im sick n tired of being sick n tired!

somethin i heard on oprah. describes my feelings to a T at the mo.
sick n tired of coming home late.
sick n tired of the little time i get to spend wit my mum.
sick n tired of dragging myself to class after work.
sick n tired of dragging myself home after class to do more work.
sick n tired tt i feel this way
sick n tired tt im letting ppl i love slip outta my grip
sick n tired tt ive lost ppl along the way
sick n tired of waiting
sick n tired of listening
sick n tired of the weight on my shoulders
sick n tired of having to be strong
sick n tired of being a meanie
sick n tired of feeling this way.
sick n tired of the hrs escaping me.
sick n tired of all my dreams tt r resting.
sick n tired of pasting on my smile.
sick n tired of sharing.
sick n tired of caring
sick n tired of needing
sick n tired of opportunites fleeing me
sick n tired. sick n tired. sick n tired.
sick n tired of nt sleeping
sick n tired of sleeping
sick n tired of nt crying
sick n tired of bitchin
sick n tired of deadlines and assignments n exams.
sick n tired of being treated like an idiot
sick n tired of being sick n tired.

but then again im in a bring-myself-down mood.. i am untitled to it once in awhile..
im sick n tired of me
i'm sick n tired of u..
wil u help me pls argh!

tell me how..oh tell how hv i offended u..
holy week..

felt a sort of peace come ovr me as we went church visitin last nite..felt it again tdy i as i attended gd fri mass:) goin to church the past few days..sometimes i'm juz very awed n glad for the faith my mum has passed to me..tt this is my faith..

anw i really miss my yantao..havent seen him since tues n i miss him lots! miss his twinkly eyes.. n cheeky grin..miss hving his arms ard my neck..n his sweet lil kisses..miss the way he peeks at me..n him feeding me his twinkle twinkles..haha miss my kiddies..funny hw i wait n wait n wait for some time away frm them n when i am i really miss them..tho not all ;p haha jus miss hearin noise everywhere n hving to talk loud to get heard ovr their voices.. n the surprise hugz i gt frm my 'baby'.. n rulin ovr them! ;p hehe..

really miss su.. realli reali reali..havent heard her jokes n seen her 'irritatin eye' look.. missin serene lots too..n my aunties.. n ping.. n angela n joyjoy..realli miss ppl at work..but i'l b seeing them soon n will prolly b complaining abt too much work again.. haha.. its weird hw u go into a company or a settin nt knowin anyone there..n then u start buildin relationships n sharing ur life with these ppl.. i mean u see them practically everyday..spend almost as much time with them as u spend wit ur family..then u realise they ARE like family..they see u at ur worst(almost) they share ur joys n anger n fears.everytime u turn ur head u see one of them.u walk five to ten steps n u'd prolly bump into them. u give n take easily coz u knw tt's the only it'l work..u joke n laugh..u cry n moan..u completely go mad..yet they stil hv to b there.its not always gd times,hw cn it be wit so many women(wel, for me anywayz) workin in the same confines ;p hehe..we all hv our days.gd days,bitchy days,annoyin days,crampy days,depressed days,frantic days,lazy days,gossipy days,hungry days..but somehw we mk it work.haahaa. i luv it here.. n i luv them plenty ..there r the oddballs..but the majority r alrite..hehe

anw, wat am i doing up at this hr?!?! struggling with my dam assignment.. it's takin so long n im stil far behind.. n i cant really think of wat to write..but i mus get it done tonight! MUST MUST MUST.. cant drag it longer..should not anw.

sonks..my arms r rite here..*huGz* i desperately nd one too;)
sara..havent heard frm u for so long..for too long.. hope u're doin ok babe

hope everyone's hving fun in dreamland..argh!

sonks u betta bring me back tt ramly!! i cannot tahan redi!

missin u badly babes. or is it the green eyed monster in me being sad tt u r prolly hvin fun rollin ard on a bed somewhere with ash while im stuck sittin on my mum's bed tryin to start the dam assignment.. n MATH of all subjects! man! but nah.. i do think im actually missing u!!hope u're hving fun!! n rollin ard with ash was meant in a totally bro-sis kinda way.. or does tt jus mk it sound weirder..MWUAHAHAH..