enough...
well so many things have happened... happy stuff... n sad stuff.. n im gonna try my best to jot it down.. let every thing have it's fair share.. it's 1 min of fame....



ali's grandma passed away.. ironic hw we were jus talkin abt her..alil weird hw we squabled n gt over it jus days before..a squabble which put me in the rite mindset to be there for her as best i could..hopefully makin a tiny diff if possible...tt kinda pain neva really goes away... from my point anw... i still feel my heart squeezin n tears comin wen i think of my grandma.. so whoever says it jus takes time.. i have no idea wat u're tinkin... but in a way.. it's gd u always rememebr.. its gd to always miss them.. coz it makes u treasure those days wt them so so much more...so i wish my ali alil peace.. to calm her heart..

its different havin frenz who're married or with kids... t's nt difficult.. jus different.. their piorites in life are different..they're at a different point of they're life...mybe im jus startin to feel it now wen im surrounded by frens who r wives n mothers more nowdays...but no matter i love them all still n still enjoy their company...jus no late nites or impromptu plans... ah well.. late nites.. mayb i jus grew up with too much of DIDI;p haha... my late nite partner..impromptu planner..haha...nw im so used to it sometimes i crave it

movin on to di..my sonkey...i hate wat life is puttin her thru... i hate the way she has to feel... but im sure she'l get thru it.. coz she's gt the strength in her... life can b unfair sometimes.. even the best get hurt.. they take it in their stride.. hold their head high n keep on hopin...coz tt's one thing u can never really lose.. hope.. n it'l get u thru the days somehow...but if even tt fails.. u've gt me babe..i cant mk things better...but i'll hold ur hand while we wait for somethin better...my heart goes out to u.. my heart goes out to him... who knows hw he muz b feeling.. all alone..dam..nt knowin wats happenin here...even tho we're nt the very best of frenz or anythin.. he's stil like family coz he's with u...so i still worry...it'l be ok babe..one day at a time k... sigh....

ok on to a lil happier news.. (i'll b ending soon k) hehe ok... i PASSED MY FIRST AID TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe tt was actually quite some time ago... the examiner really quite fierce n strict..but i passed!!!!! on my 1st try!!! hehehehe N i passed my first exam in my dip!!:) such a gd grade was really unexpected so tt really made me so happy!!!!!i know i know wats the big deal rite.... it is a big deal ok! haha ok last piece of info.. tt day one of my silly boys made me paic n worry.. i had to bring him to hosp..i tell u my heart felt like it was jus going to beat itself outta my chest..spent my whole day there with him...but nw he's ok..i think ;p hehe ok la tt's all for now.. i know it's a jmble... so many things wanting to b told at the same time... so many more things to say.but im lazy n tired n it'l jus have to wat til nxt time...

for sonkey n baba...nicked from one of my fav shows...
Sometimes we don't know our own strength. It can be hard to tell just how much weight you can safely bear, or how much will crush you. I'd like to think you can shoulder as big a burden as you believe you can, that it's all a matter of will. Certainly a comforting thought...Other times it's hard to remember you had any strength at all. Then you can only hope to have someone to remind you you were once fierce and able.

love u all...

for Baba...the in n out of me

im sorry...words tt were always so difficult for the stubborn headed us to readily admit to each other but the very words i wanted to continue sayin to ya.. n the words u sed back...readily.. i guessed we've evolved somehow from squabbling teenies to still squabling semi-adults who cn nw c the big pic faster....our first fight tt din last ovr days? :) hee... im glad things r in the open... n someow u know hw ive been feelin n i know how 've been feeling.... as i sed.. uve always bn such a part of me tt everythin seems magnified somehow... u've always supported me...encouraged me been there for me..even wen i couldnt find anyone else... frm the moment i gave u a piece of my heart u've kept it protected(well almost all the time;p except wen u're fighting wit me n wanting to kill me) it's bn hard fr me... i dunno if i can cope n there's so many things goin on.. n im sorry tt i din give a sec thot to u...i need u ali... to help me n be wit me n jus love me wen everythin doesnt seem to go my way n i cant find a single person who'l understand... i need u to b wit me wen even i dun wanna b wit me.. i need u to mk me feel impt n still the know-it-all of ur life... i need to hear ur sickenin jokes n ur sacarcism...i jus need u... n i know u nd me too... thx for everythin babe... uve been my blessing...i love u

*grace