so i wrote somethin which was buggin me.. n three ppl smsed to ask me if it was abt them.. so now ive gt two ppl pissed at me and one really really sorry... wat hv i done! y are they angry at ME?! seriously.. it wasnt aimed at anyone in particular.. i was jus feelin down.. n those i really wanted to hv ard me werent really free and i jus jotted down wat i was feeling.. actually no, who am i kiddin it WAS aimed in a way at someone.. n tt was bambi..it wasnt anyone else..maybe i was in a way writin abt ALL of u..but at the core of it was bambi... the fren who took every single thing in my heart n provided me wit my safe haven frm the start n then juz chucked it all aside.. leavin me feelin lost wit no outlet for my feelings...

i read sonkey's blog..tt hurt.. pissed me off..but hurt more..she's my best fren.. she doesnt even nd to hear me coz she knows me.. so the words hit straight to my heart... so much anger n pain.. all directed at me.. yes i know ive been feelin like she's bn missing frm my life.. n yes i was alil pissed at tt..but did i really deserve all tt?! EVEN if it felt like tt post was abt u...if ur aim was to hurt me, it did babe..so thank u frm the bottom of my cruel heart..

i DID sms u back.. it was a late reply but i did.. maybe u din get it who knows...i know i could have made the first move.. tt i admit was my fault too.. sometimes, especially dis yr it jus seems like we were so far apart n egotistical me was jus waitin to see if u'd ever think of me.. i'm sorry 4 tt.. i din get the heads-up frm ur mum.. in fact u were the one who lemme know of ur situation.. ur mum asked me if i knew abt it only at nite... im not askin u to match up to my so-called new wonderful frens.. frens who i hv no idea where they r coz the only new frenz i hv made recently havent even been nice least they be wonderful..n do u seriously think tt anyone i met, anyone tt i am yet to meet could ever match up to U.. to where U are in my heart.. do u really think so.. i'm sorry I can never match up to the perfect fren.. that i can never be as wonderful as u nd me to be... tt i cant answer every fone call... tt my life bores u.. tt u feel u bore me... i never meant to mk u feel left out.. but did u ever stop to thnk mayb it was our natural human reaction of feeling left out of ur life... wen it's the the three of us i always try n mk both of u feel involved.. n yet both u n babs r saying tt u feel left out.. how abt me.. do i even matter in this equation... i dun wanna say anymore..nt here.. it doesnt feel rite talkin to my screen.. im sorry ive hurt u.. but somehow at this moment i feel like my heart's breakin..so gimme awhile...dun assume im nt replyin on purpose or anythin.. juz gmme awhile..

i love u.. even pain cant go over tt feelin...

make no mistake.. dis post IS 4 u..

Shadows are falling and I'm running out of breath
Keep me in your heart for awhile
If I leave you it doesn't mean I love you any less
Keep me in your heart for awhile
When you get up in the morning and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for awhile
There's a train leaving nightly called when all is said and doneKeep me in your heart for awhile
Sometimes when you're doing simple things around the house
Maybe you'll think of me and smile You know I'm tied to you like the buttons on your blouse
Keep me in your heart for awhile
Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams Touch me as I fall into view When the winter comes keep the fires lit
And I will be right next to you
keep me in your heart for awhile These wheels keep turning but they're running out of steam Keep me in your heart for awhile

jus alil update for the masses ;p yeah ok wateva.. haha

FINALLY met up with sara.. saw yas n chris too.. the circumstances we met under was not happy tho.. my dear chris's dad passed away.. i cant believe how i was jus speaking to her awhile back n everything seemed fine.. well only they now how hard its all bn.. everythin seems to be on her shouldres now.. being the eldest n all.. but i knw she'll manage... she has to.. all tt pain in her eyes.. those big beautiful 'turkey' eyes... filled with pain n sadness n yet so much courage n strength n jus the want to help her mum n sis..my heart felt like it would break jus hugging her.. imagine how many times worse she must have been feeling...my darling girl.. i hope u know u've always gt me here.. i know ur dad left behind three of his most beloved women.. knowin tt everythin was in ur capable hands.. knowin tt u guys will keep his memory alive for all time.. knowin tt even for generations to come his legacy will b known jus by lookin at these three women.. be strong darl..

other than tt..last wk was absolutely terrible... had the most awful cramps which lasted a whole wk! i am not kiddin u... every single day.. n it was so painful... on top of tt i had to go to work n school... n everything was jus going the wrong way.. it was awful.. at times like tt i was jus so grateful tt i work in a female environment.. where it was all understood n could be talked abt openly and lil 'accidents' were not disgusting or gross.. even if it happened every day!!they were all so nice..pitching in and helping n givin suggestions.. n letting me take so much of time off.. n jus showering me with al the love n concern i needed...i love u guyz! :) thx so much..

sighh...last thing i hafta say for tdy.. i know i kow dis is all over the place... i juz wanna let ppl know tt it's nt a nice feeling... feeling like u'e being taken advantage of... that when u nd me i drop every single thing n run to u.. ok well not literally run.. but i try my best to b there.. n when u dun nd me.. or my concern.. or my attention.. u juz chuck me aside like ytd's paper! sheesh c'mon la... i also have feelings u know...i am human too.. no matter how u might think otherwise... this has been happening long enough.. ive had enough..ENOUGH! we're all capable of acting rationally.. considerately..so juz spare a thot for me... it's not fun having a fren who i try to b there for but when ever i nd u to be .. i dun even see ur shadow ard me.. not once or twicw but EVERY SINGLE FREAKING TIME ...i think it's time i start giving more attention to other ppl who HAVE been there fr me... so whenever u feel like it.. let me know tt i've gt the real u back... i dun nd things to be the way they were before... i know tt's impossible...u've gt so many ppl to think abt i knoe...i jus want a smidge of u.. jus a teeny tiny bit will do...it's tiring being the giver all the time... n not having anything to receive... i want my day in the sun with u too!!!!having said all this..i bet nothin will change.. coz u prolly wont even feel the pinch.. n i'll prolly jus drop everything juz to hug u when u need it.. juz to b chucked aside again.. n knowingly or unknowingly, we'll jus b continuing this vicious cycle.. n y?? jus coz i love u.. dis is my price to pay i guess.. tat's wat frenz r fr? aint i lucky ive gt the best...

One of my best friends; Sher and her cute lil bundle of joy;ANDREW.. hope she doesnt mind tt i nicked her foto..sorry chandi!!!! ;) but i jus culdnt help it.. isnt he jus e cutest...arghhhh if i could only get my hands on tt lil man! heh heh..hw i wish they were here... sher's jus e bestest mommy n andrew seems to be simply perfect.. u've gt ppl loving u all the way across e world lil man..*huGz*.. love ya guyz! missin out on all the action...

so called in sick today..my nose n throat were really havin a go at me.. took a bus down to e doc.. yes i hv to tk a bus ride to visit the doc coz i jus simply like him so much ;p i have like 4..5?!?! clinics here but only tt one offers the personal touch..with those kind understanding eyes..so basically i dun mind travellin for the service..haha.. gt there n the doc wasnt in yet!!! darn... he was late!! late! irritating..by practicaaly 45 mins!! on a cold n rainy day..with the aircon at full blast n the nose leakin like mad and an assignment to complete at hm.. it din feel gd waiting... developed one of my headaches while waitn.. been gettin the headaches often nwdays.. so he finally saw me...he looked different.. nt the same, cute, red-faced doc both me n sara like ...no whom sara liked n i loved!;) he's grown he's hair out looooong...n he looks older definately.. but ahhh those eyes.. tt look of concern.. he's gt it down flat!he sed i was too stressed.. tt was causin the headaches..so he basically told me nt to go to work or sch tdy n to stay hm n rest..haha..gv me cough n flu meds.. n of course somethin for the headaches.. e meds were really strong.. i only tk the headache one..coz i wanted to do my ass.. but it knocked me out completely...unconcsious to e world.. n wen i woke up i was all sweaty..without even realizin! sheesh...

so anw.. i better get back to tt assignment..tho e head's still poundin.. n i juz wanna slpppppppp.. bleah... i'l b back later... bye ppl!

Happy teachers' day!! to the awesome teachers in my life who double up great frenz.. to the teachers who made a difference in my life.. to my informal teachers guiding me thru...and to me! ;p

haha.. su,debs,serene,le,qp,angel,qi.eu,jy,aunty g n aunty sm..thx, u guyz.. for everythin!! great teachers n even greater frenz..im glad i get to c u guyz everyday:) n tt we suffer together.. u fill my days wit laughter n joy! happy teachers' day baybeeeh;) hehe

godma,ms h, mrs lim,cikgu,sheryl,sharon l...thank u for once enterin my life n still being a part of it.. for being frenz n confidants..for all the knowledge n love u've imparted..love ya

nic,shamii,clarissa,serene,elaine,ayu,jay,rach,jyln...we make great teachers dun we!! =) bila bila!!

mama,my mum,my aunt, my uncle... basically my family..for loving me n guidin me thru out all my life..ur love for me is unconditional n it's wat holds me together sometimes.. the lessons u've taught me can neva b found in any bk..u guyz R my life..my 'life' teachers.. u've helped me b the person i am today.. n u STIL help me grow...i love each n everyone of u

anw, my assignment's outta my hands.. FINALLY! sheesh...thank u all, e ppl who pushed n pushed(nic) n the ppl wh had to do all the findin n last min things FOR me (jan&mum) n for the ppl who offered their help n really meant it(sher!&mum again!) ;p hehe.. i made it!! the nxt one's due in 7 days! dam..everyone gt red to go thru the cycle again!;)

sara's back!!!! n i havnt had a chance to talk to her yet! my gosh.. tmr tmr.. i'm gonna call her tmr n finally get to her tt laughter again!! cant wait...
bleah tired redi.. tmr's another day....ah well nites!

sometimes nobody seems to understand..

monkey..thx 4 ur call..
serene..i jus suddenly miss u so much..evntho i jus saw u.. cant wait 2 c u later..wish u were here rite nw..i noe u'd try n understand..at e least u'd bitch wit me..muck
juzme...i cant wait 2 see ya
my princess..could i get one or ur awesome hugz pls

it breaks my heart to hear my best fren cryin... it shatters it to pieces when it's one of my bestest.. sigh felt myself tearing wen i heard all tt pain in her voice... how i wish i could jus hold her close til evrythin jus boils over..til the world's a safe place again for a heart like hers.. babe wat can i do.. tell me coz i dunno wat to say..i dunno wat to do..

i'l b here
i love u...

it'l b ok...

oh my gosh... somebody jus save me pls! drowning in assignments...siggggh...with a whole big box of work related stuff jus watin to be completed...wat was i ever thinking la!!!focus grace focus...

has it been long? it has? well... im back now.. not that long considerin ur take on long.. long to person in pain may juz b one day..but long to a person filled with everythin they every wanted or needed would never be enough...
well so many things have happened... happy stuff... n sad stuff.. n im gonna try my best to jot it down.. let every thing have it's fair share.. it's 1 min of fame....



ali's grandma passed away.. ironic hw we were jus talkin abt her..alil weird hw we squabled n gt over it jus days before..a squabble which put me in the rite mindset to be there for her as best i could..hopefully makin a tiny diff if possible...tt kinda pain neva really goes away... from my point anw... i still feel my heart squeezin n tears comin wen i think of my grandma.. so whoever says it jus takes time.. i have no idea wat u're tinkin... but in a way.. it's gd u always rememebr.. its gd to always miss them.. coz it makes u treasure those days wt them so so much more...so i wish my ali alil peace.. to calm her heart..

its different havin frenz who're married or with kids... t's nt difficult.. jus different.. their piorites in life are different..they're at a different point of they're life...mybe im jus startin to feel it now wen im surrounded by frens who r wives n mothers more nowdays...but no matter i love them all still n still enjoy their company...jus no late nites or impromptu plans... ah well.. late nites.. mayb i jus grew up with too much of DIDI;p haha... my late nite partner..impromptu planner..haha...nw im so used to it sometimes i crave it

movin on to di..my sonkey...i hate wat life is puttin her thru... i hate the way she has to feel... but im sure she'l get thru it.. coz she's gt the strength in her... life can b unfair sometimes.. even the best get hurt.. they take it in their stride.. hold their head high n keep on hopin...coz tt's one thing u can never really lose.. hope.. n it'l get u thru the days somehow...but if even tt fails.. u've gt me babe..i cant mk things better...but i'll hold ur hand while we wait for somethin better...my heart goes out to u.. my heart goes out to him... who knows hw he muz b feeling.. all alone..dam..nt knowin wats happenin here...even tho we're nt the very best of frenz or anythin.. he's stil like family coz he's with u...so i still worry...it'l be ok babe..one day at a time k... sigh....

ok on to a lil happier news.. (i'll b ending soon k) hehe ok... i PASSED MY FIRST AID TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe tt was actually quite some time ago... the examiner really quite fierce n strict..but i passed!!!!! on my 1st try!!! hehehehe N i passed my first exam in my dip!!:) such a gd grade was really unexpected so tt really made me so happy!!!!!i know i know wats the big deal rite.... it is a big deal ok! haha ok last piece of info.. tt day one of my silly boys made me paic n worry.. i had to bring him to hosp..i tell u my heart felt like it was jus going to beat itself outta my chest..spent my whole day there with him...but nw he's ok..i think ;p hehe ok la tt's all for now.. i know it's a jmble... so many things wanting to b told at the same time... so many more things to say.but im lazy n tired n it'l jus have to wat til nxt time...

for sonkey n baba...nicked from one of my fav shows...
Sometimes we don't know our own strength. It can be hard to tell just how much weight you can safely bear, or how much will crush you. I'd like to think you can shoulder as big a burden as you believe you can, that it's all a matter of will. Certainly a comforting thought...Other times it's hard to remember you had any strength at all. Then you can only hope to have someone to remind you you were once fierce and able.

love u all...

for Baba...the in n out of me

im sorry...words tt were always so difficult for the stubborn headed us to readily admit to each other but the very words i wanted to continue sayin to ya.. n the words u sed back...readily.. i guessed we've evolved somehow from squabbling teenies to still squabling semi-adults who cn nw c the big pic faster....our first fight tt din last ovr days? :) hee... im glad things r in the open... n someow u know hw ive been feelin n i know how 've been feeling.... as i sed.. uve always bn such a part of me tt everythin seems magnified somehow... u've always supported me...encouraged me been there for me..even wen i couldnt find anyone else... frm the moment i gave u a piece of my heart u've kept it protected(well almost all the time;p except wen u're fighting wit me n wanting to kill me) it's bn hard fr me... i dunno if i can cope n there's so many things goin on.. n im sorry tt i din give a sec thot to u...i need u ali... to help me n be wit me n jus love me wen everythin doesnt seem to go my way n i cant find a single person who'l understand... i need u to b wit me wen even i dun wanna b wit me.. i need u to mk me feel impt n still the know-it-all of ur life... i need to hear ur sickenin jokes n ur sacarcism...i jus need u... n i know u nd me too... thx for everythin babe... uve been my blessing...i love u

*grace

teacher-by-day-student-by-nite!

i'm so exhausted...there seems to b so many things happenin at the same time i feel overwhelmed sometimes... n its jus the beginning!which comes first... which deserves my undivided attention... which should be my piority.... my family n frenz hv always come first... always...but im nt even giving them the time they so ritely deserve..n i hv no choice.. i cant help it! my poor mummy muz b feelin so taken for granted..she's bn doin everythin..none of us hv been helpin... for my part... ive nt even been at hm most of the time.. to b able to even do anythin! n wen i am im too tired to care! i jus hope se knows tt i love her with all my heart n im tryin my best.. i reall am!
on to happy things:) as of thurs i FINALLY started my class! hehe i wish my grandma were here to hv seen tt day.. i would have received the fanfare celebratin the occassion...i hope u're proud mamma...i jus wish so muh u were here!i might b far behind most of my peers... but only i know all it took to get me here. so now i am a teacher by day n a student by nite! hahaa hw ironic the provider of knowledge n the receiver at the same time! class seems to b ok... i could hardly kp myself awake..it'l take some gettin use to.. n everyone there seems so bloody smart... spewing theories n huge words so efortlessly... like everythin's just stored at the tip of their tongue!! n ere's so many ppl in tt class!!! so many smart ppl in the same place at the same time....sheesh;pit's like sitting in a huge dictionary or smth!
2 more classes to go for fa! dam i cant remember the sequences even!! i really really hope it'll b ok....i jus wanna pass!plssssssss!!!!!!!! =Dok i better go...off to my aunts... n to memorising abt bandages!
one n two n three n four n five n one n two n three n four n ten n one n two n three n four n fiften............................

ahhh! im so super tired! stayed home today aft work to get stuff done but obviously i din rite..;p darn... school's startin soon!!! excited...yet scared...;) yet alredi swampped by work n fa classes! i jus hope it'l all work out ok!hehehe eh im too lazy to blog!
ANYONE interested in helpin me redo my blog??? pls puhleaaseeee?? i promise to love u forever wit all my heart if u do! hahaha.... take care everyone!
erm seriously anyone interested?? :)

RACISM

how does it happen when we live in a multi cultural society.. how can ppl even think it wen our neighbours n sometimes even our own family members r of dff skin colours... how can ppl make themselves so ugly by being racist when they believe in their own gods n claim to b gd ppl n preach tt everyone is unique n special... how can they make thmselves out to be better than everybdy else.. wiser, stronger, richer more powerful... jus by judgin ppl by the colour of their skin.. lemme tell u.. in my eyes... U r the weaker as u jus cant see a person for who they r inside... U r less powerful coz u jus simply disgust me... u r definately missin a few brain cells coz u seem to think tt only certain kinds of ppl r worth occupyin this earth...PLS la! ive heard racist remarks b4..directed at me or otherwise.. i've seen racist stares wen the person in question is not entirely welcomed... n the only thing i can think is... where do u get off... where do u f***ing get off thinkin tt way?sigh wat can i say.. to each his own... anw at the end of the day wen ur time is up it's U who has to provide the ans for ur attitude...i am jus lucky n truly blessed in tt my truest frenz... the ones i love dearly... love me for who i am.. colour doesnt matter... red, yellow, blue, white wateva... some of them...namely my beloved ali shares wit me my culture n her own wholeheartedly...n immerses herself into it...every1 of the really impt ppl in my life dun see a difference in colour but the bondin of the hearts underneath...i guess tt's y they're the special ones=D so all u crazy ones jus go jump off a bridge or somethin

phew.. jus so pissed off abt some comments made by a few ppl... anw.. my poor sissy was follwed home by some psychotic bast*** followed my sis home all the way frm sch! crazy or wat rite! lucky my dad was at the traffic light.poor girl was runnin hm... she was so freaked..U crazy psycho..go jump off the bridge too... n make sure u land on some really pointy rocks... idiot!
hmmm anw, im startin classes on thurs! haha gt my timetable.. 1st module has exam! darn.... okie betta head to bed gt work then FA class somemore aft tt... take care my darlings... it's U i love! heehee...

*c'mon ppl lets live in harmony...let go off the bad thots n u'll realise how wonderful each person is... despite race or religion...yes?

hold my hand... coz smetimes i jus nd U...

missin all my loves...gracie

ppl...ppl are weird sometimes u know... it's lk everyone has ther own funny habits n thots n stuff n each n every person is different n yet somehw along the journey of ur life u meet some great ones...n some not-so-great ones n some downright crazy -n i dun mean in a funny haha way- ones... n in some weird unscientific way u find these ppl tt just fit into ur life perfectly... suddenly u feel like u've known them forever or it jus feels oh-so-rite.. or u really do miss them wen they're not ard.. n u start thinking wat did i ever do before this person came along.. or wat would i b if i never met him/her...in a way i think tt everyone who ever appeared in ur life played a part to help u build ur character or help u shape ur beliefs or make u certain abt the kind of person u rather not grow up to be. then sometimes u find urself growin closer to a person n u share secrets n dreams n jokes n laughter n u've never felt happier and u dunno wat makes u do all these things just that somehow before u even realized it this person's come to mean somethin to u.. and u love them and want to always protect them and keep them in your heart for the rest of eternity...but sometimes it's just not enough n some of these ppl start to drift away or u fight or u quarrel.. but the impt ones stay... not tt they'l never drift or fall out with u it's just tt they're so impt n they're so special tt your hearts built a bond with theirs and no matter how hard u try to break it or how far u tried to run..it never works coz somethin'll just keep pulling them back to u....n these ppl.. some of them know u even better than u know yourself at times... they know wat u need and they willingly offer it... they hold ur hand when the going gets tough and they stand by u thru the scariest things just to protect u...they know how much it hurts to lose ur loved ones to death n they cry with u.. they offer their shoulder at all times and u know their heart is a safe haven for yours...no matter how bruised or broken.... they dun just say things to make u feel better but tell u wat u need to know... and with these ppl u find yourself growing n learning n appreciating the simple things like donkey laughter... or the way their hair curls like mad... or their cute lil rabbit teeth...or way u compare fingernails n hers is always bigger.. or the love-laden hugs...or the way they look wen they're happy...or cuddlin under blankets whisperin secrets.. or swinging in the balcony pretending to slp...or even shared silences...n u know tt no matter wat happens they've got a piece of ur heart for always...so ppl are weird sometimes coz they let ppl in and give away pieces of their heart... n love them so much it hurts to even think of them not being ard...but yet we continue doing it...coz somehow i guess our hearts know tt things n possesions dun make this life meaningful n awesome it's the ppl we include in ours who do....
so to the ppl ive lost along the way.. thank u for being in my life once upon a time... u're always welcome back in...n to the ppl who've stayed with me thruout everything... no words can even come close to sayin thank u for all the love...sometimes..especially recently i do feel in a way like im missing u guys so much... tt somehow ive only got myself..but these moments are fleeting coz my heart always brings me back to u... in my life you've created beautiful precious moments... amazing memories...in a way u guyz make me wat i am today.. wat i wanna b tmr n the day aft n day aft...:) my life is so much fuller with u guyz ard and i jus wan the whole wide world to know hw much u mean to me... life is so short sometimes... days pass b faster than u know but i wan u to know u've always got my love..n nothin'l ever change tt.. nothin!...i love ya each n everyone of u...
aight... was jus lookin thru some old fotos n missed my loves so much...gotta go back to finishin all the lp's ive gt stackin up...sigh.... nites! sweet dreams! muacks!
gracie

back frm a yummylicious meal of meatballs n lime jelly n fish n chips with my dear baboo..:) although i was so tired n really really quiet n prolly not much of a good dinner date...baboo more than made up for it by being xtremely chatty!im sorry dear...i jus hope u had fun!;p which i think u did coz i certainly did!
i jus wanna say to my dear se..im always gona b here la babe!! i know we've only known each other for...wat?only 2 months plus plus..hehehe but i do feel close to u..n somehow we jus click n i do love ya tonnes!! deep inside u'll know wat's the rite thing to do... its ur life.. its your heart.. ur mind..everythin's YOURS..wateva it is u're not alone la k? muaks! u've made a diff bein in my life n i miss u wen i dun c u every single day of our silly little lives! ;plet u toture my ones nxt wk..hehe love love love ya...
ooh my tuesdays with morrie's started..gotta go.. i love the bk..read it if u've gt some time to spare...
gracie

i hate the way u mk me act. i hate the person u mk me beome wen u're ard me. i hate the person u r sometimes. i hate the way u mk me feel. i hate tt u think u know it all. i hate the way u pretend coz u're juz so hypocritical...n how the heck do u manage to say all tt n yet b sooo 'holy'. pls jus stay awy frm me coz i DO NOT want to become the u tt u r... n i do nt nd u polluting my life with all ur nonsense..unless u're plannin to become more humane anytime soon...pls just stay away frm me....PLS!
like tt's gonna happen anytime soon rite? riiiiiiiiiite!
happy birthday aunty!!!hope life is always gd to u..love ya lots...
so tired...so so tired.... eyes forward... breathe in breathe out...brand new day tmr......even more searchin for tt monkey...bleah... in out in out...eyes glaze over...STTTTTTTTTOOOOONE!
nites my lovelies...
mwuah

debs is back.. qn is back... finally we're at our BEST:) no more two ppl runin ard so many monkeys... i hope ;p hehe nw we're more even yah... give us wat u've got man! ahh.... my darling elly's given birth!! to a beautiful baby boy... cameron david simpson... so gorgeous...cute...adorable...its irritatin;p naaaah im really happy for her...wish i could get my chance to cuddle n shower tt baby wit kisses... sendin u all my love babe as u start on ur brand new journey.. it's gonna b full of ups n downs...but u're gonna do it..n u'l b great at it...so i havent been here for so long ... so much has happened... went on our very first girls-only-me-n-my sonkey trip to batam.. well it wasnt technically only us as her mam came along too..but ah well it was a nice trip. we and our batam boys how i wish i had two of them now so we could just sit back n relax n let them do all the work.ahhhhhhhh... yumm;) the ppl there are super nice n sweet well xcept mayb for the back smackkers...phuck phuck phuck PHAT! hahaha but for anyone who's lookin for a great driver cum tour guide cum friend cum go getter in batam lemme know coz we had a great driver who's sweet n nice n could really use all the business he can get... so lemme know yeah...
other than tt a good piece of news...(well at least i hope it'l be...keepin fingers crossed) i finally signed up for the subsidy..n i really really hope i'll get it!! so if that works out then i can start sch nxt mnth!!!!!!!!!!! =D yay! i juz really hope i can cope... im so excited...
ok i feel a headache comin on... i'll b back really soon to update.. REALLY! oh one more piece of impt news!!! im connected again!!! ive gt my lappy with internet.... so i'll b here more often... take care everyone...
lotsa love as always!

!!~its me~!!

MzAbraham's invasion---OKAY i know i dont post aniting here but i just had to...i cut my hair..n just had to share that info!!! =D ( this smile is alot bigger than it seems) peace out people.
hope you guys all doing awesome.
==SARA==

eace n quiet for now.....

i know i know i said i'd be back soon with a newly furnished site n all but wat can i say... im one lazy bugger ;p on top of that havin no real access to any comp doesnt help.. so when i can find one..wit no one else breathin down my neck tellin me to be quick then i'l update... like today for instance.. clever me locked the door so no one can disturb me for awhile... sigh.. the pleasure of some peace and quiet with just me n the comp... heh

anw, been so busy with everythin... im missin out on all the good for nothin gossip and iced chocs with my sonkeybanana...and so many other ppl...but wat can i say days have to go on, the world has to keep turning..ppl have to kp goin to work...blah blah blah and all that crap... i guess sometimes the most u can do is keep those impt to u close to ur heart..and think of them...memories really pull u thru when the heart pangs for them too much... but memories also can b the cause of those heart pangs.. a double edged sword?sigh...

hmm, got my ang bao tt day.. finally :) it just amazes me wat happens sometimes when u jus let go of watever was troublin u and leave it wholeheartedly to higher powers..somehow they suddenly fall right into place. so im one happy girl... i'm happy here and for now i guess here's where im supposed to be. went to watch disney on ice! it was awesome!! awesome!! =D i loved every min of it well, except for the part where these kiddies behind were shoutin n talkin so loudly and banging their feet on the floor...and basically they did tt thruout the whole show...and i dun understand y the parent sitting there din do a single thing abt it.. i mean c'mon la ur kids are misbehavin..TAKE CONTROL! hehe but the costumes were beautiful..and gorgeous and they made it look like dancing on ice was the simplest thing on earth... sigh... ariel reminded me of di..hehe would have loved it if she'd ben ere... i just love fairy tales... i guess it's just a part of me tt'l never grow up...so wat if im child-like...certain things just have to b seen thru the innocent eyes of a child....

ok.. the knockin and banging on the door's begun... my cue to leave the nice computer... sighhhhhhhhhh... will b back asap... take care all... sending my love

gracie

a brand new year's unfoldin.. and look at all we've left behind.. memories, happines n sadness, silly arguements, disappointments, surprises and experiences.2004's been good... filled with many ups and just as many downs.here's hoping 2005 will be much better. to all the loves of my life...who've always occupied my heart...i wish for you..happiness that overwhelmes u...peace that satisfies you and a safe n healthy year ahead. may the joy u bring into my life be quadrupled into yours.

thank u 2004...
* i'm a working gal! a teacher by no simple means... a special person in a young child's eyes... a person for them to irritate to no end and to bestow never ending kisses to lower tempers that THEY themselves have caused to soar;p
*i've learnt so much...and experienced so much..
*the most special people in my life have held on to me and encouraged me and supported me thru all the agonizing months..and i'm so sure they'l just continue to be there for the months to come
*i've felt the simple joy that comes from realising that i've got it in me to reach for my dreams
*i've added beautiful souls into my life...people who make me think... why didnt i know them before now!
*i've contemplated over so many tragedies that the year brought... and learnt to be grateful for what i have..no matter how much or little.

for all the people suffering...in pain and fear...i hope your pain ceases just a little... i hope your fear recedes for awhile... i hope lost loved ones will be found... i hope for miracles....

have a great year ppl!

love, Grace

~Wake the neighbors, get the word out Come on... crank up the music... climb a mountain and shout This is life we've been given made to be lived outSo la la la la live out loud Live out loud, yeah Think about this... try to keep a bird from singing After it's soared up in the skyGive the sun a cloudless day and tell it not to shine Now think about this... if we really have been given The gift of a life that will never endAnd if we have been filled with living hope we're gonna overflowAnd if God's love is burning in our hearts we're gonna glow There's just no way to keep it in~

merry x'mas!

i'm back! finally after a loooong hiatus... so many things to tell ya'll but before i really start my ramblings... i'd just like to say tt our blog's still under construction so forgive the mess! i'll post a proper entry when i'm satisfied with the construction;p so anw... i turned 21!!!!! :) yay! alritey off i go...will be back real soon... i hope hehe... merry christmas everyone... spread the love!
luv,
*Gracie

i'm here again!!=D it's been so long.... this week's the last for me before i finally start my attachment.. i'm filled with anxiety n dread..ok ok and alil excitement too!! haha i'm finally gonna be putting wat i learnt to use on kids..not big buffalos who are acting as spastic kids! haha i dunno how it's gonna turn out but keep your fingers crossed for me k?!? seeing as this is my last week to put more effort into tt irritating folder.. i'm proud to announce that.... i've done nothin yet..zip,nada..NOTHIN! i spent the week meeting up with ppl instead..but they're ppl i havent met in such a long time.. met chris, aisha n yas on mon!! hahaha i was so happy to see them..after so long.. aisha still with her nonsense n loud voice and chris with all her looks.. it was awesome.. tues went ice skatin with clarissa n shamii.. haha shamii n me spent the two hours glued to the railings while lil kids nicely ice skated in front of us silently screamin..looooook at meeee..just when we were getting the hang of it it was time to go...sheesh..hmm weds.. i met my darling boo!! haha with di n fynny.. lemboo is a babe now ok.. no more prawn girl..hahah i love spending time with those two sweethearts of mine.. hopefuly i'll get to see them soon..so that was my week... last week i had dinner with sharon and the rest..her goodbye dinner..sad.. but eh she's still in town just not in that political sch.. ;p went bowling aft with her,claris n wahlau jay..and i fell..sigh..i'm just not satisfied with not makin a fool of myself... hehe
so aisha would have started work tdy... and im startin on MON..haha im sorry la i just cat get over the fact tt MON is almost here and i feel so unprepared...i better get to work and at least have somethin for nic to see tmr... i hate the damn thing..ah well.. it has to be done..
i miss..JULES...if u're reading this.. i miss u!!*huGz
love,Gracie

the past few weeks have gone by smoothly..with jules leaving, me trying to spend time wit ali before her freedom is taken away;p..helping a friend with a class of five year olds who kept going teacher this..or teacher that or i can do it teacher..or it's falling teacher.. every few mins...;p stayed over at ali's place a couple of times..tate like there's no tmr..celebrated ash's b'day with di, her bro, fynny ash-of course rite!- n his new-ahem ahem- girlfriend;) too bad i couldnt spend much time with them tho..some other time perhaps yeah? met up with the sac ppl!!! =D i am SO happy about tt one... i managed to arrange a gathering and actually have more than three ppl turn up in abt two?? three? days! and miss LG finally managed to pry herself away from her busy schedule and grant us mere mortals her time..haha...i am grateful babe! hahaha..it was fun..reminiscing..talking abt the past..talking abt the future..only the IMPORTANT ppl turned up... it went great...we'll meet up soon k ppl?? it just amazed me to see the different paths our lives are taking us and yet how we can still come together..to look at these ppl i've known for so long and see how far we've come... it might not seem a long way to most..but from girls who didnt give a damn wat we did in our futures to ppl who truly want each and everyone of us to do well.. im just happy for everyone... hmm.. wat else... ohh the teaching was fun..one hour plus only...did it for only a day..but it definately gave me insight..thinking of attachment and the damn folder is scary..family lunch tdy..yummy food!! gifts from my uncle!!!! hahaha.. i love the pens.. anw, since tmr is ali's day..here's a'lil something..for u baba dear... just to let u know...
ali.. i dunno who im gonna fight wit when u're not around to get on my nerves and nag at me... to so many ppl it seems like we're the constant squabbling ppl..forever fighting..forever saying "i've had enough!" hahaha but i know to me it's just the way we work.. we fight and argue and say things to irritate each other just coz as u say...fighting=best frens=love... i tell u, there've been numerous times i really felt i could chop ur head off.. but somehow we always just come back together...and it's settled on it's own..and peace reigns for a few days ;p haha... u're the person who can surprise me with ur silly little rubbish thots...or sudden shows of affection..or the way u do things for me silently..without havin to think it thru or ponder....or the way u're forever saying i pay 1st later we find the atm...haha or the way we can be talking and suddenly both of us just keeps quiet coz we're prone to daydreaming..and the silence is comfortable... i know u're not going away...or moving to some distant country,but i'm still gonna miss u.. i'm proud of u..and i'm hoping this new road u're going to embarke on leads u nearer to your dreams...take care of yourself while u're in there...and i'll see u in 12? days k? 6 months will fly faster than u can imagine...so...may god shine his face upon u my darling alibaba.. i love you lots! =) so mushy rite..for someone who's just going to THOMPSON!;p ok la... tt's all for now...SARA!! where have u disappeared to?!?!?
Gracie

||let me fly, let me be free, let me see the world, let me be ME||

it's been a tiring few days..both emotionally, mentally n physically.. everything has just been draining..but ive sed b4..i'm not gonna let anyone drag me down unless i wanna get dragged...the past few days ppl have been trying tho..ive realised tt everyboday loves going round the bloddy bush la.. i dunno y nobody just wans to take the straight path anymore haha..hmm ah well ok let's see wat hv i bn up to the past few days? let's see.. had a misunderstandin wit ali..thru jules.. which resulted in me being harsher then usual with the ppl ard me..haha poor them.. i finished my proj..ON TIME!!! haha with much support and encouragement and comrade from my miss super irritating, nickibayybee n sara..i dunno wat i'd do witout u guyz..i'll probably b eaten by tt croc la huh serenie..haha anw, met up with nic n ayu tdy!!!! hehehe i love them!! we were supposed to go ice skating..but..ahhh we spent a good part of the day riding ard in trains -dun ask!- haha in the end we caught laws of attraction..nt bad..van helsing stil gets my votes tho!but it was good la.. haha we makaned like mad..put our feet up and watched the whole movie with our usual commentary and nonsense la...haha oh yeah and we finialized our nitty gritty details for our attachment..now to start on the folder!!! sigh... oh yeah ytd was my grandma's wedding anni...had dinner at my aunt's...nice nice niiiice!! hehe..i'm talking all over the place arent i..cant seem to get my thots settled la..anw..wen i was so absolutely pissed ytd..crying for goodness knows wat reason...sara sed the exact things i needed to hear..and sara, i 'm glad u're always ard...and tt u understand hw it feels and that u support me like nobody's biz! haha..ur encouragement..sometimes it's the thing tt lifts me up.. she sent me this song..it's so sweet..
~Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't, then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt~ =D it just made me feel SO MUCH better...so i'm hear to tell everyone...Inner strength tt is what i rely on!!haha..wow long entry huh..ok i'll stop now..just needed to clear the mind!even if it is all in jumbles..haha
love,
*Gracie||U gotta know it's true, in the end all u've got is you ||

||everybody now...breathe in....||

so even blogger's gt a new breath of life huh ;p my last day was on fri..it was sad..ayu read the poem to the class..OMG i jus wanted to cry ok..haha.. they gave us sweet lil cards n pressies n stuff even the unexpected one huh..haha thx u guyz..u know i love them all! the gang gt me danglers! haha they know me so well! played our last games n aft class we headed for DINNER!!!! its really good to hv frenz n lecturers wit cars! haha all in all it was a great day..and it made me realise these ppl ive met..they're great ppl..realli.. and i'm gonna try my best to hold on to the impt ones for a long time...ytd..met nicki bayyybeee n clarissa ;) haha shopping shopping, makan makan, gossip gossip..it was good!! din realise how much ive missed them over such a short period of time! i really had fun..and for once in my life when we arrange to meet we can all stay in the north!!! haha our side riggght??? met jules n alibaba for dinner..we ate kenny!!! haha..n tt ali..must be secretly thinkin me n jules ate too much make us walk round n round marina..somemore she walk damn fast ok! so we gt lost in marina!! can u believe tt!!! we actually got LOST!! haha wat'd i tell u..wen im lost, i'm always wit ali... we took pics tho! haha those two are just like me..we love takin pictures!!!it's no wonder we're JAG*s la..my other frenz always comment how i can take pics forever.. hw can i nt..with these two ard..haha

ao anyhoo...tt's been it for the past few days.. besides sitting at home being bored missing sch..thinking abt doing the damn projs..bleah prolly see jules tmr.. go meet the principle on fri..aiyah.. i better get back to the proj la huh.. every fibre in me doesnt want to tho..must finish early so can sit in class on mon! must must must..haha love ya all!
nickishamiiclarissasernejoycelynelainesharonayu..wahlau i miss u all can! we sepak ayu k? haha

love, *Gracie

|| I've had enough ||
So I read in ali's blog that ive changed?! me?dis coming frm someone who only spoke to me for..erm abt an hr or so?! maybe she means ive changed in a good way..maybe she's talking abt another grace..one tt she knows n ive never heard of...YEAH right la grace..;p wateva... one of ur best fren's blogs tt u've changed..without tellin u personally and u think she's talkin abt someone else..ohhhkay.. so, this brings me to my next question..have i changed??? yes u ppl who spend time with me..tell me have i?? honestly speaking..i'd like to think tt i have -tho my idea of my change n ali's might b diff;)- i mean i'm abt to finish a six month course...i must have changed at least a'lil right...ive learnt tt.. ive got to hold on to those ppl who've met me practically every week...who dun mind traveling frm diff sides of s'pore to town just to spend time with me when I can...people who've given me their time-n train fare- unconditionally...i've learnt tt some peopl-the bird in class! ;p- are so two-faced it's not even funny... and tt some ppl may look two faced...but they're all niceness n love inside...i've learnt that frenship can bloom between ppl with diff age grps as long as all parties are willing to try.. i've learnt home spa tips!! haha... i've learnt to believe in myself even when it looks like i'm going nowhere as in time i'll find a way... i've learnt tt sometimes the people who are the furtherst can warm your heart with just simple words... ive learnt tt i dun have to let ppl step all over me..coz I'M impt n i LOVE ME! haha... i've learnt to bask in the sweet words and encouragement of loved ones who've been here all along believing in me... i've realised tt some friends will do anything for me.. ive learnt tt some frens just want me to do everythin for them. n ive learnt tt some of my closest frens have been balancing taking n giving with me all these years... i've learnt abt kids n teachin -obviously right-
so i think ive changed..i'd like to think so...so ali's comment did make me think...i'm sure if i think real hard i'd find even more things tt ive learnt...but for nw ive got to use my thinking juices for the damn proj..sighh ooh yeah we had facials n pedicures n manicures n stuff in class ytd!! how fun...hahaha
jayrachhanimannienickyayuserenejoycelynelaineclarissasharmalasharonjune - thx for coming into my life...how could i have not known great ppl like u existed! haha
babboosonkey - thx for meeting me practically every week from so far away..u guyz KNOW i love u
shersara - thx for always being there...always...no matter wat..no matter when..
love, gracie
i wanna dance wit u~

i'm BACK to write!! sooo soon u say?!? haha... i just HAVE to write abt wat i had ytd in the hopes of causing some major salivating in all the loyal readers ;p haha..AND i'm supposed to b doing my proj la..but we all KNOW tt im the queen of procrastination..so anw...dinner at dad's best fren's place last nite..steamboat...can i say YAAAAAAAAY!!!! hehehe... OMG the amt of food! i especially loved the crabs, cockles-extremely well done for me pls-, prawns n beef!!! yuuuummmy...*salivates jus thinkin abt it...not to mention the awesome homemade chilli...uncle F...u've definately got a winner there! everytime we finished one tray he brought out another...the crabs were delish...apparently bought frm geylang..so ppl...buy your crabs frm geylang coz they'll make ur mouths water...so we ate n ate n ate...took a break then ate all over again...haha..the cockles reminded me only of one thing...ali,sher n me...and fishermen's village haha..we used to go there like so irritatingly often;p sighhhh...
on to really happy news!!! SARA GOT INTO UNI!!!! *applause applause* =D i'm so happy for her!!! yay yay yay!!! ok la i'm going to try doin my proj... damn u science! ;p ooooh... my two-eyelash-only-girl stayin over on mon & tues?!?!?! YAY! haha...
love, *Gracie

went for the funeral..ytd?? yup ytd..life's pretty short u know..always make me wonder...hmm...poor kid's gonna have to grow up missing her dad..sigh... anw sed bye to more ppl...hanim..annie...another two real special ppl... hanim..sexxay mama ah u *cheeky smile... pretty inside-out..i love ya! i seem to b blogging once every month only ah..haha i cant help it la so so busy...been having speech n drama expert in class the past two days... all our actions so OVER!!! hahaha "thhhh thhh thhh" it's kinda fun tho... i'm gonna be finishing my course redi... fast right...so sad..i dunno how... i love the nuts i see evryday.. Ms super mega rubbish/irritating serene ;p haha..whiney clarissa.. shhhhharmmmmallla;), nicky babeeey, beauty queen...haha, cheeky joycelyn..and of course right...my #1 always on my nerves forever fighting wit me but all outta love one... haha oh n forgeting our ever on our side lecturer..i lurve u babes! i'm glad it's always us against ThOse... birds, crocs, whatnots la... alritey la... i SHOULD be getting to the damn projs which i have no clue how to do! lil notes.... ppl suddenly leaving has left me really missing certain ppl..so lil notes...

||Sara - my blog or OUR blog ah;p how many times do i have to say..I MISS U...LOVE!||
||Sheri - =) three words...and u know what they'll always be...from my heart to yours i love u||
||Alibambutan! - i know how hard new beginings can be...but u'll find that path that has been carved out just for u one day.. thank u for holding onto me through all your endings and new beginings and lettin me be one of the few ppl who'll b there through it all||
||Jules - i havent seen u in so long!! i miss being miss-know-it-all in your life ;) haha.. i pity u for always having to listen to the bickering. BUT it's been awhile right...wait ah.. i'll meet up with u guys soon n me and ali can start again;p i love u..i miss JAG*s||
||Sonkey - happiness comes when ur smiles light up my life... words arent necessary for us..hearts that are connected alrdy know how the other feels!*nods||

that's all folks...for nw anw la..huGz for everyone!
love, gracie
||~ bright pleasant days...dark sacred nights......~||

a month!...wat a month it's been...lets see.. Sher's officially 21!!!! *APPLAUSE!!!!* she had a damn memorable itchy b'day din u my dear;p , i've had to say bye to two truly awesome ppl... rach n jay... WAHLAU jay....it's gonna be a bore...without u! but next yr yes?? next yr we'll all be back 2gether again! hopefully hehe..till then..we still have all our outings! tues tues tues!!! i cant wait..... the assignments have been neverending.. as soon as one leaves our hands we have to start the nxt...crazy! one due on tues..sigh... which i havent started!! haha...which i should be getting back to la... my fingers jus damn itchy..had to come type something...oooh baboo's pageant's over..i tell u she was damn sexxxay...pheeeweet...seriously!! the best outta the lot! c'mon la compared to the pasar woman n the rhino ass;p so mean! bt seriously..she was the best there...AND we actually had her with us the WHOLE night..AMAZING isnt it!! of all ppl...to be out ALL NIGHT LONG..*sing it wit me di..all night...all night longggg...all nite ;p...ok, back to work! i'll b back soon.... here's to the BILA BILA gang!!! u guyz.... as i said...next yr we'll reunite! haha..love ya lots! also... love my precious ppl who are so far away even more...namely two monkeys with names starting wit S...hehehehe...sighhhhh
love,
gracie

helllloo everyone...missed me?? ;p i have no idea where sara is...she's just missing from her own blog! how could u sara! haha i tried.. i really did..i've spent the last couple of hours lookin for a new background but nothing's caught my eye just yet..i'll leave it to u sara! find something u hear me....and come blog!! :) i've bn up to my neck with stuff to do... i've got two assignments due and one more exam coming up!! argh... the last 2 modules have been a bore.. i dunno if it's the module or the lecturers... BUT i still love sch! haha..have i told u guyz??? i gt 90 for the 1st exam and 95 for the 2nd!! =D i'm so happy.... we'll see how it goes with the third...hmmm

u know sometimes ppl say things in such a way u feel like suddenly u've got to defend ur every decision?? i dont understand y some ppl dont seem to be really happy for me... i need u guys to support me too..u know? it's just difficult when u KNOW how impt u guyz are..right? i'm happy..so please be happy for me..if not..just move aside and let me be..coz i'm not gonna let myself be dragged down unless I wanna be dragged! ;)

wat else wat else...oooh since Di's page is down for now... i'll give u guyz a'lil update on her life...she just started her new job on fri!! sounded like it was a bore to her..but i'm pretty sure it'll get better di..yes it will! haha...and what's he new job u may ask... she's traing to fly...without wings! c'mon i KNOW u guyz know what it is..u know u know!! Di's in a stage of re....re-furnishing?!? ;p her life..so new clothes...new shoes..new anything from u guyz would be greatly appreciated by DEEEEDEEE! haha...

i thought i had alot to say..but i seem to have lost that train of thot...so i'll go off to study...or do some of my proj...or laze ard-which is prolly wat i'll ACTUALLY end up doing ;p- oh yeah..SHER..thank u for calling me....but u didnt call back!!! haha.. i love hearing u talk... it's like we've gone five years back n u're in ur room and i'm in my aunt's place..just talkin n talkin... soon k??plsssss? hehehe ok ok i'm going!!*huGZ* all around!
love,grace
it's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. it's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.. it's the one who wont be taken who cannot seem to give..and the soul of dying that never learns to live.....

If I were a month I would be: december!!!
If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12
If I were a planet I would be: earth
If I were a sea animal I would be: dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: north
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: bed
If I were a liquid I would be: iced choc
If I were a stone, I would be: diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: a coconut tree;p
If I were a bird, I would be: peacock hmm but that's a male bird..maybe a dove...(di!!! doooove;p) no no a toucan..hmm i'm nt too sure ;)
If I were a tool, I would be: hammer..(bang bang bang!!!!)
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: rose
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: sunny yet windy
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: unicorn
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: saxaphone
If I were an animal, I would be: dog
If I were a color, I would be: RED
If I were an emotion, I would be: complete,utter happiness
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a mushroom
If I were a sound, I would be: my best friend's laughter
If I were an element, I would be: fire
If I were a car, I would be: ferrari
If I were a song, I would be: a hit! ;p
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: the best
If I were a book, I would be written by: enid blyton..hehe
If i were a poem I would be : My own
If i were part of a company i would be : Founder!
If I were a food, I would be: chocolate
If I were a place, I would be: the place memories are stored
If I were a material, I would be: the same as my blanket...happiness is snuggling under it!!!
If I were a taste, I would be: sour (yummm!)
If I were a scent, I would be: the smell of baking cookies!! famous amos-y haha
If I were a religion, I would be: catholic! *nods
If I were a word, I would be: GRACE
If I were an object, I would be: camera!!
If I were a body part I would be: heart
If I were a facial expression I would be: surprise on the brink of a huge smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: english...duh!
If I were a cartoon character I would be: a smurf! haha
If I were a shape I would be: star
If I were in a pubic service job I would be : a fireman!!! haha
If I were a number I would be: 10

haha just curbing my b0red0m! HAPPY V DAY EVERY0NE! lotsa love to those few precious people! off to study..study study study...bleah ;p
*Grace

we really shud change the bkgrd sara..it's starting to bore me too..hmm...anw, today(in in fri) was my grandma's b'day...memories memories memories....sigh..it'll never really be ok will it? will it? remember the jelly cake di? cant belive it's been a yr...

on to happy news.. extension for assignment!! yay! tues! something's better than nothing i reckon! BUT there's quite a lot to b done not to mention homework...i justw anna sleeeeep! oh yeah!! i saw cheryl and charlotte the other day!!! cheryl james! sooo nice bumping into them..and realising that they were actually happy to see me too!! it's been wat? five years since i last saw them!!! =D it was nice...these were the ppl i spent sec one and two bluffing to b listening during malay lessons with. haha

syping for us tmr mayb?whadya say deeeedeee?? hahahaha...*rubs hands in antcipation* cant wait!!!! watch out fluent english person!!! haha.. lemboo darling...you make me so grateful you're in MY life and not somebody elses. I wanna hug you!!! hahaha bambi..how did i ever believe those were shyeyes

Gracie:)
||u dont miss your water till the welll runs dry||

have you ever realized that one of your closest friends was looking right at you and tellin you a little teeny white lie? have you ever? have you ever felt exactly the way i felt when i realized? when you know she/he's twisting the truth.BUT you know they're only doing it to keep you from getting hurt. they're only doing what comes second nature to them...protecting you. so I ask you again..have you ever felt exactly the way i felt? coz at that instant i've never loved this friend more. Coz with this person, is where i know...that i'll always b safe..i'll always be held and protected..i'll always be cherised...i'll always be loved...this is where i know i'll never do any wrong. where i can b wat i want to be..i can be a closet superstar..a closet rock singer;p a closet anything! haha this is where hearts are wrapped with bubble-foam and handled with care and hugz are given freely.This is where i'm always me...where even at my worst..i'm always the best...so even tho it was just a little gesture done without any hesitation..it just reinforced everything we stood for.

Right...that's enough mushiness for now ;p haha..sara's gone!*G*O*N*E*.. she left on the 19th..back across the world! another 365 days to go.before i get her back here!! counting down counting down...sheesh.. It's kinda ironic we never had a proper end to our convo huh? haha..i miss you so much my dear!

TWO assignments due nxt week*faints i'm actually supposed to be working on one of them now..but i cant seem to come up with anything..AT ALL.. some help..anyone??? school's been hilarious! the things we do!! you wont believe until u see! but it's fun.. ohhh that day i was havin my mee hoon and i found a biiiig worm in it!! so disgusting!!!! eww eww eww...i can still see all those tiny legs..yuck..and my fren was tellin us that this worm wasnt the first insect found in the food there..soooo no more 1st floor for us yes?*nods ;p alritey..better shift my attention back to my assignment!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!!here's to the monyet year!!:)

*Gracie
*sings* I'm really not your average thug ahhh ugggggg hehehe

Sch's been fun!! i've really missed being part of a class.. there's not one single guy besides the lecturer in my class so it's as if i'm still in sec sch or pri sch for tt matter;p haha...made some new friends i'm pretty sure i'll absolutely love in some time! so all in all... it's been a good week! Assignment due in two weeks i think..i have no clue how the heck to do it..but hey..i'm sure it'll b ok!

so guess who i met today? GLADYS, JULES,ALI n SARA! suppose to be a big gathering..but these special ppl were enough.Dearest Glad glad..i KNOW ur dad'll be better soon yeah? u know i'm always here no matter what. I love you so much my dear!thanx for the sweets=)

Anywayz...TMR with my sonkey.i cant wait!!!cocktails cocktails cocktailsss! ohh i saw the donkey u bought me for my birthday tdy!! u shuldnt have spent so much...somemore in ur current state of broke-ness;p BUT u know i simply love and adore every inch of that lil grey thing! i'll take real good care of it! promise! hahaha...

CEEDEE!! u cant read it too?? i thot it was only my comp! haha i've been wanting to change e layout for awhile..but i'm so lazy! haha..will do it when i've got time.till then sorry my dahlings u;ve just got to struggle to read it too! sorry! alritey i'm off to sleep i cant tahan anymore! CONGRATS on ur letter D!

*Grace

HELLLLOOOOO 2004!!!!

Happy New Year!!
here's to an awesome year ahead filled with special, joyful moments!

New year's eve at my aunt's...turkey,chicken,fish,prawns,lamb,veggie...yummmm..SO much of food... the down-side was that i really couldnt taste anything..coz i'm SICK!! sad ain't it..i'm just hopin it clears up by next wk...but we had fun...makaned..laughed at the TNC!-stupid stupid show-;p said our prayers..drank bubbly...it was really nice..surrounded by family...at the birth of a new year!who could ask for more

anw, tdy's the 2nd of JAN!! Di,Sara,jules,ali,glad,sam,Sher.....ALL of u!!! years ago..on this day we met for the first time!!! hahaha..it's OUR anniversary ;p hehe..whatever it is, to each and every one of u..thank u for years of unconditional love!here's to many more to come!*smiles

sara sent me this on my b'day and i only read it tdy;
Angel of December sky
Gathers snowflakes way on high
Graciously with wings in air
Gathers precious gems to share


To trickle down to earth below
To shine like diamonds in the snow
What great beauty it will be
As angel sends these gems for me


A calm and peaceful night with snow
December angel's special glow
See her gliding through the air
This beauty of God's love so fair


Knows just what the snow will do
As peacefully it falls on you
Catch the diamonds in your hand
Where they sparkle God does stand


December's angel wings of snow
Sends her beauty here below
Catch the diamonds from the sky
Magnificently these wings do fly.~
~ Francine ~© original 99
=) Thank u sweets!!! it's lovely..i love the card..i love the lil msg...i love them tonnes...but i love you more!!heh heh heh...please let's meet up soon!! u've been back so long and i only saw u once..it's not FAIR!! haha...

hmm tt's all for now..take care u lot...any new year's resolutions???

love,Gracie

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!

so i'm a few days late...;p but it's still christmas so it doesnt matter..haha Merry X'mas all of u!! i hope it was special and full of laughter!! Christmas was a'lil different this year..i had straightish sorta hair..well, it was straighter than it's ever been..my hair's just meant to be curly;p..but for the fun of it..my hairdresser ironed it for me...it was a different look;p...family gathering was on the eve instead..since we're not really celebrating this year-for obvious reasons- so we had a meal together on the eve instead...and we went to St.Theresa's for mass instead of our church..decided to go with my uncle and all...it was HOT ..really really hot...but it was ok...didnt really see anyone i know..it's not my church afterall...;p but it's ok..i'll see the few special people sooner or later..haha.. it was nice..attending mass together..squeezing into the car...tired silence..it was all nice...
back to my other aunt's place on x'mas..was suppose to have lunch there...but we were late and all so my dad couldnt cook..so my uncle did it instead....and we had the feast at night...we practically spent the whole day just stuffing ourselves! seriously...there was so much of food at night and we couldnt eat coz we were all full...so we decided to have it the next aft...haha...eat n eat n eat...sheesh...
met up with baboo ytd...spent a couple of hours just the 2 of us..then went over to di's place..for our hari raya visiting...see how late we are!hari raya visiting during x'mas! haha..grandma made yummy nasi lemak!!!yum....
so all in all, the last few days have been good...met up with my loved ones...makan-ed like mad...and had fun ;p...di's suppose to b coming over tdy..are u deedeeeeee?? hehehehe...and my cousins and all too...=) hmmm tt's all for now..oh yeah...sth really impt...I AM STARTING SCH ON THE 7TH!!!! YAY!!=D hahahaha i'm sooo happy...and my friends are soo happy for me!! -see wat grrreat friends ive got!-hehe...
alrite..take care everyone..merry xmas! i love you loadz...and for those who arent here..i miss you!! every single one of u..*mwuah!

all my love,
GRACE (student);p

this girl's a year older

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to MeEeEeEee
Happy Birthday to...ME!!

haha... i'm twenty tdy..nothin feels different tho..i can't help it, i'll always be young at heart ;p hehehe... Dinner with my girlies...the few special people who i can scratch my butt in front of coz they'll still love me;p haha.. Didi,Sara,Jules n Ali...nydc..salad..pizza..MUD PIE!!!! n Jules' coffe-hazelnut-thing which she claims is HeAvEn;) i had a great time sweethearts...i couldnt ask for better people to spend my most special day of the year with!! i hold each of you deep in my heart...so close to the main veins and arteries...Thanks for all the little pressies...cards..smiles and huGz..thanks for the laughter and company...most of all...ya'll will prolly never really know..but thanks so much for turning what had all the makings of being a sad sad day really wonderful...it's my first birthday without my grandma...my first in twenty years..it's hard thinking about it...but being with you guyz didnt give me much time to be depressed;p...i love you lots!!you rock my world babes!

I miss you mamma....bless me tdy, like you did every year..i love you..life's never ever gonna be the same....

..a brand new decade..watch out world..here i come...
today this girl turned twenty-ok technically ytd la since it seems to be e 20th already-
Yesterday this girl turned twenty!;p
love,
Gracie

Ps: Pigging out time tmr girls!!!!Cheeseeee rice!!yum!

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly


When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day


Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul


Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you


Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall

ok let's see..today calls for a special colour!!..hmmmm yup! haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA!!!!happy happy HAPPY BIRTHDAY!=) i waited till tdy coz it would prolly be the 27th there now right?? hmm anw, how i wish you were here!! really!

But anw...i've got stuff to say so listen up!!;p You've always been by my side..always..do you realize that??crazy malay "scarfise" tutors, remedials, bus rides, when i'm sick or happy..mad or sad or even scared..you're always there. Truthfully, i cant imagine my life without you...it would be a life without crazy laughter! you know how when you first came back..your first holiday back?? i was afraid we'd not be able to find that crazy special place we're always in when we're together..but i was soo wrong!! nothing changes...EVER! we just pick up where we left off..and before long it's time for you to leave again! You let me be me...and you help me find ME..and you love me no matter what. You light up my life...and you make me sad... you calm my fears and encourage me..you say nice things when we both know i just wanna feel "high";p haha you make me crazy! and you make me feel safe..you read my innermost thots and you make jewelry hunting fun.. you sparkle and you shine..and when i'm with you i feel like i could sparkle too.you hold up my castles in the air with me...and tell me that i can do anything.You love me for me..the good the bad..the everything....
i'm not just saying it sara..seriously, my life would not be complete without you!

So today, when you're celebrating TWO decades of living..i just hope you know..that you mean the world to me-and so much more!- You're dreams will come true babes..just wait and see...so just keep on looking ahead..i'm always here..you know that! Happy birthday sweetie...may god always look on you with his goodness..I LOVE YOU!!! Every single curl to the last little toe!!*mwuah*

All My Love,Gracie

and so the puzzle's pieces fall into place..if only for awhile..

it's becoming ridiculous!! BLOG SARA!!blooog =P haha
anw, Ytd was perfect..a perfect night with my more than perfect friends... met up with the rest of them from sch ytd..and surprisingly quite a few ppl actually turned up!Gladys' planning skills must be awesome;p hehe.. tho there wasnt time for more one-on-one conversations...and really talking.. it just felt so right sitting down with these ppl and just catching up a'lil... it's so wonderful to see how everyone in some way has grown over the past few years.. we're different.. yet at the heart of it all... we're always connected..and that's what makes spending time with them so special...So thank you girls..everyone of you..it was the perfect evening! it's like coming home..everyone's familiar yet a'lil diff...but everyone's loved...so for that few hours..i'd come home..and if i had my way..it'll always be that way!:) if only i could hug u guyz and never let go!

i cant wait for sara to come back! i need some TLC-Two of us Laughing Crazily!!;p- and it can only come from sara! haha lonce your back girl, we can meet up with the rest again..suffice to say..I CAN'T WAIT!!! haha..so hurry back!

other than that this week's been hectic! late nights and early mornings..it drives me crazy! the communion was good.. everything was so rushy..people had places to go... but we had fun..with family and friends everywhere..Isaac's graduation on sat..my lil icy's growing up!! primary one for him next year...guess watching cartoons will be a lonely affair from then on...hahaha ok i think i've babbled on enough for now... i'm going off to find someone to disturb!! Ali...sleepover on fri?!?! YAY! hehe

i love every single one of you...i love you guyz so much..words wont do it justice!

*Gracie

it's been really long hasnt it?? let's see...since the 16th of sept..haha not as long as i thot..my comp's so wacky it's not funny..i cant even see half of wat i'm writing..gosh! as long as something comes out i guess...

anw, everyone's on friendster...and everyone's hooked..but me...haha...they spend so long on it...maybe once the comp works properly and i can actually see everything i'll b just as excited too..for now..it's fun bumping into long lost friends..haha wouldnt it be nice finding a pri sch friend i haven't seen since..erm pri 6..hehe

..exactly who lives in those big huge houses...those really really big..fit for a..erm..a not-so-rich king...big big gardens and flights of steps...pillars and whatnots.... how do they go to sch...i'd just like to meet one person who lives in those kinda houses...

they're finally triming the tree outside our room..FINALLY!! when it rains, the branches actually brush our windows! pity tho...it was full of leaves and all....but now i can see stuff outside!! i have a scenery!! ok it's just another block but at least it's not just leaves everywhere....best of all...sunlight!!!yay let the sunshine in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i made it..woohoo

hola, como estas?..there actually supposed to be some symbols in between but i edited them out.well school has been gr8 so far.three weeks in and i only skipped one day of class. i was thinkin that todae i would try and type in what i had in mind the last time but i forgot.my roommate just told m that there this new webpage called turnitin.com, it actually checks essays put for plagirism which in a way is cool but in another way is the dumbest thing( or atleast not fair).i mean if you write an essay from the top of your head, i am sure htat someone has had the same idea and has worded it the same way(remember Lit class Grace?..) we had to write a thesis statement and it came out like 90% the same.so even if you thought the idea was original and all yours, there is no way you can prove it.Well. for those who do plagirise, obviously i am so glad there is such a thing...oh i would like to ask any of you thats reading this to join friendster.com, its this connection thing where you meet frens of frens et, pretty cool, so if you do like or just wanna mk friends.i know i sent some of you the invitation.but only do it if you want to. i joined n u wont believe who i saw thru connections(i dint tok to her) i saw Aresha, from SAC. (if you dont remembe..it dont matter)
lets see what else has been going on...oh i am going to US on the 3rd, evening..i was hopin fer an earlier time but i dont knoe depends if i can postpone my Spanish exam.well goin to see my uncle, his wife and kids(adorable gals)..And my GRANDMA..i love that woman with all my heart.and you knoe wot..i get to eat REAL food..(yum yum all the curriess(.man i dont cook so going over htere is going to be Xcellent...and i think i am so blessed( i have not gone holy and all that just that i feel that i am really lucky) my family is coming over..just to celebrate my birthday...i would like to take this time to congratulate my parents on 21 years of marriage..although they will never get to read this, i want to tell them that havin them as MY( all MINE) has been the best.well coming back to the trip so...they are coming here..woohoo..i wish i could pack some of you guyz(u knoe who) n bring you over here. hopefully( i can muh result sheets with all A's on them..wont that be so cool...i have more to write..but rite now i have to get Some slp n TRY and wake up tmr fer an 8 o'clock class..in high sch it was so easy...u cld wake up late and catch a cab to sch..here the freakin cab costs are so HIGH...(by the way Grace) help me out with the templates coz i think that stayin only one way is pretty boring...will be blogging soon..

i've come to conclude that the bettle lives in our room..it comes out at night.. scaring us..flying all over the place..landing on our heads and hands..and it disappears in the morning..making us think it flew out the window sometime during the night.clever little bugger... i wonder where it hides during the day...hmm

sara's been having trouble with blogger...that's y there hasnt been much said from her side ;p but i do know she's fine and at this very moment is stuffing her head with spanish... frankly, i've nothing much to blog about..it's been an ok week... lots of plans cancelled but i didnt mind... for now i'm a happy girl...i've got people loving me.. and for now..that's all that matters...

sonkey!! u prolly wont see this..well not now anw, but i do miss u so much!! more v-mails for u!!promise! haha...
bambi- thru all the uncertainty, i just know it's plain to see..and it fills me with so much happiness! it really does
SARA!! everyday i miss you so much more!! my crazy laughter misses your crazyness to laugh at..haha..
Karen - u'll prolly NEVER see this..but still... the world holds an amazing amount of things just waiting for u to discover them.. it's been long since i saw that lovely spark..too long! i'm glad you've found something your heart's just screaming out at u to show the world...it's beautiful..YOU'RE beautiful..
lemboo - you..you just make me feel so loved... i love those eyes..i love that smile..i love every hug..most of all i love YOU.. i want to b there for u..whatever it is... whenever it is..
cEeDeE - we'll make that meet-up happen soon yeah?? we'll make it a reunioun!! *sings* allamanda is the best..we are better than the rest!!=)
JAG*s - u people!! outing soon?pls?? just missing tiny eyes and ugly toes..haha..

HAH! that's about it..i'm BORED!!

*Gracie

The week's been pretty long. Amidst all the excitement of the week..my dog passed away... He was in a lot of pain..and my aunt thot it was best to let him be free of it all... i miss that furry little guy. Didnt have the chance to see him for awhile since we are here more now... So he's gone, just like that too.. After 10 odd years of faithfully loving, maybe he needed the rest... Or maybe he missed my grandma too and figured life would be so much better up there...hmm

the week was packed with JAG*s outings..but as usual, i loved every minute of it..Went to sentosa TWICE this week...and now i'm black!! BLACK!! a'lil more and my mum wouldnt be able to find me in the dark unless i smiled :) there was this kid there ytd, cute little boy..with a head full of blonde hair and big, qurious grey eyes..and a laugh that would melt even the hardest heart! really!! he let us carry him..didnt even cry when he's family swam out of sight..his elder sis was really shy tho...and just kept saying..I am harry's sister then running away..haha.. i told Mop, i want a Harry too!! hehe

went back to school...they chased us out and asked us to come back later..some new rules or something..being there, makes u realise just how much u miss being there! haha and how much of ur life was spent walking down those corridors...ah well.. was suppose to go sing song with the mop today..but Jules managed to pass me her germs and now im sick and voiceless!! argh!! was suppose to meet my darling lemboo last night..but plans got cancelled..and i guess she was pretty annoyed coz she practically snapped at me when i called.. i'm sorry gal.. we'll meet up really soon k? really soon..We really are worried abt u..i wish u'd just tell us if something was wrong or not..but i guess we just have to meet u to find out..Soon k???

alritey, i better head off to do something more constructive...the weekend's packed!! sigh..i miss u all.. oh yeah.. Bambi, i don't know what it is..but u and i both know what happens...i wish u wouldnt but that's the way it always is...hurry find ur way back to me will u..i miss u! Sara, i don't know what's happenng with u!! hopefully we'll bump into each other soon..i miss u too!! so much!

Silver, u came to us as a tiny little puppy..and i've loved since the first time u stuck ur head out of that toy train..everybody did... even sara couldnt help but love it everytime u managed to chase the annoyin malay tutor out of the house faster with ur constant barking.. it'll feel awful going home and not hearing u greeting us...or jumping around just begging for a few pats... but u're happier now..and in a much better place..so keep an eye on mamma for me k? and know that i love u....

take care everyone....
Love, Grace

My sis's birthday ytd!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANET!!!! haha..all the special august babies ;p.. but no one can deny...the Nov/Dec babies are the best!!yes?? YES! haha..went at night to collect the bike for her...and then we had cheeeese rice..yum! hehe it was all good..spent the whole of ytd..keeping appointments with people..I can finally sign up for sch Di!! - i think!- YAY!!~sonkeys'*huGz*~ hehe...

spent tdy with Jules...that poor sick RG..hehe..and the mop met with us for dinner later..her perm's nice! alrite..i'm SO tired!!

Bambi - it'll b ok...right?
Sara - where are u girl?? i'm the only one blogging!! i miss you like crazy!!
LEONIE!! ;P haha ok ok LG - baby girl, ur msgs seriously make my day! even if they're only about ur other appointments ;p haha
Sonkey!! - u n me n iced choc? soon?
Lemboo - u silly little cow... my miniature lembu doesnt hug me the way u do!! u promised 'coffee'... better make it soon!
JAG*s - i love you guyz!!nxt week's packed with our outings!!

i know...most of them prolly wont see it..but nvm..at least im always thinking of them! ;p...alrite! take care...nites!
*Gracie

the weekend was great!! but ytd, ytd was awesome! it was a really really special day...my bestest friend's BIRTHDAY!!! as of ytd, she's been alive for TWO decades!! that's something to b proud of, if u ask me ;p after worrying and fretting over it..everything somehow fell into place...it may not have been the way she hoped for...but it all fell into place. she was surrounded by people who loved her dearly...by yummy food...and the half-past six deco we put up ;p and of course...PRESENTS!! hehe.. i stayed over...even after slyma's health advisery;) we were both tired..but it was nice..we should do it more often di!! no1 talked abt parachutes this time...but it was just as fun...we looked at pri sch pics...and just talked..abt anything that came across our dead tired brains... woke up early...EARLY in the morning...and she had to go off to work..so i follwed and found my way back home....i was standing in her room when she was taking her shower...and just looking around.. and i thot to myself.. how can i ever think she'll forget me..it's not possible..coz her room is full!...of stuff ive given her..of pics and toadstools ;p hehe..it's just full of memories...and it felt good just standing there..looking at stuff..and remembering!

ok...this'll not be complete till i pay a special.. TRIBUTE =)

and of course...it's to u.. ADELIA! i'm so happy! spending time with you always makes me feel that way.i loved seeing your 1st smile of the day...it was like the whole room lit up!! -or maybe it was just the sun ;p- you've been living for 20 years now!! and most of those years..u've shared with me... from brownies dancing round a bluff toadstool;p to eating brownies with ice-cream! raising n lowering flags, silly girls day outs, dissing people, smiling, laughing, hugging, crying, misunderstandings....you've just always been there. You've shared your family, your friends, your house..everything with me.We grew up together..and we'll probably be growing old together ;) but even then, u'll still be my bestest. Nothing will come in the way of our promises of forever! i wont let it..

i've been truly blessed with u...someone who loves me unconditionally...and keeps dreaming with me..who reaches out when i get lost.and always helps me find my way.who wont worry about getting lost WITH me..just someone who can look right into my heart..and still want to be right there thru it all...i hope u really liked the flowers...and everything else. i wanted it all to be perfect..but somehow it didnt really turn out looking that way. there's so much i want to say.But i'll never find the right words to reveal the depth of it all...But maybe u'll see glimpses of it...just look at me smile when i'm with u...look into my eyes..and u'll know...u'll know that i love you..that i'll be here, there, anywhere for u.that our hearts are linked..and nothing will ever be able to break it...

i love you sweetheart...Happy Birthday... your dreams are just waiting to come true.. so just keep looking ahead..and don't look back..i'll catch u when u fall.Promise.My world would be a sadder place without u..

*Grace
| | u only find a once-in-a-lifetime friend... once in a lifetime | |

For the truly special people in my life..especially || Sonkey!! || you mean the world to me.

- I live beneath the heart
I watch you from the dark
I'm every breath I'm every dream
I've known you forever
I've followed you everywhere
I'm every scar I'm who you are
When you think you're alone
When you cry cos the world's unfair
You can rest assured I'm always there

Even when you feel like you don't belong
Even when you fall and it all goes wrong
Know that I'm with you
That I'm with you all the time

Say a little prayer for the restless heart
We shall never ever drift apart
Know that I'm with you
Know that I'm with you
With you all the time

I walk thru every room
I'm laughing when you smile
And when you cry I cry too
I made you a promise
That I shall forever be
You're on your own but not alone -

yup...i'm with you ALL..all the time;) haha..take care!
*Grace

I'm so tired! things going missing.important things..they just disappear..one minute they're there..and the next they're not.My mum keeps joking that we've got a HUGE toyol running ard.it's driving me mad!!leave my stuff alone!!!! the computer also, going wacky..sighz!

Angry words exchanged..ok more like msged ;p with sonkey ytd. i hope u know i didnt mean it! i don't know where the anger came from.and i don't know how it disappeared so fast.i just know I LOVE YOU too much to keep taking out my silly moods on u! i'm glad things are ok. poor sonkey, her b'day's round the corner and nothing seems to be working in her favour.i remember past b'days!!plans arranged at least a week in advance! and this time it's a big one too..a new chapter..another milestone ;p but..i'm sure it'll all work out in the end! so don't worry already!haha

this branch narrowly missed my head ytd!...it bounced off the car next to us and cracked into two.my sis was even closer to it!...scary to think..if we had just taken one more tiny step...-shudders...

on a lighter note..Jules, i bought the wallet!!YAY!! haha..yeah but there's nothing left to put into it..haha..

alrite, think im gonna find some lunch - haha..as if i live in the jungle;p - bambi, you're right..it's been a good year.thank u for it..just thank you for everything.seriously, i don't know how i managed to get so lucky;p oh yeah ceedee's little msg made me think of all our sily pri sch days..haha how we used to squeeze into seetha's dad's car...and how we were some crazy-must-play-hopscotch-everyday kids;p and how cikgu zarina loved pulling our ears..haha especially mine and elly's..and sara's right?? with those nails of hers! projects in didi's house..that time ceedee cut her hair..and didnt wanna talk to us..like it was our fault!! ;p and i think ceedee's dad's shop.and when it rained so heavily..all those mega-huge cockraches would decorate the walls and we had stand near them not to get wet but elly'd go mad running around in the rain..eventho she still had to take the sch bus home!..CEEDEE,DIDI,ELLY,SARA and whoever else i missed out...we've known each other for so long!! we practically grew up together..i miss those days!:)

ok ok..i'm going...

*Grace

'Shit' green colour today..for a special tribute to one of the best friends i'll ever find :) haha.... The colour itself will let sara know who i'm talking abt..none other than our dearest siti AISHA !!! hehe Happy Birthday girlie!! i wish i could have spent it with you..if we were still in sch she'd had started reminding us probably earlier than June! 20 today huh?? told u..practically an old makcik already;p Aisha's a great friend..anyone that knows her..cant help but love her... lotsa love in that short little body! :) when u're around her..you just wanna smile smile smile...

friends since sec 1...special probs brought us together in sec...2?? kept quarreling like crazy in sec 3;p unending massages in sec 4..and sec 5??we were all stuck together with glue! not forgetting she was my trust-worthy - ..just as lazy as me...purposely missing lessons together in the name of IT...- AV rep partner.. hehe..

she always took care of us...had the softest hands on earth!!...gave free head massages practically everyday! helped everyone she could...got on ppl's nerves...sang her heart out-broke a few ear-drums- whenever she wanted to...stood up for the ppl she loved...smiled..even when no one was watching...

i'm glad we're still friends...i'm glad we went thru so much together! i'm glad ive got such a special gem in my life..-even if i see or her from her next to never-...i'm glad for 5 years i saw her everyday...talked on the phone ...went for malay lessons...and maths remedial..recesses-on the floor!- and lunches...i'm glad for talks we had..for special,stupid,funny moments we shared...i'm glad that 20 years ago...she was born!

so Aisha..u'll probably not see this..but.. i love you..always have and always will...you brought lots of sunshine and sadness into my life...and not for anything will i ever change that... even now..when we cant find time to meet up..or even talk ahwile..just the thot of u makes me smile..there'll never be anyone like u!! my life would probably be different-at least a'lil!!-if not for u...thanks for everything..i love our memories! but i love you more..Happy Birthday once again..and this..is for YOU! take care..we'll catch up soon?? *muacks* love,Gracie

i love our new template..it's perfect! :) haha...it may look a'lil messy to some..but im too lazy to do anything else abt it...to us..it's perfect! hehe...and it's all thanx to KELLY!! *applause* her designs are great..so if u're looking ard for something..pop by..u might just find it there;p haha...

anw, looks like tmr's sentosa trip's cancelled AGAIN :( nxt week prehaps..bleah..i STILL cant find my card..it's driving me absolutely insane! ah well, i'm gonna go look again...take care everyone...love you all..sara'll blog again..once she's gone over the exam hurdles ;p hehe

*Gracie
|| u know i miss u...anywhere i go, i know u're always there ||

So today's the last day sonkey'll b online..well, for awhile anw:( nvm, we have the phone!! haha...the weekend was pretty tiring..with lunches and kiddies staying over...but it was a nice kinda tiring..haha.. isaac did a sweet performance of "i love you more than i can say" haha he's such a sweetheart...

off to the airport later...relatives going for a holiday sort off...will miss them..even if it's only for awhile ;p

SARA!! good luck for ur examz girl!! u n i - n everyone else- knows you'll do brilliantly!! haha right guyz?!?! N you'll get into that uni..believe me!alrite?

write more later!

*Gracie
|| lately, i see u next to never....
but nothin'll come in our way of forever ;)||

So tired!! sheesh..today went well...forgetfuless may just run in the family ;p alicia didn't manage to drop by..yeah la yeah la..go to the zoo without me still don't wanna drop by...i'll hold u to that promise moppy! haha too tired to write much abt today...just wanted to say......HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! my fellow country?!?..island people! :) no matter what..i'm proud to say...i love our tiny island...it'll always be home i always feel so ...so nostalgic..especially when we watch the -nicer parts of the- ndp ;p haha... maybe it's knowing that we have come far...haha...alrite i'm TIRED! nites everyone!
~We are told no dream's too bold that we can't try for
There's a spirit in the air, it's a feeling we all share~
*Gracie

Caught up with my sonkey FiNaLLy!! bats and weird humour and mata orang and slyma sharpening her parang in the background.Perfect!haha..we managed to catch up online..ah the joys of the wrold wide web! kept u up..sorry! haha everytime i told myself 5 more mins..it became at least 15 more.her uncle's getting married..or maybe the ceremony's over already?!? haha but i do wish him all the happiness in the world..coz he deserves it! i still cant believe that silly bird's nest boy actually WaNtEd to go to sch!to each his own i guess..haha sonkey, u really make So happy ;p So is so happy whenever u're ard..whoever so might be..haha..

my room's in a mess.a huge mess.we ALWAYS do this.last minute-chucking things out of sight.haha..need to clean it up for tmr..actually im suppose to be cleaning the whole house..and help my mum prepare..argh!! i'll write later!

*Grace

Today was Great! =D sometimes, little nuisances really do happen for a reason! well, went to meet my sis..she wanted to go pressie shopping for a friend.so i arrived kinda late.Had a'lil trouble with my mum and bro.Missed the bus and the train took EIGHT minutes to arrive.so i was quite late! Walked around a'lil.She saw something she liked but decided to walk around somemore.was on the escalator up when some crazy person runs up the escalator and gives me a huge shock!!! i turn around and it's none other than........ my darling LEMBOO!!!!! =) haha..i was so happy to see her.Was thinking about her the whole day..wondering where she disappeared too..and if she was ok... and there she was standing behind me with that huge smile..haha.. didn't get to talk much.waited for her fido dido ;p to come up the escalator then she had to go. she asked abt sonkey...said she'd drop by if she knew where u were workg ;) she dyed her hair reddish i think..really NiCe...so, she promised 'coffee' one day..which will be soon i hope -everyone keep ur fingers crossed!- haha...i love that gal to bits! so much! she never fails to make me smile...i could hug her forever...and she'll never make me let go :)

oh yeah...i baked my very first apple pie last week..along with some potato bread..Yummmmy..i'm so proud of me ;p haha

dekap's back..but i have managed to forgot my account name..and i don't think i have space for a tag board..but i do love the smilies! hehe..how sara?? comment box or tag board?

Jan, if u read this..had fun shopping with you! we havent been able to do that in awhile..haha..told u the chicken and rice would be yum ;p i love you!

i have to make an appointment with the citibank guy..i need money! i NEED to go to sch!!! ah well, need to go help my sis wrap her friend's pressie..nites..

was that no pickles, extra mustard and no onions?!?! haha..

*Gracie
Ps: sonkey, it's the little things that matter...:) n oh yeah.. thank you!! i love the template too ;p it's perfect!hehe

||sonkey.sara.bambi.boo.JAG*s.Mi.Sher|| i miss you all

Sara, sorry abt earlier..comp hanged on me.Sonkey, i miss you.msg me back will ya! ;p haha Mop, stop avoiding me..hehe Jules, how was the ball? i miss the JAG*s every other day outings!! Bambi, we didnt talk today :( you know you're my pumpkin! haha..i love you guyz

i was an absolute klutz today.just kept banging into and dropping things.Dropped an iron that was on display and a whole row of asparagus! hit my head on the bed and the cabinet.somehow managed to walk right into a cyclist.i didnt even see where he came from!!all this and more..not bad for one day huh ;p

isaac danced on sat.it was cute..all the little kiddies in their overly shiny costumes :) townsville pri put up this fusion dance or something..it was really really good.no kidding!even the costumes were really pretty. i seriously wouldnt have minded if they danced one -or two or three ;p- more times...haha..

i've been messing ard with the templates..so it may be kinda messy for now..as long as sara doesnt mind..it doesnt matter! haha

contacts really dry..time for some sleep..nites!

my life's changing..everything's rearranging...but i don't know where i'm suppose to fit..

*Gracie
||i'm happiest when i'm with you||

my puzzle's got so many holes....

i gotta make this real quick...so we're back.it's been a long week. but more on that later..when the computer's free-er -i know i know..no such word..-

i miss my friends..i really do.i miss seeing them and talking to them.i miss laughing and hugging and gossiping.i miss it all..from the friends who are oceans apart..to the friends who are just across the island..i miss u all...

i've been missing sonkey alot.it's been ages since i heard her voice or watched her get annoyed or shared an iced choc.or smiled at myself whenever she has to repeat her special order for a cheeseburger.even longer since i held her hand or made slyma annoyed that we were STIL on the phone.i just miss her so much.

ah well..i gotta run..i just wanted u guys to know...I MISS YOU!! i'll write later...
*Gracie