i'm tryin to kp to my wrd on comin back sooner..
i told u i would din i? ;)

wat happens wen strength alone is nt enuf?
to carry u on..
who do u depend on?
who's strength cn u rely on.
or cn u dig deep enuf to find somethin in urself tt will pull u thru..

1 of my kiddies has bn diagnosed with stage 4 cancer..
to imagine this disease wreckin havoc in the body of one so young..
wen to visit him..
n i culd feel my heart breakin..
ovr n ovr n ovr...
n to look at the mum's face..
is another heartache all on its own...
i jus kp thinkin of him n seeing his face in my head...
n remembrin all those times wen he jus entered.. jus a lil baby. still.
nw older..n sufferin.. sigh..
saw a toddler at the hosp..also sufferin frm cancer..
really jus a baby still..
if only luv was enuf to cure everythin..
coz if tt was enuf, he'd hv an abundance of it...
ahhh!!

had a retreat in church the other day..
it was gd..its bn a really long time since i actually went for a retreat...
the songs esp.. made me get lost in them...

i think my religion n god on the whole deserves more time and much more effort frm me...
i pray n turn to him wen i nd...
but i know i shud be doin more than this...
all my life ive been brought up in a family where religion alwiz plays a big part..
i saw it in my grandma...in my mum.. in my uncle n aunt..
sunday mass is alwiz a must..
days of obligation...
special masses...
confessions...
daily mass..
but at the heart of it all..
i know tt god deserves more frm me...

i've bn thinkin things thru..
n thinkin of piorities..
i realise tt i nd to mk changes
to hv the courage to mk changes..
jus gimme time...
hmmmm..

anw ppl, jus kp in mind n say alil pray for all the chn sufferin..
in whichever way or form..
may they hv the hope of miracles..
at the end of the day..
they r truly the innocent ones....
with a whole lot of life in front of them...

i'm writing all ovr the place i know.. sry folks!
nites...

- In Christ alone,
i place my trust
and find my glory in the power of the cross...
In every victory,
let it b sed of me...
my source of hope..
my source of strength
... in Christ alone... -

i know i know its taken me a super long time to return this time..
n i'm sorry..
u dunno how many times ive wanted to come back here..
but laziness alwiz gets ahold of me..dam u lazines!
n my lappy's starting to act alil funny.. so u cnt really blame me! hehe
procrastinator extrodinaire!!
sonks, my aunt actually read tt froggy book!while till nw i havent, have u?! hehe..

ahhh.. the days are going around on thier own lil axis..
everyday is a brand new day..most of the time its the same old thing..
but with various outcomes...
things hv been goin mad at wrk. i dunno wats got into ppl..
nw everyone's gotta b on their toes..esp tt 'bunga' ;) haha..
i laugh at my own silliness..thinkin tt i am smart!
but then again.. im funny tt way..
anw, things r topsy turvy..
which isnt a gd sign..
our brand new place gt vandalised..
see i tell u..wrk's bn weird...

few wks back i had a whole wk off!!
coz of the renovations.. n eventho i din get to leave the country..
which i so wanted to do by the way!
i had a great time with a jammed packed week!!
had hi-tea wit the rest of the ladies...
saw su's time in a bottle!! haha..
where we went crazy havin our 'touchy time'
haha..
had some time with jo..
then there was the JAG*s meet up..
time with my darlin QUEEN S!!!-long john's as usual;p-
a nite out with the girls.. sonks n sara!! we shud do it again babes!!! we'll start earlier this time.. promise!! hahaha...
a day of lepakin at sandra's..
haha u get the idea la..
but all in all jus wanna say thx to these lovelies in my life...
for fillin my days with fun n laughter..
it was an awesome week.. n its kept me thinkin n wantin more of them...
if only i culd keep wks like tt comin!!! haha

anw, bn thinkin of goin back to sch..think its high time for my nxt step..
few probs ive gott get thru tho..
major one is def my shift at wrk.. its really gettin in the way
but then again.. its jus another erm.. 5 or 4 months to go.. hopefully a better one will b comin my way by tt time..
then there's tt thin abt decidin wat to do first.. eventho there's so much askin for my attention.. i shud really mk a choice n stick to it..
theres also tt thing abt wrkin n studyin.. to b able to fund my studies.. did tt for more than a yr .. n truthfuly its nt easy..
sometimes i jus wish i culd jus depend on moolah frm my parents to support my every step up the ladder..
i see ppl studyin full time.. n sometimes i feel the green eyes monster startin to peek out.. ahhhh the life of a student.. i know i know.. there's so many things a student has to do n worry abt.. but it jus seems so.. so 'happy' u noe? u go to sch.. u study.. u hang out with ur frenz... u do assignments.. compared to u go to wrk.. u do ur job then u go to sch.. go home.. study , do assignments...n still have to do things for wrk..blah blah blah... its jus tiring sometimes.. but dun get me wrong, u full time students.. i know u have ur own disadvantages too.. i jus miss my 'student' life sometimes.. argh..

on to happier things!! look wat i got myself!!!



















its so beautiful i absolutely adore it.. haha
i love earrings... n its time i show off all of mine.. so ive hung some of them up..
colour-coordinated - for now- haha.. n i love how it looks.. i keep callin it my queen.. jus to irritate my sis.. hehe..but truly it is my queen.. magnificient.. hahaha.. ok mad i know..

oh oh n look wat my aunt did for me.. for free!! haha









love it!! its kinda weird coz it actually turned darker overnite.. after i washed off the henna.. the next day it was super dark.. the babies esp love touchin it n tryin to press their palms on mine to get it to transfer.. hehe..

alritey folks.. think i shud actually start tt research i came online to do... take care all of u...till nxt time.. i'll try to make the time in between shorter.. :)