eace n quiet for now.....

i know i know i said i'd be back soon with a newly furnished site n all but wat can i say... im one lazy bugger ;p on top of that havin no real access to any comp doesnt help.. so when i can find one..wit no one else breathin down my neck tellin me to be quick then i'l update... like today for instance.. clever me locked the door so no one can disturb me for awhile... sigh.. the pleasure of some peace and quiet with just me n the comp... heh

anw, been so busy with everythin... im missin out on all the good for nothin gossip and iced chocs with my sonkeybanana...and so many other ppl...but wat can i say days have to go on, the world has to keep turning..ppl have to kp goin to work...blah blah blah and all that crap... i guess sometimes the most u can do is keep those impt to u close to ur heart..and think of them...memories really pull u thru when the heart pangs for them too much... but memories also can b the cause of those heart pangs.. a double edged sword?sigh...

hmm, got my ang bao tt day.. finally :) it just amazes me wat happens sometimes when u jus let go of watever was troublin u and leave it wholeheartedly to higher powers..somehow they suddenly fall right into place. so im one happy girl... i'm happy here and for now i guess here's where im supposed to be. went to watch disney on ice! it was awesome!! awesome!! =D i loved every min of it well, except for the part where these kiddies behind were shoutin n talkin so loudly and banging their feet on the floor...and basically they did tt thruout the whole show...and i dun understand y the parent sitting there din do a single thing abt it.. i mean c'mon la ur kids are misbehavin..TAKE CONTROL! hehe but the costumes were beautiful..and gorgeous and they made it look like dancing on ice was the simplest thing on earth... sigh... ariel reminded me of di..hehe would have loved it if she'd ben ere... i just love fairy tales... i guess it's just a part of me tt'l never grow up...so wat if im child-like...certain things just have to b seen thru the innocent eyes of a child....

ok.. the knockin and banging on the door's begun... my cue to leave the nice computer... sighhhhhhhhhh... will b back asap... take care all... sending my love

gracie

a brand new year's unfoldin.. and look at all we've left behind.. memories, happines n sadness, silly arguements, disappointments, surprises and experiences.2004's been good... filled with many ups and just as many downs.here's hoping 2005 will be much better. to all the loves of my life...who've always occupied my heart...i wish for you..happiness that overwhelmes u...peace that satisfies you and a safe n healthy year ahead. may the joy u bring into my life be quadrupled into yours.

thank u 2004...
* i'm a working gal! a teacher by no simple means... a special person in a young child's eyes... a person for them to irritate to no end and to bestow never ending kisses to lower tempers that THEY themselves have caused to soar;p
*i've learnt so much...and experienced so much..
*the most special people in my life have held on to me and encouraged me and supported me thru all the agonizing months..and i'm so sure they'l just continue to be there for the months to come
*i've felt the simple joy that comes from realising that i've got it in me to reach for my dreams
*i've added beautiful souls into my life...people who make me think... why didnt i know them before now!
*i've contemplated over so many tragedies that the year brought... and learnt to be grateful for what i have..no matter how much or little.

for all the people suffering...in pain and fear...i hope your pain ceases just a little... i hope your fear recedes for awhile... i hope lost loved ones will be found... i hope for miracles....

have a great year ppl!

love, Grace

~Wake the neighbors, get the word out Come on... crank up the music... climb a mountain and shout This is life we've been given made to be lived outSo la la la la live out loud Live out loud, yeah Think about this... try to keep a bird from singing After it's soared up in the skyGive the sun a cloudless day and tell it not to shine Now think about this... if we really have been given The gift of a life that will never endAnd if we have been filled with living hope we're gonna overflowAnd if God's love is burning in our hearts we're gonna glow There's just no way to keep it in~

merry x'mas!

i'm back! finally after a loooong hiatus... so many things to tell ya'll but before i really start my ramblings... i'd just like to say tt our blog's still under construction so forgive the mess! i'll post a proper entry when i'm satisfied with the construction;p so anw... i turned 21!!!!! :) yay! alritey off i go...will be back real soon... i hope hehe... merry christmas everyone... spread the love!
luv,
*Gracie

i'm here again!!=D it's been so long.... this week's the last for me before i finally start my attachment.. i'm filled with anxiety n dread..ok ok and alil excitement too!! haha i'm finally gonna be putting wat i learnt to use on kids..not big buffalos who are acting as spastic kids! haha i dunno how it's gonna turn out but keep your fingers crossed for me k?!? seeing as this is my last week to put more effort into tt irritating folder.. i'm proud to announce that.... i've done nothin yet..zip,nada..NOTHIN! i spent the week meeting up with ppl instead..but they're ppl i havent met in such a long time.. met chris, aisha n yas on mon!! hahaha i was so happy to see them..after so long.. aisha still with her nonsense n loud voice and chris with all her looks.. it was awesome.. tues went ice skatin with clarissa n shamii.. haha shamii n me spent the two hours glued to the railings while lil kids nicely ice skated in front of us silently screamin..looooook at meeee..just when we were getting the hang of it it was time to go...sheesh..hmm weds.. i met my darling boo!! haha with di n fynny.. lemboo is a babe now ok.. no more prawn girl..hahah i love spending time with those two sweethearts of mine.. hopefuly i'll get to see them soon..so that was my week... last week i had dinner with sharon and the rest..her goodbye dinner..sad.. but eh she's still in town just not in that political sch.. ;p went bowling aft with her,claris n wahlau jay..and i fell..sigh..i'm just not satisfied with not makin a fool of myself... hehe
so aisha would have started work tdy... and im startin on MON..haha im sorry la i just cat get over the fact tt MON is almost here and i feel so unprepared...i better get to work and at least have somethin for nic to see tmr... i hate the damn thing..ah well.. it has to be done..
i miss..JULES...if u're reading this.. i miss u!!*huGz
love,Gracie

the past few weeks have gone by smoothly..with jules leaving, me trying to spend time wit ali before her freedom is taken away;p..helping a friend with a class of five year olds who kept going teacher this..or teacher that or i can do it teacher..or it's falling teacher.. every few mins...;p stayed over at ali's place a couple of times..tate like there's no tmr..celebrated ash's b'day with di, her bro, fynny ash-of course rite!- n his new-ahem ahem- girlfriend;) too bad i couldnt spend much time with them tho..some other time perhaps yeah? met up with the sac ppl!!! =D i am SO happy about tt one... i managed to arrange a gathering and actually have more than three ppl turn up in abt two?? three? days! and miss LG finally managed to pry herself away from her busy schedule and grant us mere mortals her time..haha...i am grateful babe! hahaha..it was fun..reminiscing..talking abt the past..talking abt the future..only the IMPORTANT ppl turned up... it went great...we'll meet up soon k ppl?? it just amazed me to see the different paths our lives are taking us and yet how we can still come together..to look at these ppl i've known for so long and see how far we've come... it might not seem a long way to most..but from girls who didnt give a damn wat we did in our futures to ppl who truly want each and everyone of us to do well.. im just happy for everyone... hmm.. wat else... ohh the teaching was fun..one hour plus only...did it for only a day..but it definately gave me insight..thinking of attachment and the damn folder is scary..family lunch tdy..yummy food!! gifts from my uncle!!!! hahaha.. i love the pens.. anw, since tmr is ali's day..here's a'lil something..for u baba dear... just to let u know...
ali.. i dunno who im gonna fight wit when u're not around to get on my nerves and nag at me... to so many ppl it seems like we're the constant squabbling ppl..forever fighting..forever saying "i've had enough!" hahaha but i know to me it's just the way we work.. we fight and argue and say things to irritate each other just coz as u say...fighting=best frens=love... i tell u, there've been numerous times i really felt i could chop ur head off.. but somehow we always just come back together...and it's settled on it's own..and peace reigns for a few days ;p haha... u're the person who can surprise me with ur silly little rubbish thots...or sudden shows of affection..or the way u do things for me silently..without havin to think it thru or ponder....or the way u're forever saying i pay 1st later we find the atm...haha or the way we can be talking and suddenly both of us just keeps quiet coz we're prone to daydreaming..and the silence is comfortable... i know u're not going away...or moving to some distant country,but i'm still gonna miss u.. i'm proud of u..and i'm hoping this new road u're going to embarke on leads u nearer to your dreams...take care of yourself while u're in there...and i'll see u in 12? days k? 6 months will fly faster than u can imagine...so...may god shine his face upon u my darling alibaba.. i love you lots! =) so mushy rite..for someone who's just going to THOMPSON!;p ok la... tt's all for now...SARA!! where have u disappeared to?!?!?
Gracie

||let me fly, let me be free, let me see the world, let me be ME||

it's been a tiring few days..both emotionally, mentally n physically.. everything has just been draining..but ive sed b4..i'm not gonna let anyone drag me down unless i wanna get dragged...the past few days ppl have been trying tho..ive realised tt everyboday loves going round the bloddy bush la.. i dunno y nobody just wans to take the straight path anymore haha..hmm ah well ok let's see wat hv i bn up to the past few days? let's see.. had a misunderstandin wit ali..thru jules.. which resulted in me being harsher then usual with the ppl ard me..haha poor them.. i finished my proj..ON TIME!!! haha with much support and encouragement and comrade from my miss super irritating, nickibayybee n sara..i dunno wat i'd do witout u guyz..i'll probably b eaten by tt croc la huh serenie..haha anw, met up with nic n ayu tdy!!!! hehehe i love them!! we were supposed to go ice skating..but..ahhh we spent a good part of the day riding ard in trains -dun ask!- haha in the end we caught laws of attraction..nt bad..van helsing stil gets my votes tho!but it was good la.. haha we makaned like mad..put our feet up and watched the whole movie with our usual commentary and nonsense la...haha oh yeah and we finialized our nitty gritty details for our attachment..now to start on the folder!!! sigh... oh yeah ytd was my grandma's wedding anni...had dinner at my aunt's...nice nice niiiice!! hehe..i'm talking all over the place arent i..cant seem to get my thots settled la..anw..wen i was so absolutely pissed ytd..crying for goodness knows wat reason...sara sed the exact things i needed to hear..and sara, i 'm glad u're always ard...and tt u understand hw it feels and that u support me like nobody's biz! haha..ur encouragement..sometimes it's the thing tt lifts me up.. she sent me this song..it's so sweet..
~Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't, then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt~ =D it just made me feel SO MUCH better...so i'm hear to tell everyone...Inner strength tt is what i rely on!!haha..wow long entry huh..ok i'll stop now..just needed to clear the mind!even if it is all in jumbles..haha
love,
*Gracie||U gotta know it's true, in the end all u've got is you ||

||everybody now...breathe in....||

so even blogger's gt a new breath of life huh ;p my last day was on fri..it was sad..ayu read the poem to the class..OMG i jus wanted to cry ok..haha.. they gave us sweet lil cards n pressies n stuff even the unexpected one huh..haha thx u guyz..u know i love them all! the gang gt me danglers! haha they know me so well! played our last games n aft class we headed for DINNER!!!! its really good to hv frenz n lecturers wit cars! haha all in all it was a great day..and it made me realise these ppl ive met..they're great ppl..realli.. and i'm gonna try my best to hold on to the impt ones for a long time...ytd..met nicki bayyybeee n clarissa ;) haha shopping shopping, makan makan, gossip gossip..it was good!! din realise how much ive missed them over such a short period of time! i really had fun..and for once in my life when we arrange to meet we can all stay in the north!!! haha our side riggght??? met jules n alibaba for dinner..we ate kenny!!! haha..n tt ali..must be secretly thinkin me n jules ate too much make us walk round n round marina..somemore she walk damn fast ok! so we gt lost in marina!! can u believe tt!!! we actually got LOST!! haha wat'd i tell u..wen im lost, i'm always wit ali... we took pics tho! haha those two are just like me..we love takin pictures!!!it's no wonder we're JAG*s la..my other frenz always comment how i can take pics forever.. hw can i nt..with these two ard..haha

ao anyhoo...tt's been it for the past few days.. besides sitting at home being bored missing sch..thinking abt doing the damn projs..bleah prolly see jules tmr.. go meet the principle on fri..aiyah.. i better get back to the proj la huh.. every fibre in me doesnt want to tho..must finish early so can sit in class on mon! must must must..haha love ya all!
nickishamiiclarissasernejoycelynelainesharonayu..wahlau i miss u all can! we sepak ayu k? haha

love, *Gracie

|| I've had enough ||
So I read in ali's blog that ive changed?! me?dis coming frm someone who only spoke to me for..erm abt an hr or so?! maybe she means ive changed in a good way..maybe she's talking abt another grace..one tt she knows n ive never heard of...YEAH right la grace..;p wateva... one of ur best fren's blogs tt u've changed..without tellin u personally and u think she's talkin abt someone else..ohhhkay.. so, this brings me to my next question..have i changed??? yes u ppl who spend time with me..tell me have i?? honestly speaking..i'd like to think tt i have -tho my idea of my change n ali's might b diff;)- i mean i'm abt to finish a six month course...i must have changed at least a'lil right...ive learnt tt.. ive got to hold on to those ppl who've met me practically every week...who dun mind traveling frm diff sides of s'pore to town just to spend time with me when I can...people who've given me their time-n train fare- unconditionally...i've learnt tt some peopl-the bird in class! ;p- are so two-faced it's not even funny... and tt some ppl may look two faced...but they're all niceness n love inside...i've learnt that frenship can bloom between ppl with diff age grps as long as all parties are willing to try.. i've learnt home spa tips!! haha... i've learnt to believe in myself even when it looks like i'm going nowhere as in time i'll find a way... i've learnt tt sometimes the people who are the furtherst can warm your heart with just simple words... ive learnt tt i dun have to let ppl step all over me..coz I'M impt n i LOVE ME! haha... i've learnt to bask in the sweet words and encouragement of loved ones who've been here all along believing in me... i've realised tt some friends will do anything for me.. ive learnt tt some frens just want me to do everythin for them. n ive learnt tt some of my closest frens have been balancing taking n giving with me all these years... i've learnt abt kids n teachin -obviously right-
so i think ive changed..i'd like to think so...so ali's comment did make me think...i'm sure if i think real hard i'd find even more things tt ive learnt...but for nw ive got to use my thinking juices for the damn proj..sighh ooh yeah we had facials n pedicures n manicures n stuff in class ytd!! how fun...hahaha
jayrachhanimannienickyayuserenejoycelynelaineclarissasharmalasharonjune - thx for coming into my life...how could i have not known great ppl like u existed! haha
babboosonkey - thx for meeting me practically every week from so far away..u guyz KNOW i love u
shersara - thx for always being there...always...no matter wat..no matter when..
love, gracie
i wanna dance wit u~

i'm BACK to write!! sooo soon u say?!? haha... i just HAVE to write abt wat i had ytd in the hopes of causing some major salivating in all the loyal readers ;p haha..AND i'm supposed to b doing my proj la..but we all KNOW tt im the queen of procrastination..so anw...dinner at dad's best fren's place last nite..steamboat...can i say YAAAAAAAAY!!!! hehehe... OMG the amt of food! i especially loved the crabs, cockles-extremely well done for me pls-, prawns n beef!!! yuuuummmy...*salivates jus thinkin abt it...not to mention the awesome homemade chilli...uncle F...u've definately got a winner there! everytime we finished one tray he brought out another...the crabs were delish...apparently bought frm geylang..so ppl...buy your crabs frm geylang coz they'll make ur mouths water...so we ate n ate n ate...took a break then ate all over again...haha..the cockles reminded me only of one thing...ali,sher n me...and fishermen's village haha..we used to go there like so irritatingly often;p sighhhh...
on to really happy news!!! SARA GOT INTO UNI!!!! *applause applause* =D i'm so happy for her!!! yay yay yay!!! ok la i'm going to try doin my proj... damn u science! ;p ooooh... my two-eyelash-only-girl stayin over on mon & tues?!?!?! YAY! haha...
love, *Gracie

went for the funeral..ytd?? yup ytd..life's pretty short u know..always make me wonder...hmm...poor kid's gonna have to grow up missing her dad..sigh... anw sed bye to more ppl...hanim..annie...another two real special ppl... hanim..sexxay mama ah u *cheeky smile... pretty inside-out..i love ya! i seem to b blogging once every month only ah..haha i cant help it la so so busy...been having speech n drama expert in class the past two days... all our actions so OVER!!! hahaha "thhhh thhh thhh" it's kinda fun tho... i'm gonna be finishing my course redi... fast right...so sad..i dunno how... i love the nuts i see evryday.. Ms super mega rubbish/irritating serene ;p haha..whiney clarissa.. shhhhharmmmmallla;), nicky babeeey, beauty queen...haha, cheeky joycelyn..and of course right...my #1 always on my nerves forever fighting wit me but all outta love one... haha oh n forgeting our ever on our side lecturer..i lurve u babes! i'm glad it's always us against ThOse... birds, crocs, whatnots la... alritey la... i SHOULD be getting to the damn projs which i have no clue how to do! lil notes.... ppl suddenly leaving has left me really missing certain ppl..so lil notes...

||Sara - my blog or OUR blog ah;p how many times do i have to say..I MISS U...LOVE!||
||Sheri - =) three words...and u know what they'll always be...from my heart to yours i love u||
||Alibambutan! - i know how hard new beginings can be...but u'll find that path that has been carved out just for u one day.. thank u for holding onto me through all your endings and new beginings and lettin me be one of the few ppl who'll b there through it all||
||Jules - i havent seen u in so long!! i miss being miss-know-it-all in your life ;) haha.. i pity u for always having to listen to the bickering. BUT it's been awhile right...wait ah.. i'll meet up with u guys soon n me and ali can start again;p i love u..i miss JAG*s||
||Sonkey - happiness comes when ur smiles light up my life... words arent necessary for us..hearts that are connected alrdy know how the other feels!*nods||

that's all folks...for nw anw la..huGz for everyone!
love, gracie
||~ bright pleasant days...dark sacred nights......~||

a month!...wat a month it's been...lets see.. Sher's officially 21!!!! *APPLAUSE!!!!* she had a damn memorable itchy b'day din u my dear;p , i've had to say bye to two truly awesome ppl... rach n jay... WAHLAU jay....it's gonna be a bore...without u! but next yr yes?? next yr we'll all be back 2gether again! hopefully hehe..till then..we still have all our outings! tues tues tues!!! i cant wait..... the assignments have been neverending.. as soon as one leaves our hands we have to start the nxt...crazy! one due on tues..sigh... which i havent started!! haha...which i should be getting back to la... my fingers jus damn itchy..had to come type something...oooh baboo's pageant's over..i tell u she was damn sexxxay...pheeeweet...seriously!! the best outta the lot! c'mon la compared to the pasar woman n the rhino ass;p so mean! bt seriously..she was the best there...AND we actually had her with us the WHOLE night..AMAZING isnt it!! of all ppl...to be out ALL NIGHT LONG..*sing it wit me di..all night...all night longggg...all nite ;p...ok, back to work! i'll b back soon.... here's to the BILA BILA gang!!! u guyz.... as i said...next yr we'll reunite! haha..love ya lots! also... love my precious ppl who are so far away even more...namely two monkeys with names starting wit S...hehehehe...sighhhhh
love,
gracie

helllloo everyone...missed me?? ;p i have no idea where sara is...she's just missing from her own blog! how could u sara! haha i tried.. i really did..i've spent the last couple of hours lookin for a new background but nothing's caught my eye just yet..i'll leave it to u sara! find something u hear me....and come blog!! :) i've bn up to my neck with stuff to do... i've got two assignments due and one more exam coming up!! argh... the last 2 modules have been a bore.. i dunno if it's the module or the lecturers... BUT i still love sch! haha..have i told u guyz??? i gt 90 for the 1st exam and 95 for the 2nd!! =D i'm so happy.... we'll see how it goes with the third...hmmm

u know sometimes ppl say things in such a way u feel like suddenly u've got to defend ur every decision?? i dont understand y some ppl dont seem to be really happy for me... i need u guys to support me too..u know? it's just difficult when u KNOW how impt u guyz are..right? i'm happy..so please be happy for me..if not..just move aside and let me be..coz i'm not gonna let myself be dragged down unless I wanna be dragged! ;)

wat else wat else...oooh since Di's page is down for now... i'll give u guyz a'lil update on her life...she just started her new job on fri!! sounded like it was a bore to her..but i'm pretty sure it'll get better di..yes it will! haha...and what's he new job u may ask... she's traing to fly...without wings! c'mon i KNOW u guyz know what it is..u know u know!! Di's in a stage of re....re-furnishing?!? ;p her life..so new clothes...new shoes..new anything from u guyz would be greatly appreciated by DEEEEDEEE! haha...

i thought i had alot to say..but i seem to have lost that train of thot...so i'll go off to study...or do some of my proj...or laze ard-which is prolly wat i'll ACTUALLY end up doing ;p- oh yeah..SHER..thank u for calling me....but u didnt call back!!! haha.. i love hearing u talk... it's like we've gone five years back n u're in ur room and i'm in my aunt's place..just talkin n talkin... soon k??plsssss? hehehe ok ok i'm going!!*huGZ* all around!
love,grace
it's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. it's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.. it's the one who wont be taken who cannot seem to give..and the soul of dying that never learns to live.....

If I were a month I would be: december!!!
If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12
If I were a planet I would be: earth
If I were a sea animal I would be: dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: north
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: bed
If I were a liquid I would be: iced choc
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: a coconut tree;p
If I were a bird, I would be: peacock hmm but that's a male bird..maybe a dove...(di!!! doooove;p) no no a toucan..hmm i'm nt too sure ;)
If I were a tool, I would be: hammer..(bang bang bang!!!!)
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: rose
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: sunny yet windy
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: unicorn
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: saxaphone
If I were an animal, I would be: dog
If I were a color, I would be: RED
If I were an emotion, I would be: complete,utter happiness
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a mushroom
If I were a sound, I would be: my best friend's laughter
If I were an element, I would be: fire
If I were a car, I would be: ferrari
If I were a song, I would be: a hit! ;p
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: the best
If I were a book, I would be written by: enid blyton..hehe
If i were a poem I would be : My own
If i were part of a company i would be : Founder!
If I were a food, I would be: chocolate
If I were a place, I would be: the place memories are stored
If I were a material, I would be: the same as my blanket...happiness is snuggling under it!!!
If I were a taste, I would be: sour (yummm!)
If I were a scent, I would be: the smell of baking cookies!! famous amos-y haha
If I were a religion, I would be: catholic! *nods
If I were a word, I would be: GRACE
If I were an object, I would be: camera!!
If I were a body part I would be: heart
If I were a facial expression I would be: surprise on the brink of a huge smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: english...duh!
If I were a cartoon character I would be: a smurf! haha
If I were a shape I would be: star
If I were in a pubic service job I would be : a fireman!!! haha
If I were a number I would be: 10

haha just curbing my b0red0m! HAPPY V DAY EVERY0NE! lotsa love to those few precious people! off to study..study study study...bleah ;p
*Grace

we really shud change the bkgrd sara..it's starting to bore me too..hmm...anw, today(in in fri) was my grandma's b'day...memories memories memories....sigh..it'll never really be ok will it? will it? remember the jelly cake di? cant belive it's been a yr...

on to happy news.. extension for assignment!! yay! tues! something's better than nothing i reckon! BUT there's quite a lot to b done not to mention homework...i justw anna sleeeeep! oh yeah!! i saw cheryl and charlotte the other day!!! cheryl james! sooo nice bumping into them..and realising that they were actually happy to see me too!! it's been wat? five years since i last saw them!!! =D it was nice...these were the ppl i spent sec one and two bluffing to b listening during malay lessons with. haha

syping for us tmr mayb?whadya say deeeedeee?? hahahaha...*rubs hands in antcipation* cant wait!!!! watch out fluent english person!!! haha.. lemboo darling...you make me so grateful you're in MY life and not somebody elses. I wanna hug you!!! hahaha bambi..how did i ever believe those were shyeyes

Gracie:)
||u dont miss your water till the welll runs dry||

have you ever realized that one of your closest friends was looking right at you and tellin you a little teeny white lie? have you ever? have you ever felt exactly the way i felt when i realized? when you know she/he's twisting the truth.BUT you know they're only doing it to keep you from getting hurt. they're only doing what comes second nature to them...protecting you. so I ask you again..have you ever felt exactly the way i felt? coz at that instant i've never loved this friend more. Coz with this person, is where i know...that i'll always b safe..i'll always be held and protected..i'll always be cherised...i'll always be loved...this is where i know i'll never do any wrong. where i can b wat i want to be..i can be a closet superstar..a closet rock singer;p a closet anything! haha this is where hearts are wrapped with bubble-foam and handled with care and hugz are given freely.This is where i'm always me...where even at my worst..i'm always the best...so even tho it was just a little gesture done without any hesitation..it just reinforced everything we stood for.

Right...that's enough mushiness for now ;p haha..sara's gone!*G*O*N*E*.. she left on the 19th..back across the world! another 365 days to go.before i get her back here!! counting down counting down...sheesh.. It's kinda ironic we never had a proper end to our convo huh? haha..i miss you so much my dear!

TWO assignments due nxt week*faints i'm actually supposed to be working on one of them now..but i cant seem to come up with anything..AT ALL.. some help..anyone??? school's been hilarious! the things we do!! you wont believe until u see! but it's fun.. ohhh that day i was havin my mee hoon and i found a biiiig worm in it!! so disgusting!!!! eww eww eww...i can still see all those tiny legs..yuck..and my fren was tellin us that this worm wasnt the first insect found in the food there..soooo no more 1st floor for us yes?*nods ;p alritey..better shift my attention back to my assignment!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!!here's to the monyet year!!:)

*Gracie
*sings* I'm really not your average thug ahhh ugggggg hehehe

Sch's been fun!! i've really missed being part of a class.. there's not one single guy besides the lecturer in my class so it's as if i'm still in sec sch or pri sch for tt matter;p haha...made some new friends i'm pretty sure i'll absolutely love in some time! so all in all... it's been a good week! Assignment due in two weeks i think..i have no clue how the heck to do it..but hey..i'm sure it'll b ok!

so guess who i met today? GLADYS, JULES,ALI n SARA! suppose to be a big gathering..but these special ppl were enough.Dearest Glad glad..i KNOW ur dad'll be better soon yeah? u know i'm always here no matter what. I love you so much my dear!thanx for the sweets=)

Anywayz...TMR with my sonkey.i cant wait!!!cocktails cocktails cocktailsss! ohh i saw the donkey u bought me for my birthday tdy!! u shuldnt have spent so much...somemore in ur current state of broke-ness;p BUT u know i simply love and adore every inch of that lil grey thing! i'll take real good care of it! promise! hahaha...

CEEDEE!! u cant read it too?? i thot it was only my comp! haha i've been wanting to change e layout for awhile..but i'm so lazy! haha..will do it when i've got time.till then sorry my dahlings u;ve just got to struggle to read it too! sorry! alritey i'm off to sleep i cant tahan anymore! CONGRATS on ur letter D!

*Grace

HELLLLOOOOO 2004!!!!

Happy New Year!!
here's to an awesome year ahead filled with special, joyful moments!

New year's eve at my aunt's...turkey,chicken,fish,prawns,lamb,veggie...yummmm..SO much of food... the down-side was that i really couldnt taste anything..coz i'm SICK!! sad ain't it..i'm just hopin it clears up by next wk...but we had fun...makaned..laughed at the TNC!-stupid stupid show-;p said our prayers..drank bubbly...it was really nice..surrounded by family...at the birth of a new year!who could ask for more

anw, tdy's the 2nd of JAN!! Di,Sara,jules,ali,glad,sam,Sher.....ALL of u!!! years ago..on this day we met for the first time!!! hahaha..it's OUR anniversary ;p hehe..whatever it is, to each and every one of u..thank u for years of unconditional love!here's to many more to come!*smiles

sara sent me this on my b'day and i only read it tdy;
Angel of December sky
Gathers snowflakes way on high
Graciously with wings in air
Gathers precious gems to share


To trickle down to earth below
To shine like diamonds in the snow
What great beauty it will be
As angel sends these gems for me


A calm and peaceful night with snow
December angel's special glow
See her gliding through the air
This beauty of God's love so fair


Knows just what the snow will do
As peacefully it falls on you
Catch the diamonds in your hand
Where they sparkle God does stand


December's angel wings of snow
Sends her beauty here below
Catch the diamonds from the sky
Magnificently these wings do fly.~
~ Francine ~© original 99
=) Thank u sweets!!! it's lovely..i love the card..i love the lil msg...i love them tonnes...but i love you more!!heh heh heh...please let's meet up soon!! u've been back so long and i only saw u once..it's not FAIR!! haha...

hmm tt's all for now..take care u lot...any new year's resolutions???

love,Gracie

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!

so i'm a few days late...;p but it's still christmas so it doesnt matter..haha Merry X'mas all of u!! i hope it was special and full of laughter!! Christmas was a'lil different this year..i had straightish sorta hair..well, it was straighter than it's ever been..my hair's just meant to be curly;p..but for the fun of it..my hairdresser ironed it for me...it was a different look;p...family gathering was on the eve instead..since we're not really celebrating this year-for obvious reasons- so we had a meal together on the eve instead...and we went to St.Theresa's for mass instead of our church..decided to go with my uncle and all...it was HOT ..really really hot...but it was ok...didnt really see anyone i know..it's not my church afterall...;p but it's ok..i'll see the few special people sooner or later..haha.. it was nice..attending mass together..squeezing into the car...tired silence..it was all nice...
back to my other aunt's place on x'mas..was suppose to have lunch there...but we were late and all so my dad couldnt cook..so my uncle did it instead....and we had the feast at night...we practically spent the whole day just stuffing ourselves! seriously...there was so much of food at night and we couldnt eat coz we were all full...so we decided to have it the next aft...haha...eat n eat n eat...sheesh...
met up with baboo ytd...spent a couple of hours just the 2 of us..then went over to di's place..for our hari raya visiting...see how late we are!hari raya visiting during x'mas! haha..grandma made yummy nasi lemak!!!yum....
so all in all, the last few days have been good...met up with my loved ones...makan-ed like mad...and had fun ;p...di's suppose to b coming over tdy..are u deedeeeeee?? hehehehe...and my cousins and all too...=) hmmm tt's all for now..oh yeah...sth really impt...I AM STARTING SCH ON THE 7TH!!!! YAY!!=D hahahaha i'm sooo happy...and my friends are soo happy for me!! -see wat grrreat friends ive got!-hehe...
alrite..take care everyone..merry xmas! i love you loadz...and for those who arent here..i miss you!! every single one of u..*mwuah!

all my love,
GRACE (student);p

this girl's a year older

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to MeEeEeEee
Happy Birthday to...ME!!

haha... i'm twenty tdy..nothin feels different tho..i can't help it, i'll always be young at heart ;p hehehe... Dinner with my girlies...the few special people who i can scratch my butt in front of coz they'll still love me;p haha.. Didi,Sara,Jules n Ali...nydc..salad..pizza..MUD PIE!!!! n Jules' coffe-hazelnut-thing which she claims is HeAvEn;) i had a great time sweethearts...i couldnt ask for better people to spend my most special day of the year with!! i hold each of you deep in my heart...so close to the main veins and arteries...Thanks for all the little pressies...cards..smiles and huGz..thanks for the laughter and company...most of all...ya'll will prolly never really know..but thanks so much for turning what had all the makings of being a sad sad day really wonderful...it's my first birthday without my grandma...my first in twenty years..it's hard thinking about it...but being with you guyz didnt give me much time to be depressed;p...i love you lots!!you rock my world babes!

I miss you mamma....bless me tdy, like you did every year..i love you..life's never ever gonna be the same....

..a brand new decade..watch out world..here i come...
today this girl turned twenty-ok technically ytd la since it seems to be e 20th already-
Yesterday this girl turned twenty!;p
love,
Gracie

Ps: Pigging out time tmr girls!!!!Cheeseeee rice!!yum!

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly


When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day


Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul


Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you


Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

ok let's see..today calls for a special colour!!..hmmmm yup! haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA!!!!happy happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY!=) i waited till tdy coz it would prolly be the 27th there now right?? hmm anw, how i wish you were here!! really!

But anw...i've got stuff to say so listen up!!;p You've always been by my side..always..do you realize that??crazy malay "scarfise" tutors, remedials, bus rides, when i'm sick or happy..mad or sad or even scared..you're always there. Truthfully, i cant imagine my life without you...it would be a life without crazy laughter! you know how when you first came back..your first holiday back?? i was afraid we'd not be able to find that crazy special place we're always in when we're together..but i was soo wrong!! nothing changes...EVER! we just pick up where we left off..and before long it's time for you to leave again! You let me be me...and you help me find ME..and you love me no matter what. You light up my life...and you make me sad... you calm my fears and encourage me..you say nice things when we both know i just wanna feel "high";p haha you make me crazy! and you make me feel safe..you read my innermost thots and you make jewelry hunting fun.. you sparkle and you shine..and when i'm with you i feel like i could sparkle too.you hold up my castles in the air with me...and tell me that i can do anything.You love me for me..the good the bad..the everything....
i'm not just saying it sara..seriously, my life would not be complete without you!

So today, when you're celebrating TWO decades of living..i just hope you know..that you mean the world to me-and so much more!- You're dreams will come true babes..just wait and see...so just keep on looking ahead..i'm always here..you know that! Happy birthday sweetie...may god always look on you with his goodness..I LOVE YOU!!! Every single curl to the last little toe!!*mwuah*

All My Love,Gracie

and so the puzzle's pieces fall into place..if only for awhile..

it's becoming ridiculous!! BLOG SARA!!blooog =P haha
anw, Ytd was perfect..a perfect night with my more than perfect friends... met up with the rest of them from sch ytd..and surprisingly quite a few ppl actually turned up!Gladys' planning skills must be awesome;p hehe.. tho there wasnt time for more one-on-one conversations...and really talking.. it just felt so right sitting down with these ppl and just catching up a'lil... it's so wonderful to see how everyone in some way has grown over the past few years.. we're different.. yet at the heart of it all... we're always connected..and that's what makes spending time with them so special...So thank you girls..everyone of you..it was the perfect evening! it's like coming home..everyone's familiar yet a'lil diff...but everyone's loved...so for that few hours..i'd come home..and if i had my way..it'll always be that way!:) if only i could hug u guyz and never let go!

i cant wait for sara to come back! i need some TLC-Two of us Laughing Crazily!!;p- and it can only come from sara! haha lonce your back girl, we can meet up with the rest again..suffice to say..I CAN'T WAIT!!! haha..so hurry back!

other than that this week's been hectic! late nights and early mornings..it drives me crazy! the communion was good.. everything was so rushy..people had places to go... but we had fun..with family and friends everywhere..Isaac's graduation on sat..my lil icy's growing up!! primary one for him next year...guess watching cartoons will be a lonely affair from then on...hahaha ok i think i've babbled on enough for now... i'm going off to find someone to disturb!! Ali...sleepover on fri?!?! YAY! hehe

i love every single one of you...i love you guyz so much..words wont do it justice!

*Gracie

it's been really long hasnt it?? let's see...since the 16th of sept..haha not as long as i thot..my comp's so wacky it's not funny..i cant even see half of wat i'm writing..gosh! as long as something comes out i guess...

anw, everyone's on friendster...and everyone's hooked..but me...haha...they spend so long on it...maybe once the comp works properly and i can actually see everything i'll b just as excited too..for now..it's fun bumping into long lost friends..haha wouldnt it be nice finding a pri sch friend i haven't seen since..erm pri 6..hehe

..exactly who lives in those big huge houses...those really really big..fit for a..erm..a not-so-rich king...big big gardens and flights of steps...pillars and whatnots.... how do they go to sch...i'd just like to meet one person who lives in those kinda houses...

they're finally triming the tree outside our room..FINALLY!! when it rains, the branches actually brush our windows! pity tho...it was full of leaves and all....but now i can see stuff outside!! i have a scenery!! ok it's just another block but at least it's not just leaves everywhere....best of all...sunlight!!!yay let the sunshine in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i made it..woohoo

hola, como estas?..there actually supposed to be some symbols in between but i edited them out.well school has been gr8 so far.three weeks in and i only skipped one day of class. i was thinkin that todae i would try and type in what i had in mind the last time but i forgot.my roommate just told m that there this new webpage called turnitin.com, it actually checks essays put for plagirism which in a way is cool but in another way is the dumbest thing( or atleast not fair).i mean if you write an essay from the top of your head, i am sure htat someone has had the same idea and has worded it the same way(remember Lit class Grace?..) we had to write a thesis statement and it came out like 90% the same.so even if you thought the idea was original and all yours, there is no way you can prove it.Well. for those who do plagirise, obviously i am so glad there is such a thing...oh i would like to ask any of you thats reading this to join friendster.com, its this connection thing where you meet frens of frens et, pretty cool, so if you do like or just wanna mk friends.i know i sent some of you the invitation.but only do it if you want to. i joined n u wont believe who i saw thru connections(i dint tok to her) i saw Aresha, from SAC. (if you dont remembe..it dont matter)
lets see what else has been going on...oh i am going to US on the 3rd, evening..i was hopin fer an earlier time but i dont knoe depends if i can postpone my Spanish exam.well goin to see my uncle, his wife and kids(adorable gals)..And my GRANDMA..i love that woman with all my heart.and you knoe wot..i get to eat REAL food..(yum yum all the curriess(.man i dont cook so going over htere is going to be Xcellent...and i think i am so blessed( i have not gone holy and all that just that i feel that i am really lucky) my family is coming over..just to celebrate my birthday...i would like to take this time to congratulate my parents on 21 years of marriage..although they will never get to read this, i want to tell them that havin them as MY( all MINE) has been the best.well coming back to the trip so...they are coming here..woohoo..i wish i could pack some of you guyz(u knoe who) n bring you over here. hopefully( i can muh result sheets with all A's on them..wont that be so cool...i have more to write..but rite now i have to get Some slp n TRY and wake up tmr fer an 8 o'clock class..in high sch it was so easy...u cld wake up late and catch a cab to sch..here the freakin cab costs are so HIGH...(by the way Grace) help me out with the templates coz i think that stayin only one way is pretty boring...will be blogging soon..

i've come to conclude that the bettle lives in our room..it comes out at night.. scaring us..flying all over the place..landing on our heads and hands..and it disappears in the morning..making us think it flew out the window sometime during the night.clever little bugger... i wonder where it hides during the day...hmm

sara's been having trouble with blogger...that's y there hasnt been much said from her side ;p but i do know she's fine and at this very moment is stuffing her head with spanish... frankly, i've nothing much to blog about..it's been an ok week... lots of plans cancelled but i didnt mind... for now i'm a happy girl...i've got people loving me.. and for now..that's all that matters...

sonkey!! u prolly wont see this..well not now anw, but i do miss u so much!! more v-mails for u!!promise! haha...
bambi- thru all the uncertainty, i just know it's plain to see..and it fills me with so much happiness! it really does
SARA!! everyday i miss you so much more!! my crazy laughter misses your crazyness to laugh at..haha..
Karen - u'll prolly NEVER see this..but still... the world holds an amazing amount of things just waiting for u to discover them.. it's been long since i saw that lovely spark..too long! i'm glad you've found something your heart's just screaming out at u to show the world...it's beautiful..YOU'RE beautiful..
lemboo - you..you just make me feel so loved... i love those eyes..i love that smile..i love every hug..most of all i love YOU.. i want to b there for u..whatever it is... whenever it is..
cEeDeE - we'll make that meet-up happen soon yeah?? we'll make it a reunioun!! *sings* allamanda is the best..we are better than the rest!!=)
JAG*s - u people!! outing soon?pls?? just missing tiny eyes and ugly toes..haha..

HAH! that's about it..i'm BORED!!

*Gracie

The week's been pretty long. Amidst all the excitement of the week..my dog passed away... He was in a lot of pain..and my aunt thot it was best to let him be free of it all... i miss that furry little guy. Didnt have the chance to see him for awhile since we are here more now... So he's gone, just like that too.. After 10 odd years of faithfully loving, maybe he needed the rest... Or maybe he missed my grandma too and figured life would be so much better up there...hmm

the week was packed with JAG*s outings..but as usual, i loved every minute of it..Went to sentosa TWICE this week...and now i'm black!! BLACK!! a'lil more and my mum wouldnt be able to find me in the dark unless i smiled :) there was this kid there ytd, cute little boy..with a head full of blonde hair and big, qurious grey eyes..and a laugh that would melt even the hardest heart! really!! he let us carry him..didnt even cry when he's family swam out of sight..his elder sis was really shy tho...and just kept saying..I am harry's sister then running away..haha.. i told Mop, i want a Harry too!! hehe

went back to school...they chased us out and asked us to come back later..some new rules or something..being there, makes u realise just how much u miss being there! haha and how much of ur life was spent walking down those corridors...ah well.. was suppose to go sing song with the mop today..but Jules managed to pass me her germs and now im sick and voiceless!! argh!! was suppose to meet my darling lemboo last night..but plans got cancelled..and i guess she was pretty annoyed coz she practically snapped at me when i called.. i'm sorry gal.. we'll meet up really soon k? really soon..We really are worried abt u..i wish u'd just tell us if something was wrong or not..but i guess we just have to meet u to find out..Soon k???

alritey, i better head off to do something more constructive...the weekend's packed!! sigh..i miss u all.. oh yeah.. Bambi, i don't know what it is..but u and i both know what happens...i wish u wouldnt but that's the way it always is...hurry find ur way back to me will u..i miss u! Sara, i don't know what's happenng with u!! hopefully we'll bump into each other soon..i miss u too!! so much!

Silver, u came to us as a tiny little puppy..and i've loved since the first time u stuck ur head out of that toy train..everybody did... even sara couldnt help but love it everytime u managed to chase the annoyin malay tutor out of the house faster with ur constant barking.. it'll feel awful going home and not hearing u greeting us...or jumping around just begging for a few pats... but u're happier now..and in a much better place..so keep an eye on mamma for me k? and know that i love u....

take care everyone....
Love, Grace

My sis's birthday ytd!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANET!!!! haha..all the special august babies ;p.. but no one can deny...the Nov/Dec babies are the best!!yes?? YES! haha..went at night to collect the bike for her...and then we had cheeeese rice..yum! hehe it was all good..spent the whole of ytd..keeping appointments with people..I can finally sign up for sch Di!! - i think!- YAY!!~sonkeys'*huGz*~ hehe...

spent tdy with Jules...that poor sick RG..hehe..and the mop met with us for dinner later..her perm's nice! alrite..i'm SO tired!!

Bambi - it'll b ok...right?
Sara - where are u girl?? i'm the only one blogging!! i miss you like crazy!!
LEONIE!! ;P haha ok ok LG - baby girl, ur msgs seriously make my day! even if they're only about ur other appointments ;p haha
Sonkey!! - u n me n iced choc? soon?
Lemboo - u silly little cow... my miniature lembu doesnt hug me the way u do!! u promised 'coffee'... better make it soon!
JAG*s - i love you guyz!!nxt week's packed with our outings!!

i know...most of them prolly wont see it..but nvm..at least im always thinking of them! ;p...alrite! take care...nites!
*Gracie

the weekend was great!! but ytd, ytd was awesome! it was a really really special day...my bestest friend's BIRTHDAY!!! as of ytd, she's been alive for TWO decades!! that's something to b proud of, if u ask me ;p after worrying and fretting over it..everything somehow fell into place...it may not have been the way she hoped for...but it all fell into place. she was surrounded by people who loved her dearly...by yummy food...and the half-past six deco we put up ;p and of course...PRESENTS!! hehe.. i stayed over...even after slyma's health advisery;) we were both tired..but it was nice..we should do it more often di!! no1 talked abt parachutes this time...but it was just as fun...we looked at pri sch pics...and just talked..abt anything that came across our dead tired brains... woke up early...EARLY in the morning...and she had to go off to work..so i follwed and found my way back home....i was standing in her room when she was taking her shower...and just looking around.. and i thot to myself.. how can i ever think she'll forget me..it's not possible..coz her room is full!...of stuff ive given her..of pics and toadstools ;p hehe..it's just full of memories...and it felt good just standing there..looking at stuff..and remembering!

ok...this'll not be complete till i pay a special.. TRIBUTE =)

and of course...it's to u.. ADELIA! i'm so happy! spending time with you always makes me feel that way.i loved seeing your 1st smile of the day...it was like the whole room lit up!! -or maybe it was just the sun ;p- you've been living for 20 years now!! and most of those years..u've shared with me... from brownies dancing round a bluff toadstool;p to eating brownies with ice-cream! raising n lowering flags, silly girls day outs, dissing people, smiling, laughing, hugging, crying, misunderstandings....you've just always been there. You've shared your family, your friends, your house..everything with me.We grew up together..and we'll probably be growing old together ;) but even then, u'll still be my bestest. Nothing will come in the way of our promises of forever! i wont let it..

i've been truly blessed with u...someone who loves me unconditionally...and keeps dreaming with me..who reaches out when i get lost.and always helps me find my way.who wont worry about getting lost WITH me..just someone who can look right into my heart..and still want to be right there thru it all...i hope u really liked the flowers...and everything else. i wanted it all to be perfect..but somehow it didnt really turn out looking that way. there's so much i want to say.But i'll never find the right words to reveal the depth of it all...But maybe u'll see glimpses of it...just look at me smile when i'm with u...look into my eyes..and u'll know...u'll know that i love you..that i'll be here, there, anywhere for u.that our hearts are linked..and nothing will ever be able to break it...

i love you sweetheart...Happy Birthday... your dreams are just waiting to come true.. so just keep looking ahead..and don't look back..i'll catch u when u fall.Promise.My world would be a sadder place without u..

*Grace
| | u only find a once-in-a-lifetime friend... once in a lifetime | |

For the truly special people in my life..especially || Sonkey!! || you mean the world to me.

- I live beneath the heart
I watch you from the dark
I'm every breath I'm every dream
I've known you forever
I've followed you everywhere
I'm every scar I'm who you are
When you think you're alone
When you cry cos the world's unfair
You can rest assured I'm always there

Even when you feel like you don't belong
Even when you fall and it all goes wrong
Know that I'm with you
That I'm with you all the time

Say a little prayer for the restless heart
We shall never ever drift apart
Know that I'm with you
Know that I'm with you
With you all the time

I walk thru every room
I'm laughing when you smile
And when you cry I cry too
I made you a promise
That I shall forever be
You're on your own but not alone -

yup...i'm with you ALL..all the time;) haha..take care!
*Grace

I'm so tired! things going missing.important things..they just disappear..one minute they're there..and the next they're not.My mum keeps joking that we've got a HUGE toyol running ard.it's driving me mad!!leave my stuff alone!!!! the computer also, going wacky..sighz!

Angry words exchanged..ok more like msged ;p with sonkey ytd. i hope u know i didnt mean it! i don't know where the anger came from.and i don't know how it disappeared so fast.i just know I LOVE YOU too much to keep taking out my silly moods on u! i'm glad things are ok. poor sonkey, her b'day's round the corner and nothing seems to be working in her favour.i remember past b'days!!plans arranged at least a week in advance! and this time it's a big one too..a new chapter..another milestone ;p but..i'm sure it'll all work out in the end! so don't worry already!haha

this branch narrowly missed my head ytd!...it bounced off the car next to us and cracked into two.my sis was even closer to it!...scary to think..if we had just taken one more tiny step...-shudders...

on a lighter note..Jules, i bought the wallet!!YAY!! haha..yeah but there's nothing left to put into it..haha..

alrite, think im gonna find some lunch - haha..as if i live in the jungle;p - bambi, you're right..it's been a good year.thank u for it..just thank you for everything.seriously, i don't know how i managed to get so lucky;p oh yeah ceedee's little msg made me think of all our sily pri sch days..haha how we used to squeeze into seetha's dad's car...and how we were some crazy-must-play-hopscotch-everyday kids;p and how cikgu zarina loved pulling our ears..haha especially mine and elly's..and sara's right?? with those nails of hers! projects in didi's house..that time ceedee cut her hair..and didnt wanna talk to us..like it was our fault!! ;p and i think ceedee's dad's shop.and when it rained so heavily..all those mega-huge cockraches would decorate the walls and we had stand near them not to get wet but elly'd go mad running around in the rain..eventho she still had to take the sch bus home!..CEEDEE,DIDI,ELLY,SARA and whoever else i missed out...we've known each other for so long!! we practically grew up together..i miss those days!:)

ok ok..i'm going...

*Grace

'Shit' green colour today..for a special tribute to one of the best friends i'll ever find :) haha.... The colour itself will let sara know who i'm talking abt..none other than our dearest siti AISHA !!! hehe Happy Birthday girlie!! i wish i could have spent it with you..if we were still in sch she'd had started reminding us probably earlier than June! 20 today huh?? told u..practically an old makcik already;p Aisha's a great friend..anyone that knows her..cant help but love her... lotsa love in that short little body! :) when u're around her..you just wanna smile smile smile...

friends since sec 1...special probs brought us together in sec...2?? kept quarreling like crazy in sec 3;p unending massages in sec 4..and sec 5??we were all stuck together with glue! not forgetting she was my trust-worthy - ..just as lazy as me...purposely missing lessons together in the name of IT...- AV rep partner.. hehe..

she always took care of us...had the softest hands on earth!!...gave free head massages practically everyday! helped everyone she could...got on ppl's nerves...sang her heart out-broke a few ear-drums- whenever she wanted to...stood up for the ppl she loved...smiled..even when no one was watching...

i'm glad we're still friends...i'm glad we went thru so much together! i'm glad ive got such a special gem in my life..-even if i see or her from her next to never-...i'm glad for 5 years i saw her everyday...talked on the phone ...went for malay lessons...and maths remedial..recesses-on the floor!- and lunches...i'm glad for talks we had..for special,stupid,funny moments we shared...i'm glad that 20 years ago...she was born!

so Aisha..u'll probably not see this..but.. i love you..always have and always will...you brought lots of sunshine and sadness into my life...and not for anything will i ever change that... even now..when we cant find time to meet up..or even talk ahwile..just the thot of u makes me smile..there'll never be anyone like u!! my life would probably be different-at least a'lil!!-if not for u...thanks for everything..i love our memories! but i love you more..Happy Birthday once again..and this..is for YOU! take care..we'll catch up soon?? *muacks* love,Gracie

i love our new template..it's perfect! :) haha...it may look a'lil messy to some..but im too lazy to do anything else abt it...to us..it's perfect! hehe...and it's all thanx to KELLY!! *applause* her designs are great..so if u're looking ard for something..pop by..u might just find it there;p haha...

anw, looks like tmr's sentosa trip's cancelled AGAIN :( nxt week prehaps..bleah..i STILL cant find my card..it's driving me absolutely insane! ah well, i'm gonna go look again...take care everyone...love you all..sara'll blog again..once she's gone over the exam hurdles ;p hehe

*Gracie
|| u know i miss u...anywhere i go, i know u're always there ||

So today's the last day sonkey'll b online..well, for awhile anw:( nvm, we have the phone!! haha...the weekend was pretty tiring..with lunches and kiddies staying over...but it was a nice kinda tiring..haha.. isaac did a sweet performance of "i love you more than i can say" haha he's such a sweetheart...

off to the airport later...relatives going for a holiday sort off...will miss them..even if it's only for awhile ;p

SARA!! good luck for ur examz girl!! u n i - n everyone else- knows you'll do brilliantly!! haha right guyz?!?! N you'll get into that uni..believe me!alrite?

write more later!

*Gracie
|| lately, i see u next to never....
but nothin'll come in our way of forever ;)||

So tired!! sheesh..today went well...forgetfuless may just run in the family ;p alicia didn't manage to drop by..yeah la yeah la..go to the zoo without me still don't wanna drop by...i'll hold u to that promise moppy! haha too tired to write much abt today...just wanted to say......HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! my fellow country?!?..island people! :) no matter what..i'm proud to say...i love our tiny island...it'll always be home i always feel so ...so nostalgic..especially when we watch the -nicer parts of the- ndp ;p haha... maybe it's knowing that we have come far...haha...alrite i'm TIRED! nites everyone!
~We are told no dream's too bold that we can't try for
There's a spirit in the air, it's a feeling we all share~
*Gracie

Caught up with my sonkey FiNaLLy!! bats and weird humour and mata orang and slyma sharpening her parang in the background.Perfect!haha..we managed to catch up online..ah the joys of the wrold wide web! kept u up..sorry! haha everytime i told myself 5 more mins..it became at least 15 more.her uncle's getting married..or maybe the ceremony's over already?!? haha but i do wish him all the happiness in the world..coz he deserves it! i still cant believe that silly bird's nest boy actually WaNtEd to go to sch!to each his own i guess..haha sonkey, u really make So happy ;p So is so happy whenever u're ard..whoever so might be..haha..

my room's in a mess.a huge mess.we ALWAYS do this.last minute-chucking things out of sight.haha..need to clean it up for tmr..actually im suppose to be cleaning the whole house..and help my mum prepare..argh!! i'll write later!

*Grace

Today was Great! =D sometimes, little nuisances really do happen for a reason! well, went to meet my sis..she wanted to go pressie shopping for a friend.so i arrived kinda late.Had a'lil trouble with my mum and bro.Missed the bus and the train took EIGHT minutes to arrive.so i was quite late! Walked around a'lil.She saw something she liked but decided to walk around somemore.was on the escalator up when some crazy person runs up the escalator and gives me a huge shock!!! i turn around and it's none other than........ my darling LEMBOO!!!!! =) haha..i was so happy to see her.Was thinking about her the whole day..wondering where she disappeared too..and if she was ok... and there she was standing behind me with that huge smile..haha.. didn't get to talk much.waited for her fido dido ;p to come up the escalator then she had to go. she asked abt sonkey...said she'd drop by if she knew where u were workg ;) she dyed her hair reddish i think..really NiCe...so, she promised 'coffee' one day..which will be soon i hope -everyone keep ur fingers crossed!- haha...i love that gal to bits! so much! she never fails to make me smile...i could hug her forever...and she'll never make me let go :)

oh yeah...i baked my very first apple pie last week..along with some potato bread..Yummmmy..i'm so proud of me ;p haha

dekap's back..but i have managed to forgot my account name..and i don't think i have space for a tag board..but i do love the smilies! hehe..how sara?? comment box or tag board?

Jan, if u read this..had fun shopping with you! we havent been able to do that in awhile..haha..told u the chicken and rice would be yum ;p i love you!

i have to make an appointment with the citibank guy..i need money! i NEED to go to sch!!! ah well, need to go help my sis wrap her friend's pressie..nites..

was that no pickles, extra mustard and no onions?!?! haha..

*Gracie
Ps: sonkey, it's the little things that matter...:) n oh yeah.. thank you!! i love the template too ;p it's perfect!hehe

||sonkey.sara.bambi.boo.JAG*s.Mi.Sher|| i miss you all

Sara, sorry abt earlier..comp hanged on me.Sonkey, i miss you.msg me back will ya! ;p haha Mop, stop avoiding me..hehe Jules, how was the ball? i miss the JAG*s every other day outings!! Bambi, we didnt talk today :( you know you're my pumpkin! haha..i love you guyz

i was an absolute klutz today.just kept banging into and dropping things.Dropped an iron that was on display and a whole row of asparagus! hit my head on the bed and the cabinet.somehow managed to walk right into a cyclist.i didnt even see where he came from!!all this and more..not bad for one day huh ;p

isaac danced on sat.it was cute..all the little kiddies in their overly shiny costumes :) townsville pri put up this fusion dance or something..it was really really good.no kidding!even the costumes were really pretty. i seriously wouldnt have minded if they danced one -or two or three ;p- more times...haha..

i've been messing ard with the templates..so it may be kinda messy for now..as long as sara doesnt mind..it doesnt matter! haha

contacts really dry..time for some sleep..nites!

my life's changing..everything's rearranging...but i don't know where i'm suppose to fit..

*Gracie
||i'm happiest when i'm with you||

my puzzle's got so many holes....

i gotta make this real quick...so we're back.it's been a long week. but more on that later..when the computer's free-er -i know i know..no such word..-

i miss my friends..i really do.i miss seeing them and talking to them.i miss laughing and hugging and gossiping.i miss it all..from the friends who are oceans apart..to the friends who are just across the island..i miss u all...

i've been missing sonkey alot.it's been ages since i heard her voice or watched her get annoyed or shared an iced choc.or smiled at myself whenever she has to repeat her special order for a cheeseburger.even longer since i held her hand or made slyma annoyed that we were STIL on the phone.i just miss her so much.

ah well..i gotta run..i just wanted u guys to know...I MISS YOU!! i'll write later...
*Gracie

i'm just messing around with the templates..you don't mind right sara?? ;p anw, the flu bug managed to catch me!it's been awful ever since...last night i went to sleep early-well earlier then usual at least ;p-coz my head was pounding like mad.But i couldnt sleep!just kept tossing and turning and coughing-felt like my lungs were ready to jump out..trying to fall alseep while i can't breathe seems to be freaking me out a'lil...so i didin't sleep till my mum came to wake my sis for school!!finally i managed to find one pathetic packet of woods lozenges..which soothed my throat considerably..

oh yeah ytd baboo called..n she was asking me if i took any panadol or anything yet..so i said yup..just now..then she asked"when?"so i told her..then she went"from who?" so naturally i thot she was askg where i gt the panadol frm..so i said.."huh?my cupboard?!?" after some confusion of her asking one or two more times..she finally said.."no, who passed you the flu??" ;p

alritey..i'm gonna go down to buy some cough mixture..ughhh..-mum's oders- take care all of u*cough cough* ;) miss u..lots! oh yeah..this site's nice:) ember it's a site for first love stories..no one posts anymore..but the archives are still there...some are really sweet..and some are sad..some have a happy ending some don't..haha..

*Grace

Heylo I m so sorry that I have not blogged fer so long but anyways here’s the scoop of my ultimate freaky life.things have been pretty weird yet cool.let me elaborate on what I m saying.
Last week it was one of those weeks where everything just felt rite although It mite have bn bad.i knoe it sounds weird..but it was.fot the whole week I dint see this guy I kinda like. I was pretty upset abt it but I was thinking if that’s the way things are supposed to be then so be it. Well then come Fri it was one of the perfect dayz, went to sch got ‘caught’ doing dumb things.Quote “ you look like you are up to something but I have no idea what” by one of my philosophy teachers.it was pretty weird coz all I did was smile. then when sch was over I was on my way to the elevator when I fergot something n was going to say S*it when one of my teachers came ard so I tried to chg it to “oh no” so it sounded like “shno” she laughed at me. We are not supposed to curse in front of teachers so..(sidenote:its freakin hot..there are so many bugs ard, I hate it. I m an insect hater)there was a lot more but I wont type coz its crappy. After that I went to the café downstairs and then muh guy came down.its so weird my frens say he likes me too but I don’t want to believe it yet I do.knoe wat I mean?well then because there was no space to sit next to me, he left.i knoe it sounds perasaan but I think its true.blah blah…
Evening comes and I have dance.this techer that I think is so cute.dances with me twice..i think every guy asked me to dance twice todae.it was sooooo good.just one of those days. *sighz*yeah perfect n then that nite I call home n muh family is doing great and my bro got an A fer Math.considering he hates math or gets bored of it pretty fast this was like wow…I m not being sarcastic. :oP
Sunday: went to church it was weird coz this lady asked fer muh number after she fd out I was from Singapore.she loves our administration.trust me she kpt on reapeating herself.i dint want to give it to her but then I cldnt Xactly lie after church now cld I? the whoel world wants my number except the guy that I want….actually that’s not true.its in his fone.just tat he no call yet.we all preparing fer ou Xams that is coming up in three wks then its BREAK!!!!!..woophi..its so weird that to get to the best part , we have to tk on pain…or vice versa..doncha think that bitez?.

" Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens.
-- Jimi Hendrix
Time is the best teacher; unfortunately it kills all of its students."


P.S: i think i am oing to start learning this HTML thing so i can do stuff too....i learnt it b4 but i dint ever think i wld use it so i fergot all of it..now i have to re-learn.after my break ok?

ok..change of colour just for today..hmm let's see.. this should be gd..;p i've got the MoNdAy bLuEs!!i think this'll b a long entry...so if you don't wanna read..Go away! haha

Jules started her 1st day tdy!! -Congrats Jules!!you deserved it..believe me and i really am x-tremely proud of u:)love you!so much! JAG*s rulez!! *winks* haha don't forget to tk your lucky stars with you!!- tdy's racial harmony day!my sis brought a couple of saris for her frenz.. made me think of those 5/2 days..remember sara??haha..my mum actually came to tie the saris..and almost every1 gt all dressed up..then that mdm aznah didn't allow us to watch the concert or anything..made us sit in that bio lab for so long doing the stupid experiments..almost setting ourselves on fire coz the saris kept getting in the way...haha..but we all looked pretty darn good! even Mrs Lim got all dressed up...ahh all the memories..haha..i still havent gotten back some of them tho..hmm

so anw, the weekend was good.went back to my aunt's place.gosh i miss those kiddies so much..don't know how long we'll b staying at my place..on one hand it's great to be away from that annoying maid and all her evil stares.But i do miss those brats ;p they wanted to play badminton..the shuttlecock never stayed in the air for more then 2 secs..haha..but it was fun..playing in their cramped living room.laughing at each other..and finally,the shuttlecock flew behind a chest of drawers.we spent so long trying to get it out..in the end we were just to lazy and tired to start up another game.should have just left it there!

Alicia and i have come up with a plan to earn some cash and have a fun time at the same time.I can't wait.But that jules is prolly gonna hear it and say we're silly...haha..but nvm, we'll try make it work..why not right??we need the cash anw.haha..

alritey,it doesnt seem as long as i thot it'd be..forgt half of what i wanted to say! hmm dekaps' closed..looks like we have to look for a new shoutbox sara..well for now anw :( i miss our smilies ;p..ah well. oh i have something to say to Di..i can't seem to find your tagboard..so i'm just gonna leave it here for you k:)

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Sonkey,
i miss you so much girl!! i know you're really busy..and can't even seem to find time for yourself..i think;p
i havent been any better i guess..but i want you to know..that no matter how long we don't meet or get to talk..i love you lots..and u're always on my mind..always..n i'm always here if u ever need me k?
you'll always be my bestest,my ding ding banana donkey :) haha okey donkey?? haha...so miss me too coz i definately miss YA! u take care...and we'll meet up soon..-i hope;p- Love ya*huGz* and keep updating coz for now, that's the only way i know what's going on in your life!hehe
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ok that's it for now..i seem to have the caught the flu bug or something..i can feel it coming!! ;p you all know how i get when the flu strikes me..it's bad..so i better go find something to ward it off..

*Gracie
||some hearts they just get all the right breaks, some hearts have the stars on their side, some hearts they just have it so easy, some hearts just get lucky sometimes||

so, i had a weird dream last night.more like a nightmare! Didi was there and so was janet,rachel,sharon,sara and hotni kept shifting between being herself and veron.. we were on our way somewhere..and there was this gigantic spider..really really really huge and brown...and everytime it took a step there was this creaking sound...so we ran away..in different directions..and i bumped into my uncle..i think and he said it was an army spider?? haha...and that it was rare and we were so lucky to have seen it;p then me,didi,sara,hotni-veron and sharon went to this lady's place..apparently i was thinking of donating my bones?!?!? and rey just appeared out of nowhere..and everyone was just staring at me..and these ladies they kept asking if i was sure...coz it would hurt a little so they said they'd inject me with this drug...and see how it made me feel..and i could make up my mind after that.rey seemed to know alot about the drug coz he kept chiming in about how it wouldn't hurt and he'd used it before..haha..so they injected me..on my left wrist..and i started feeling dizzy...and soft noises seemed magnified in my ears...and then...my left hand started acting funny..and my left eye just wouldnt open..no matter how hard i tried..it just felt too heavy...and my other eye became blurry...and all i could see was haze..and my head just lopped to the left...the worst was the eyes...i just kept trying and trying but it wouldnt open..and i couldnt see! and i tried telling didi and all..but they simply couldnt understand coz the left side of my mouth wasnt working too!! so they thot that i'd agreed to donating my bones..and they were like "ok let's get her a surgery room"...and i woke up...

the first thing i did was make sure i could see and my eyes could open..it just felt so real..urgh!!

wonder where all that rubbish came from;p hmm anw...been staying at home pretty much these past few days..doing things i absolutely detest :cleaning!! :p haha.. hmm wat else..oh sat was an uncle's 50th birthday...and his cake.. was shaped like a gigantic bottle of tiger beer..and some of the kiddies were actually afraid they'd get drunk if they ate it:)

ok that's it for now ..just had to get that nightmare out of my mind..;p write more later!

time for some lunch!

*grace

i'm so tired.spent the past two days with..yes jules n alicia..saw yasmini ytd..haha..just bumped into her for a couple of secs...oh n saw pam today!

tmr's sentosa trip's cancelled...another day k moppy?? yas,jules n me all have something on tmr..on the one day alicia has nothing on...ah well..another day..promise. spent today mostly at juliet's place..bought our bracelets...i love the JAG.s haha.. always in three k?? cant wait to start on the twinkly paos..i was serious ok!

sometimes i feel so lonely..it's a weird feeling..it just washes over me..suffocating me..i can b around a thousand ppl..yet i'll still feel it...as strong as ever.. and everytime it comes...it'll bring along,all the pain that comes with the awful rememberance that i don't have my grandma..that i'll never have her with me..ever again..for the rest of my life..and that's a very long time not to see or hear..or even just hold someone u love so much..

sometimes, i literally can't seem to catch my breath...it just hurts too bad...i need my friends to help me..yet i cant seem to let them..it hurts to relive the pain..every sunday i try to visit their niche..but wat's there?? their ashes..hidden behind a a slab of marble..cold to the touch..no smiles or kisses..no nagging..no nothing..

so sometimes, i feel so lonely..like i was standing at the edge of a huge black hole..and the smallest thing just caused me to tumble over...and then it's just me in empty darkness...reliving every memory, every little quirk...just every little thing..i'd give anything to have even a tiny chance to give everything to have her back...back here..with me...where she belongs

Grandma went to Heaven,
but I really need her here today,
My tummy hurts and I fell down,
I need her right away,
Operator can you tell me how
to find her in this book?
Is heaven in the yellow part,
I don't know where to look,
I think my mummy needs her too,
at night I hear her cry.
I hear her call her name sometimes,
but I really don't know why.
Maybe if I call her,
she will hurry home to me.
Is Heaven very far away,
Is it across the sea?
She's been gone a long, long time
she needs to come home now!
I really need to reach her
I simply don't know how.
help me find the number please,
is it listed under "Heaven"?
I can't read these big big words,
I am only seven,
I'm sorry operator,
I didn't mean to make you cry,
Is your tummy hurting too,
or is there something in your eye?
If I call my church maybe they will know,
Grandma always said when we need help that's
where we should go.
I found the number to my church
tacked up on the wall.
Thank you operator,
I'll give them a call.

*Grace
I'd.give.anything.

thanks Grace, i was thinking abt it n i figured that i just see wot happens. he asked if i went to bladed..n i said no n told him muh sob story of how i hurt muh back trying.so i got him to promise me that he wldnt let me fall if i went with him..heheh innocent me..well i have to tk him up on the offer.but i think it will be alot laterz as he has tests n so do i..but soon hols will behere n since muh frens wont be here..*crossg fingers* we prob go out.i m dreamiing tho..but wotever.bot thanks fer offering.todae is muh dad's b'dae.i called him.gosh i miss home.this is like the third year that i missed muh family's birthday..Sukz..ironically i went to buy his present todae tho..wotr a horrible daughter i am.but i called him,that mks me have the brand 'its the thot that counts'.
well i'll send his present tmr,,(oh the time i write this is like at midnite)k i think i m falling aslp..i just wanted to do smthg before iwent toslp..like write in here..
P.s:Grace, who reads this?.just wanna knoe that all

i did lots of house cleaning today! ;p i swept,mopped,scrubbed,washed,folded,dried,cleared...sheesh..if i were my mum i'd be so proud of me ;p haha...was suppose to meet sonkey..but the plans got cancelled..i think..and i'd already told jules i wasnt free..so i just decided to clean clean clean...took me the whole afternoon...and evening...i really wonder how ppl make their places so shiny...;) i cleaned for so long and it doesnt even sparkle a'lil ;p

anyways..Sara the offer stil stands you know =D hehe..i can always help u tell...haha..

hmm looks like dekap's still down..we can always just get another shoutbox or somethin..but i do love the smilies!!!..nvm we can wait..ok sara! ;p haha

my weekend was ok...spent most of it ferrying my darling cousins around...dunno how my aunt manages to control them on the train...or anywhere else for that matter;p haha..met up with alicia..on her "last" free day before sch started..well, she's always busy on sundays...so sat evening was spent with her...it's been so great..met up with her n jules so often this hols...and she made herself free..which is rare coz she always has to work so she can retire soon;p rite moppy?? :) hehe...we can get annoyed with each other..yet have a blast when we meet..we can grumble n nag...yet still smile n feel happy when we spend time together..haha...love that mop!n that tortoise too;p

saw this line somewhere...~all girls are meant to be princesses....it's their birth right...~ haha..well this princess needs to try get some sleep soon...needs some rest before more cleaning tmr..take care all :)

*Princess Grace
::we're living in glass houses and we're throwing sticks n stones...
...the luv that will come to us is the luv that we have shown::

bloggin..

Azzo...grace you ard?.i feel like having ice cream rite now. thinking of it ..Thinkin thinking.....nah i m too lazy to walk there. Anyway, todae was pretty cool. I had this presentation i had to do with a grp.i think sincei havent been up infront of ppl in so long.todae when i got infront of everyone i jst got nervous.that hasnt really happened to me in so long.the last time i was nervous was when i was wat..4 yrs old.oh man.i am afraid that i screwed up my grp grd.man wots wrg with me!!!.well its over.i am getting into a lot of trouble with back home esp with my mother.i was thinking the other day that you know although I so want to go to university, I am afraid I will get rejected. so maybe that was why I was pushing the thot to apply laterz.but I have decided that I will apply after this semester, whatever happens. ppl pray fer me. I so want to get in and get into Law. I don’t know who Is reading this but wld u pray that I get in. besides that the day was pretty cool/ hot which ever fits. After sch I went to study at this coffee place below.have to start studying if I am going to want to get muh A’s.aniwaes after some time this guy that I like came in and was sitting with me and talking to me for like an hr.the onli reason he had to go wasso he cld catch the bus.he’s got two buses..and had to go study fer his XAms .he’s pretty cute.u knoe it suxs that I dint think of him in any way until muh fren said that he mite like me.that suxs coz now I kinda like him and yet I don’t want to tell him. Shucks!!..****..oh man..well that was like sweet n sour together.hehe cheesy line..k this is it.get back to bloggin soon

Hey wots up?...gosh things here are pretty cool the weather is screwed up. So much like home. Well sch was pretty cool todae. I noticed ppl’s ears todae I have no idea why.hehe two teachers of mine have elvish ears.its so cute. I keep on thinking if the move Lord of the Rings so cute.well urm there wasn’t much to do but you knoe how its one of those days when everything is so cool and yet nuthin much happenz?pretty interesting.hey I m serious on getting a tattoo..a small one though. I m just so wanting to do it although I don’t want to disfigure my body.u knoe they say that if you have a tattoo u wont go to heaven.oh man I so want to go tere..but I really want to get a tattoo. I want to get one with a sun. its got waves as its rays .i going to try and see if I can find a reason that its olrite with God and me. I mean I am sure He should allow it rite?.its the soul that represents your body. wot u think?
Hey my fren thinks I am rude. I like to think I make very creative comments. you guys can comment on wat I say. hehe because I was commenting that ppl have such funni ears. well u knoe its cute the simple things in life. some ppl have ears like Dopey from 7 dwarfs. well anyway, I was listening to this song by Everesence : Bring me To life..chk out the lyrics.
"Bring Me To Life"
(feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

..oh oh k i knoe the song sds sadistic maybe but i m just so feeling it rite now.u knoe i feel like i m turning half black n dont mean the colour of muh skin no more.i figured tha i wld nvr get muh colour back so yeah wotever ..i meant the way i speak.its not all of it but like i think its sds like it.so aniwae..back to normal mode..if thereis one oh u knoe the explosion thing..wow it was so bad.like i think 3 ppl got hurt really burnt..the cause of it was becoz of someone making pop-corn funni huh?..but then agn it was weird coz of all the reasons it was becoz someone wanted to pop corn.well alot of ppl lost their stuff.,it wasnt supposed to be an apt area but some ppl wr staying there so they lost everything.it was sad.these two tourists wr stayin around that area and they lost all their belongings ..like passports n tickets..which means they aint goin home anitime soon..so hopefully i'll bump into them..hah i m just kidding..k i m goin to go out to get something to eat.get back to here laterz.ciao

two entries in a day..haha so this is what i really do when i'm bored..blog n blog..wat a life ;p..anw, change of plans for me...i got all dressed up n all..put on my shopes..n realised i couldnt find my keys..my mum kept insisting my sis didn't take it..so the only thing i could think was that i must have dropped it or something in sentosa..after alicia gave it back to me...so i was locked in =(..n my brother came home and was locked out! haha..so annoying...but sis came home awhile ago...apparently she did take it...accidently..ah well...at least i got some chores done..i hate cleaning!

alicia n jules..sorry abt today k..there was no way i could get pass the gate! =p

Sara u ok?? it all sounds pretty scary..*huGz u tight*...i'm just glad it didnt spread to your sch or anything like that...and that u're ok and safe...far away but safe...was it a huge explosion??any casulties...ok i suppose there was prolly many...hmmm...wat caused the explosion??do u know?? i hope i see u online soon...it's been quite awhile..since we talked...

i was watching something last nite...n dis guy, he said something like...sometimes, becoming someone's best fren takeas a few mins...sometimes, it takes a whole lifetime..we're in between..haha..kinda nice...n true..in a funny way...rite bambi?? ;p all it took was a few days...n it'll last a lifetime!!i'm happy to be a part of ur life...for always! and that goes the same for all of u too...all u special ppl in my life..i love and adore..all it took was a few mins...and it'll be u n me...best of friends for ever..and a day!!=) here's a'lil something for each n everyone of u;)

I wanna be there when you're feeling high
I wanna be there when you wanna die
I'm gonna light your fire
Gonna feel your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when you're feelin' down
And I'll be there when your head is spinnin' round
Gonna be your lover
Gonna be your friend
I wanna be there til the end

if I had my way I'd hold you in my arms
And leave this madness all behind
Cause you got so much to give
But you throw it all away
And all you got to show for who you are is pain
And I've got so much to give
If you'd only let me in
I'm gonna take the time to show you I'm a friend
You'll believe in love again
I wanna be there in the pouring rain
I wanna be there when you call my name
I'm gonna light your fire
Gonna feel your flame
I wanna be there when you go insane
I wanna be there when I'm outta town
And when your whole damn world is crashing down

I wanna be there when your nights are long
And when you're feeling like you don't belong

juz bits n pieces of a song i really like...love ya sara!! u take care ok...i miss u so much!wish i was there..or u were here..or something ;p..
*Grace

BUrNt

Haizo...Todae was bad…gosh there was this Explosion near my sch n it spread like wildfire. It was freaky. I was in class and then suddenly everyone was murmuring and I think the teacher wasn’t in a gd mood todae..So then everyone is turning towards the window but the blinds of the window were not drawn so I cldnt see outside. the teacher was wondering why everyone was so fidgety ad so was like “Okay what’s so interesting outside?” n he opened the blinds, n wow it was like all black outside. it was weird coz since yesterday I knew todae was going to be bad. Generally I thot it wld be more of about me coz I was getting my results back. So I thot that was the only thing.that would be disturbing me. Then when I was looking at this. It was weird coincidence. there was also this other accident that took place on my way home. so weird..prob coincidence but its weird.
Sch was okie I guess. There’s not much I have to catch up on good studying.yeah I think I am headed to becoming a lawer.i was thinking of transferring out of here :out of Canada to UK.stil haven’t figured that out but a lot of methink I am goin to end up here

Sometimes you want to go
Where everybody knows your name,
And they're always glad you came;
You want to be where you can see,
Our troubles are all the same;
You want to be where everybody knows your name.
(part of the lyrics of Cheers theme)

P.S:I don’t knoe why I added that there…it was just appropriate for some reason

ok, so i thot i'd do this later tonite...but since sonkey left a v-mail n insisted......hey!it hasnt been very long since i blogged..just 1 day?!?! pffft ;p anw,might as well blog now

so, wed went to one of my aunt's place...haha...she's great company i tell u...she asked us to go over coz her neighbour or somebody was selling some earrings n clips cheap...so we went...didnt see any earrings that were even remotely nice..but my mum went crazy over the clips n bought 47 bucks worth of them...but i must admit they were real pretty :) n cheap...considering..=) but i had fun...spending time with my aunt...and her frenz...haha..she kept picking up all these lizard inspired stuff..haha...n gushing over them...and asking me to try..i just kept going.."but it's a LIZARD!" haha..

yeterday...was grrrrrreat...went to sentosa...jules,alicia,gladys n me..haha..it was fun...met gladys on the train..finally some company for me :)..it was so nice to see her..after soo long...n i dunno everytime, i spend time with her i feel so happy...it's like she cant help her happiness spreading to everyone..u know what i mean right sara?!?!...

got a'lil lost..coz of that mop..made us walk so far when the damn station is right next to the interchange...;p hahaha..apparently according to her the sun's brighter in sentosa...whatever la..i dunno...but it really was hot...so hot..i couldnt stand it...i'm black!!help!! hehe..we ate,n swam ;p,spied on couples doing who-knows-wat in the water,n ate somemore ;p haha...we even had prata!...but all in all..it was a great day...managed to scrape my poor toes against some rocks...but..everything else made it all worthwhile...haha...n of course we went mad with the cam!!..haha...

well, i better get ready to leave or i'm gonna b late n that alicia will nag abt it the whole day....oh yeah...sara, stop scaring me =p my eyes are fine now!!..haha ;p...love u guyz..lots! u know who u are:)

*gracie=)

BacK..

hey..how ya doin?...honestly i alwiz sign in here but i hv no idea wat to write coz nuthin goes on..its sch.home n everydya that happens..pathetic huh? oh i cooked todae..i made chicken curry ..considering that i have never cooked a proper dish in my life..excpet make a salad, i was so Xcited but no one here to share it with..sheesh..yeah well its not to bad actually..:P...i m so bored sitting at home.yesterday was Canada DAy n so evryone had leave.its was weird coz after the wkend, we had one day of sch n then anither holiday..shd have just given Monday as an off too.but fer me since i have no class on WEd, i get two days off..woohoo..but i onli sit at home n watch tv.
i was just thinking of my midterm, gosh think i screwed up..n muh essays. i m so hoping that idid not but ithink i did.need to get an average of an A- to get into uni...well i guess i have to study then..
its weird want to study but i ger lazy coz i think that ahh theres still time..suxz.
Grace, i suggest u see a doctor abt the eye prob. cld be really serious.eyes tell u wat really goes on in the body..tats wut i was told..
k i have to find things to write in hear..
get back to this thing soon..
TaK3 CaR3

i just had to..had to enjoy last week and look forward to a even better week..something's wrong with my eye...it hurt terribly ytd...alicia n jules had to cut short our day out coz of me..so sorry u two=) but they were really sweet abt it...didnt want to just carry-on n have dinner without me..so all three of us went home so early...

it's a'lil better today..at least it doesnt hurt when i try and close it...;p..hopefully it gets much much better before tomorrow..or it'll b no sentosa/beach for me..=( haha...but im sure it'll b ok by then *keeps my fingers crossed* n we should be able to go where ever u guyz want to...

looks like both sara n me are losing interest in blogging..haha..and i havent even finished the layout..focus grace focus!i'll go find that sara n remind her to blog...

*Grace