the time comes when u hv to let go and blend back into the background...
tho its hard to do...
nt everyone's lives r meant to revolve ard each others all the time..
other things/ppl/situations/errands/days/obligations slowly tk ovr the priority u once had...
so step back and blend...
take the colours of the rainbow that ya'l once made and blend back in to create the dull, mundane background again...
wat hurt dis stoopid lil heart of mine the most is tt u din even say goodbye...or see u..or i'll b back...
i know, wat a silly lil heart ive gt..
but i still miss u...be safe my dear...love u
seriously, will dis heart of mine nvr learn...

sonks babe, thx for everythin..
let the shoppin nvr end!!!!
sorry "PUMP-ing" nvr happens...
haha tt doesnt sound too gd..;p
nxt wk babe??
SMACK TT! =D

sara darls.. thx for the letter!!
as u could hv guessed i LOVE it!!
awesome!!mwuah...
it was like gettin a nice surprise then realizin there's so much more inside..
like one of those russian doll thingies u know?
where they keep fitting inside each other?
i'm sure u know what i mean..
hehe
love ya my darlin..
for always...

if given a opportunity..
would u...
grab it and run like the wind..
or back off n let it slip by..
only to curse urself in the end IF everythin clears up n u see what u could hv had..
or would u live in constant IFs and MAYBs of what could have, would have or mite never have bn

i think i noe what i've gotta do..
i know wht i WANNA do...
but its nvr tt easy is it...

i juz wanna live

i see their innocence shining thru their eyes
n i cant help it
i'll always wan the best for them..
funny hw they're nt my flesh n blood..
yet they hold such a special place in my heart..
even more funny...
hw in a couple of years they wont even remembr me..
aft leaving me with such sweet crazy memories of them..
my babies.. u mean so much to me...
may u never lose tt amazin innocent wonderment..
may every solution alwiz b as simple as it is nw...
may ur dreams..no matter hw wild.. alwiz excite u..
n may u alwiz..alwiz..ALWIZ...love wit tt simple, fulfillin love of yours...
may no1 ever tarnish or taint ur beautiful hearts...
i love u, u monkeys..
thank u 4 lovin me..

its a wonder hw we change as we grow..
hw we lose our true selfs and somehw conform to wats expected..
to wats required of you..
yet u know tt,
tt lil u is still in there..
struggling to get out..
but every1 keeps pushing her down...
we dont even realize it..
it happens over time..
and somehow u start settling for less..
u push ur dreams aside...
and take wats given to u...
and before u know it...
tt's the only life u have...
the true u becomes jus a distant faded memory..
u know u're jaded... but u cnt find ur way out...
n u are happy to accept yourself as wat u hv become...
forgetting all the awesome dreams and aspirations and greatness u once yearned so much for..
u once dreamed so vividly for...
i've alwiz believed in dreaming...
i've alwiz dreamt with all my heart...
but it seems harder and harder somehw....
wen in a world of cold hard reality....
u feel lk u're the only dreamer...
n ppl kp tellin u tt shootin stars dun exist....
n u start belivin...tt everythin ur heart holds is silly..
i want to continue believin...
in the beauty of life again....in the power of dreams n love n hugz.. in the sense of findin one's passion..
in the dream of complete, utter, happiness...in the goodness of a fellow human being
i hope i cn...
i hope i find reasons to..