guess it finally time to write.. type somethin.. after comin in and out of here without doin much the past few weeks
the thing is i always have somethin i wanna say..but by the time i get in here that 'want' to get the words out is over..
sometimes i think abt gettin a new blog, leaving all tt is here behind.. it was originally set-up for both me n my dear sara..
so takin it on as my own never really made it feel trully my own. but then again, we all know wat a sucker i am for memories and sentiments.. so i shall put tt on hold first.

been thinkin thru so many things recently..
mayb the thot of leavin behind 22 n movin on to 23 brings some thought-provokin moments along with it..

been meetin up wit ali the past few weeks..
somehw her silliness cheers me up.
n ive come to realise tt no matter wat.. or wat time.. we always seem to have a nice lil or looong chat before we part ways... we'll jus find a place to sit.. n talk... quite a nice way to end a day out.. haha.. if i do say so myself.. its become like one of ur silly traditions.. n we din even realise it..

i'm sorry to all those ive shut out or pushed away..
i dunno wat my silly moods are doin to me..
all i can say is thx for ur love...
watever it is... my fav time of the year is coming up.. n i cant wait!!! haha.. i expect big expensive bday pressies and lots of love , joy n happiness at christmas time..christmas, as ya'l know is my most fav time of the yr.. it's jus like wen during gd fri n all, i jus feel my faith surround me and i am humbled..
my heart longs so badly for the simple yet meaningful christmases from the past..
with my grandma's chicken stew... sitting ard the tree with my cousins.. there's jus so much i wish for.. n none of it r material gifts...

i remember, there was one year.. my grandma bought all of us jewelry.. real gold.. n u know the shops they put the gold in those little boxes.. n christmas day wen my cousins n all came ovr n it was time for presents.. my mum asked us to look closer at the tree.. n there were all these boxes for us hanging on the tree..like lil colourful decorations..dunno hw long it took them to hang it all up.. it was jus fr us kiddies.. frm my grandma..n we had so much fun getting our boxes off the tree n putting on our jewelry..

can u ever make my wishes come true..
i dun think anyone can...
someone jus heal my heart pls...
coz sometimes the pain becomes to much to bear..