i cannot belive wat's gotten into me..
i spent close to 300 bucks tdy!
all in one aftnoon..
n tts only the nets transactions..
all the actual cash tt actually came out of the wallet..
could v well put the amt way above 300..

add to tt the 2 pairs of shoes, the starry bag n the top i bot while wit sonks last wk..
i'm totally screwed cash-wise for this month...
hehe
best of all.. i was wit my mum the whole day..
shudnt shop with my best frenz coz we spend too much..
shudnt shop wit my sis coz i'd spend..
looks like i shudnt shop with my mum too.. hehe...
but tt wont stop any of us.. ;)

n once i came back, i started doin the normal thing i do..
which is second guess my purchases...
did i really hv to get tt??
does this really look nice??
how come nw it looks bad... hmmm
hahaha...
but at least i feel some satisfaction tt all of it was spent on me..
havent really done shoppin for "me".. just me in awhile..
nxt thing i think is i need some me time..
n i'd b happy...
sonks i think aussie's def gonna b out at the rate i'm going...
mayb lk u sed.. nxt yr?? hahaha...

nw i jus nd to hv some awesome days out to wear the new clothes n shoes! hahaha...
n clear my cupboard..so i finally hang up everythin or somethin..
its a wonder hw many new stuff i hv which has nvr been worn..frm so long ago..
sheesh...

anw, tt day went i went for confession..
the priest sed somethin which is pretty funny..
n i'd love to share it wit ppl..
but i guess confessions are between u n the priest n god..
so i shall jus keep it to myself.. hehehe...

happy happy bday my dearest elle...
wishin u only the best..
love u..

the time comes when u hv to let go and blend back into the background...
tho its hard to do...
nt everyone's lives r meant to revolve ard each others all the time..
other things/ppl/situations/errands/days/obligations slowly tk ovr the priority u once had...
so step back and blend...
take the colours of the rainbow that ya'l once made and blend back in to create the dull, mundane background again...
wat hurt dis stoopid lil heart of mine the most is tt u din even say goodbye...or see u..or i'll b back...
i know, wat a silly lil heart ive gt..
but i still miss u...be safe my dear...love u
seriously, will dis heart of mine nvr learn...

sonks babe, thx for everythin..
let the shoppin nvr end!!!!
sorry "PUMP-ing" nvr happens...
haha tt doesnt sound too gd..;p
nxt wk babe??
SMACK TT! =D

sara darls.. thx for the letter!!
as u could hv guessed i LOVE it!!
awesome!!mwuah...
it was like gettin a nice surprise then realizin there's so much more inside..
like one of those russian doll thingies u know?
where they keep fitting inside each other?
i'm sure u know what i mean..
hehe
love ya my darlin..
for always...

if given a opportunity..
would u...
grab it and run like the wind..
or back off n let it slip by..
only to curse urself in the end IF everythin clears up n u see what u could hv had..
or would u live in constant IFs and MAYBs of what could have, would have or mite never have bn

i think i noe what i've gotta do..
i know wht i WANNA do...
but its nvr tt easy is it...

i juz wanna live

i see their innocence shining thru their eyes
n i cant help it
i'll always wan the best for them..
funny hw they're nt my flesh n blood..
yet they hold such a special place in my heart..
even more funny...
hw in a couple of years they wont even remembr me..
aft leaving me with such sweet crazy memories of them..
my babies.. u mean so much to me...
may u never lose tt amazin innocent wonderment..
may every solution alwiz b as simple as it is nw...
may ur dreams..no matter hw wild.. alwiz excite u..
n may u alwiz..alwiz..ALWIZ...love wit tt simple, fulfillin love of yours...
may no1 ever tarnish or taint ur beautiful hearts...
i love u, u monkeys..
thank u 4 lovin me..

its a wonder hw we change as we grow..
hw we lose our true selfs and somehw conform to wats expected..
to wats required of you..
yet u know tt,
tt lil u is still in there..
struggling to get out..
but every1 keeps pushing her down...
we dont even realize it..
it happens over time..
and somehow u start settling for less..
u push ur dreams aside...
and take wats given to u...
and before u know it...
tt's the only life u have...
the true u becomes jus a distant faded memory..
u know u're jaded... but u cnt find ur way out...
n u are happy to accept yourself as wat u hv become...
forgetting all the awesome dreams and aspirations and greatness u once yearned so much for..
u once dreamed so vividly for...
i've alwiz believed in dreaming...
i've alwiz dreamt with all my heart...
but it seems harder and harder somehw....
wen in a world of cold hard reality....
u feel lk u're the only dreamer...
n ppl kp tellin u tt shootin stars dun exist....
n u start belivin...tt everythin ur heart holds is silly..
i want to continue believin...
in the beauty of life again....in the power of dreams n love n hugz.. in the sense of findin one's passion..
in the dream of complete, utter, happiness...in the goodness of a fellow human being
i hope i cn...
i hope i find reasons to..

havent bn bothered to blog coz was lazy to do the whole change to a google account thingy..
but who knows wen i actually did it,
it took such lil time!
argh..
hehe..
its bn a gd week.. really

2 parties within a wk
parrrrrrrrttttttttttaaaaaaaaaay!!!
haha..
new frenz..
old frenz..
really really old frenz.. hehe
-sonks u fall into tt category babes! hehehe-
drinks..DANCING!!!
hugz n kisses..
loved it!
LOVED IT!!! =D
awesome...
the other days of the week also went pretty well..
so its bn a gd one.. n i hope for more of these.. =D

met up wit a bunch of awesome gorgeous ppl last nite..
sec sch frenz.. pri sch frenz!!
man im gettin old... haha
michelle, cheryl, elly, ceedee, sonks...
it was so so gd to see them
had a blast babes!
added to tt mix were ppl we juz met a couple of days earlier..
N ppl we met on tt day itself.
we definately shud do it again soon...

random thot,,

some1's seemed to hv taken my ang pow money..
yes yes it mite hv been a measly sum to some but they all meant somethin to me
especially the one from my silly partner..
i hope the idiot who tk it falls into a drain or somethin..
;p

glad to say tt ive finally managed to start towards makin some peace with an old fren.. i jus hope it all goes well..
i told ali at the start of this yr tt i wanted to widen my circle of frenz..
to experience new things..n new ppl
n mayb one way of expandin tt circle is to take in old frenz who hv somehw bn misplaced..
i wan this to b a gd yr..
i wan it to mold a gd me...

there was once a gal...
who aft bein in the sun for so long
finally made frenz with it...
n the frenship was great..
the sun gv her wat she needed...
a comfort from the pouring rain...
a loving, warm place to explore n roam...
a beautiful smile weneva she felt down...
n the gal gv the sun wateva she could..
a listenin shoulder..
unconditional love...
n a promise to alwiz b there
the gal n the sun were inseperable..
somehw they found in each other somethin
both had bn missin for a long while...
but no matter hw strongly they believed in their friendship..
things went wrong as they sometimes do..
n the sun n the gal
grew apart

the gal couldnt understand it..
she loved the sun so..
she felt so lost and cold without the sun's lovin rays..
but as time passed it seemd tt the sun wuld nvr come back
n so the gal learnt hw to live life witout it...
the sun was a distant but painful memory...
n all the gal had were these memories to hold onto..
she found other friends n they helped mk her world bright again..
in her heart she alwiz missed the sun
many years later, the gal bumped into the sun..
everythin felt so familiar yet different n unknown at the same time...
the nxt time they met, the sun finally sed tt she too had missed the gal..
so the gal n the sun hv decided to try puttin the past behind them..
n findin tt safe, happy place they were in before..
n with all my heart, i hope they do..
gal, wen u left, my world seemd darker somehw...
ive really missed u..
u've alwiz gt tt space in my heart..
come back to it wenever u're redi....

i need some gummi berry juice!!
hehe..
i'm jus missin all the years tt seemed to hv gone by so fast...
so so fast...
23 years of my life..
maaan...
but as i told sara..
im glad tt eventho the years hv gone past jus like tt..
I'm glad ive somehow managed to hold onto
some pretty special ppl..
anw, i jus wanted to share dis...
the ppl from "my time"
..am i really sayin my time!! hehe
ya'll shud remember this guys!!!
i grew up watchin great cartoons..
care bears, smurfs, gummi bears...
n looked hw great i turned out! haha
n there was golden girls, murder she wrote..back to the future...
argh.. i feel so old just remembering..
anw, i loved gummi bears.. one of my favs.. so go on.. sing along.. i know u want to..

Dashing and daring, Courageous and caring,
Faithful and friendly, With stories to share.
All through the forest, They sing out in chorus,
Marching along, As their song fills the air.

Gummi Bears!! Bouncing here and there and everywhere.
High adventure that's beyond compare. They are the Gummi Bears.

Magic and mystery, Are part of their history,
Along with the secret, Of gummiberry juice.
Their legend is growing, They take pride in knowing,
They'll fight for what's right, In whatever they do.

Gummi Bears!! Bouncing here and there and everywhere.
High adventure that's beyond compare. They are the Gummi Bears.
They are the Gummi Bears!!



n here's another of my favourites.. dedicated to the awesome
ppl in my life...
sara, sher, sonks, sandra, ali, jules...n all the rest.. who've just been there thru it all..
guys,
i love u
thank U for being my friend...

anw, had to say gdbye to my babe tdy..
the day fionally came..
im so gonna miss u babe...
but we'll kp in touch k
no worries..
would i let go of one of my bestest frenz?

hmmm..?
thx for the awesome memories..
we'll continue buildin them for years to come yeah?
jus nt at work tts all..:)

n lastly.. a bday shoutout..
happy bday sandra!!!
i hope the day was awesome...
best wishes...love ya

k im goin back to watchin n repeatin my gummi bear song...
i mourn for all the wonderful yrs gone by...

babe...jus another 4 days to go...
its scary hw these two blissful, awesome yrs hv jus flown by..
circumstances hv lead to this decision..
its hard to let go.. but i understand...
our days of 'cilly' gossip sessions r numbered...
no more toilet break visits..
no more mam mam times and bowl sharing ;p
no more bubble tea times...with cheesy hotdogs...
such an unexpected sistahood..
its jus blossomed into so much..
a bond between hearts
i love ya babe...
u've bn such a blessing...
i will definately miss u like crazy..
but nvr will i forget u...
n nvr will i forget the love u always shower on me..
my babe..
lets njoy the last few days...
till we get a chance to wrk together again..
it wont b the same witout ya..
kp in touch..
love u for always...
sistas for life..
mwuah mwuah
babe

honestly speakin...
u're nt a true fren to me...
coz if i ever ever needed anythin...
i'd nvr ever turn to u..

i hate the u tt u are..
n as usual...
i hate the me tt u mk me...
so dun bothr tryin..
coz u'll never ever

EVER

mean as much to me...
as those who are truly...
my frens..
u dun even come close...
n they dun even nd to try...
they'v gt my heart alrdy...
n u nvr will..
so pls la jus get urself off tt pedestal tt u've placed urself on..
u're seriously nt tt great..
in fact u're barely even mediocre

bn sleepin at 5 practically every nite this week..
jus stayin up tryin to catch up on my wrk..
u'd think.. like everyone else alrdy does
tt my job wuld b one tt is free of extra work...
n nonsensical things..
but hw wrong u are..
the lesson plans themselves...
maann...
n the cuttin n cuttin n cuttin...
n all tt thinkin...
hahaha...
am gettin used to the nw shift..
mayb its nt tt bad??
jus leaves me very lil evenin time...
so nothin much can b done..

en there's tt thing abt classes..

hmmm.. dunno..
but everyday its like playin the waitin game..
wait wait wait.. hehe

u know there's this part in coyote ugly..
where dis gal.. lets call her A.. returns home frm her best fren's wedding (B?),
to hear tt her dad's in hosp aft being in an accident..
she rushes to the hosp n in awhile sees B runnin in still in her weddin gown n all..
n wen questioned for comin eventho it was her weddin nite..
B answers.. u've been in my family all my life, he's only been in my family for five mins..
or somethin like tt la..
but this part jus touches me somehw..
n eventho its only fiction.. n would someone really do dis for someone else on their WEDDIN day?,
it makes me think if anyone would ever do tt for me...
n no, honestly im not hintin anythin at anyone.. or disguising some contempt with my best frenz
or anythin.. im jus wondering tt's all..
coz i also wonder if i'd do tt for one of my best frenz if the roles were reversed..
n i'd like to think i would...
n deep in my heart, i'd love to believe tt each n everyone of my bestest frenz would do this for me too...
no matter wat the situation...


my darlin's comin back tmr...
n i cant wait..
i miss her so..
the enquiring eyes.. the silent looks...
the gossip
the fun times..
the crazy times..
the BBT times..
the curly times..
with the chewy chewy bits.. hehe..
bring it on baby!!!!
i cnt wait...
chewy chewy och!
haha

attended elaine's weddin chalet ovr the wkend..
how fast everythin's fallen into place...
feels like they just started..
hehe
miss those gals of mine too..
lookin forward to more complaining and nite 'rockin' with ya'l soon yeah?
quick find a place n let's go alrdy!!

qoute of the day frm lil jay's mouth:

yahoohoo... later the kanchi koni man's goin to come.. hehe..
the lil tyke was tryin to say karang-guni..
the things tt come out of the mouths of lil babes...
u'd b surprised at hw un-innocent some of them really are..
n hw sweet/cute the others reali are.. hehe
alrite..tt's all for tonite folks!

wats happened to me?? i'm still alive n kickin ppl.. jus as usual.. no mood to come here to type.. nt to mention the big fiasco with the laptop n all.. some of u know the whole sordid story.. the rest.. ah it doesnt matter anymore.. i seriously do not want to think abt it..
so the 23rd bday came n went without much hooha.. it was raining the whole day! crazy i tell u..
x'mas has also done its run..had mass.. then lunch at my aunts the nxt day..with a big huge feast.. yummy! haha.. n with all the celebrations and all. we've once again come to a brand new yr.. it's amazing how the years go by at such speed sometimes..n suddenly u jus find urself gettin older n older.. new yr's was good.. started the yr wit ali by my side at church.. then we did the usual stupid things we do when we're together.. tho i think dis one takes the cake.. 30 bucks for a 7 dollar mac meal ali?!!?! hahaha..
things mite have been quieter than usual on my side.. but ive been thinkin.. n there r definately things im so grateful for..for the yr that's gone past
-tt it was all spent surrounded by those i luv the most.. my family..
-tt we've all been kept safe and out of harm's way
-tt my darlin gal came outta the accident with only minor injuries
-tt my besties r still all mine ;p
-tt i've marked another yr of life
-tt im learnin n growin n experiencin more in life

-tt there r still ppl lovin me, prayin for me, guidin n guardin me..
-tt i've bn given awesome colleagues who brighten my days
-tt my kiddies love me.. no matter wat.. hehe
-tt sonkey still knows me like she does
-tt ali n me share serious/weird/funny/silly/nonsesical/meaningful talks once in awhile
-tt sher my hot young mama still remembers me heehee..
there's so much to b thankful for..n truly im thankful for it all.. for U all..
so i jus wish for each of u.. for all of us..
only the best things in 2007..
may it be a yr filled with happy moments and great memories..
may it be a safe yr..
may it be an awesome year..
may it be exciting and invigorating! :)
n if.. IF our strength, courage, faith,hope is tested....
may we face it all head on.. only to come up on top...

i wanted to talk abt my decisions for this yr.. but..
nxt entry perhaps...
i love u all..

may it b a yr tt dreams r fulfilled..

i miss the times with u my loveable lil one...
u were like one of my best frens... only, obviously so much more
we shared so much..
days out.. n nite talks..
movies n shoppin...
n talks without sacarsm..
now only thots of him fill ur head.. ur heart..
i guess u dun hv much time for us.. for me no more..
thinkin things true.. i think i mite b a tad jealous..
nt tt u've gt him..
but more like tt he's got most of u..
leavin nothin much for me..
n tt's wat hurts the most..
i guess its time for the fam to step aside..

guess it finally time to write.. type somethin.. after comin in and out of here without doin much the past few weeks
the thing is i always have somethin i wanna say..but by the time i get in here that 'want' to get the words out is over..
sometimes i think abt gettin a new blog, leaving all tt is here behind.. it was originally set-up for both me n my dear sara..
so takin it on as my own never really made it feel trully my own. but then again, we all know wat a sucker i am for memories and sentiments.. so i shall put tt on hold first.

been thinkin thru so many things recently..
mayb the thot of leavin behind 22 n movin on to 23 brings some thought-provokin moments along with it..

been meetin up wit ali the past few weeks..
somehw her silliness cheers me up.
n ive come to realise tt no matter wat.. or wat time.. we always seem to have a nice lil or looong chat before we part ways... we'll jus find a place to sit.. n talk... quite a nice way to end a day out.. haha.. if i do say so myself.. its become like one of ur silly traditions.. n we din even realise it..

i'm sorry to all those ive shut out or pushed away..
i dunno wat my silly moods are doin to me..
all i can say is thx for ur love...
watever it is... my fav time of the year is coming up.. n i cant wait!!! haha.. i expect big expensive bday pressies and lots of love , joy n happiness at christmas time..christmas, as ya'l know is my most fav time of the yr.. it's jus like wen during gd fri n all, i jus feel my faith surround me and i am humbled..
my heart longs so badly for the simple yet meaningful christmases from the past..
with my grandma's chicken stew... sitting ard the tree with my cousins.. there's jus so much i wish for.. n none of it r material gifts...

i remember, there was one year.. my grandma bought all of us jewelry.. real gold.. n u know the shops they put the gold in those little boxes.. n christmas day wen my cousins n all came ovr n it was time for presents.. my mum asked us to look closer at the tree.. n there were all these boxes for us hanging on the tree..like lil colourful decorations..dunno hw long it took them to hang it all up.. it was jus fr us kiddies.. frm my grandma..n we had so much fun getting our boxes off the tree n putting on our jewelry..

can u ever make my wishes come true..
i dun think anyone can...
someone jus heal my heart pls...
coz sometimes the pain becomes to much to bear..

Just incase anyone was wondering...
i had my prac test last thurs..
...and...
i PASSED!!
i passed i passed i passed!!! =D
it was a super tiring week..
i slept frm 5 am to 7 am practically everyday..
n on the wed b4 the prac i din slp a wink.. at all!
i dunno hw i managed to get along with so lil sleep..
my poor sis stayed up with me all nite long.. cuttin n pastin stuff..
n on thurs.. i fnally had the test..

the sup loved everythin.. the corners.. the materials..the lesson..
i am truly happy..finally.. now only the folder left to go..
ppl at work.. they were so awesome..
well most of them anw.. ;p
rallyin ard me.. n helpin me.. n diggin up materials for me..
n cuttin my fruits into beautiful lil shapes..
wat would i hv done without them..
seriously..
i owe them so much..
best was i nvr even expected it or saw it coming..
they jus helped silently, in their own way..
Jy gv me a beautiful bouquet of flowers on wed..
for some moral support she said..
somehw givin me wat i needed..
n wanted! haha..
so for all their help n everythin else.. im jus grateful..
so everyone celebrate on my behalf..
have a nice huge piece of chocolate cake for me..
i PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nxt step up the ladder??? nxt yr perhaps ;)
nw its time to bask in this happiness.. n jus njoy for awhile..
so..for nw...
batam for some relaxation anyone?!?

the letter arrived on mon..
or was it tues.. tues i think..
confirmation of practicum.. urgh!!

starting at the end of nxt wk..
prac supervision will b on the 12th!! at 9.30 am!
dam im scared ardy!!
so many many things n i have yet to start..
die die die.. hw hw hw?!?!
i dunno y mine's 5 days b4 the end of the hours im supposed to clock in!!
its nt fair i tel u!! hehe..
so wish me luck my darlings.. i hope all goes well..
n any1 wanting to help or somethin cn offer i think i will greatly appreciate it! hehe...
nahhh..

jus kp me in ur prayers n thots..
this is important n i HAVE TO get thru it.. k?? ;)
oh n dun 4get my big bunch of
balloons/flowers/choc/congratulatory dancers/champagne/banners/fireworks/confetti
when i actually pass!! on the 12th! haha..
ok its nt gd to count the chicks b4 they hatch or somethin.. ok so i'l hope for the best! n i'll try my best..really..

ahhh.. anw, met up wit ppl i havent seen in..hmm 6..7 yrs?!?! at elly's place the other day.. was great.. nice juz sein them aft so long.. later part of the evenin was awesome tho.. jus sittin ard the table..talkin abt the years gone by.. n learnin babs' secret! haha.. loved it.. n loved kissin n cuddlin tt baby boy even more.. elly'l b leavin soon.. cant believe she'l b back outta here in a few days.. hmmm love ya both la babes..mwuah..
will miss ya..both of ya..kisses to u n cam..
u're doin everythin rite..jus look at ur lil man..
still thinkin of those cupcakes..........
yum! haha

why am i so lazy?
seriously why am i?
i'm so lazy to blog.. when i actually have so many things to blog abt.. ironic aint it
anywayz.. past two..three?!? weeks hv bn full of meet-ups with long lost frens ;p haha
lets c...met

* elly... n her gorgeous, wonderful.. extremely melt-your-heart cutie cameron..
i tell u tt kid.. he'll turn u into mush wit jus one look.. not surprising.. he's elly's offspring aftall.. haha..

*then there was christine, yas, ni, ms ho, ms koh, steph, glad glad, jules, babs.. all at CHRISTINE'S WEDDING... oh.. n the meet-up a few days b4 tt..haha
the bride looked absolutely drop dead gorgeous..
its jus amazin hw we've all grown into wat we r tdy.. lookin at them. i juz couldnt belive tt ive known these monkeys since we were 11/12? sheesh.. i cant wait to see all that each of us will eventually acomplish..it juz felt gd..a homecomin in a sense. bein wit ppl u were once so comfortable wit.bra strap flickin..booby touchin..hair pullin..head massages, hand massages, tt middle knuckle crack ;p head on shoulder sobbin, sleepin on each other's laps, n chairs n tables , at basketball courts.. haha..swappin bks,cheatin,trickin,playin,escapin,runnin,eatin,hidin,hurried homework doin..gosh did we really go through all tt n more

*my darlin elaine n nisha. miss them ever so much.. really..aft seein them every wk..its like bein deprived. haha.. nice jus sittin n chatting

*saw the rest too... eventho it was brief.. the hugs brightened my day..

*QP n her lil baby.. hw is it tt babies mk u fall in luv wit them ovr n ovr n ovr.. she's jus a mnth old but the lil gal's alrdy a beauty. felt amazin holdin tt lil tiny creature in my arms n seein her smilin n yawnin away. its been so long since i held a new born baby.. the last was my lil icy! n tt was wat? 8 years ago?!?haha.. tiny fingers n tiny toes.. hw i loved tt tiny nose..everythin abt her, so innocent n pure...
few months ago she was kicking away in QP's tummy..nw she's out n still kickin strong.. :)

*sonks n her other half.. ;) its bn too long yeah... its wat we mk of our 2nd chances tt matters..

*baba!! hahaha.. who else would pig out like mad then go n wat 2 movies in a row with me?!?! n one of it was a movie we din even hear abt b4..some japanese silly thing abt gigolos.. we bought the popcorn to munch aft the 1st movie then decided we needed a movie to accompany the popcorn... haha.. n by tt time at nite there wasnt much choice. the movie was silly la..doesnt really make much sense.but the company was awesome..

other than all this, ive FINALLY submitted my practicum form.. so it'l start at the end of sept.. n the most important -but-dreaded-prac day will be in oct.ARGH!!! im so scared alrdy. dunno wat to do.. dunno hw to do. it's jus one big case of i don't knows.. once the recep stamped it i wanted to take it back.but i know it's gotta b done..no runnin away from it. sigh.. i know i'm gonna start bitin ppl's head off n gettin irritated for no reason.. n prolly mkin life diff for anyone n everyone but i plead wit all of ya'l to jus be patient n understandin k?? It'l b over soon n i'l b back to sweet me ;p haha.. jus help me out by nt provokin me alrite?! hahaha

ah..i know there was so much more to say.. but im tired alrdy. n i DID mention tt i am feelin lazy! nites ya'l! mwuah!! oh yeah happy very belated teachers' day to all the darlin teachers in my life.. :)

imagine..2 friends..one indian n one chinese
talkin about shows..serials..
wats the catch??

the chinese girl's talkin abt indian shows n the indian girl's talkin abt chinese shows
hehe..
these 2 frens goin to lil india..

wats new rite..one bringin the other ard
the catch?
the chinese gal's bringin the indian gal ard..
to look for indian food! haha
our friendship..
one built ovr years..
colour of skin's nt a prob here.. nvr has n nvr will b..
my lovely fren..
indian gal in a chinese body.. haha
love ya!

anyways..
i'm done wit classes
so lemme remind u ppl,
im free on mons n thurs!!
so start callin me alrdy
haha.. or mayb shud wait til aft my prac..
dinner wit elly the other day..
same old sweetheart..
jus the four of us..
brought me back to primary sch days man...
has it really been 17 years of friendship?!?! geez..
haha 17 years..tt's like one teenager!
so much has changed since then.look at us now..
elly's gt her lil baby..which i still havent seen ELLY!! haha
sonks is flyin witout wings..
babs is a hot young thang.. ;) hahaha..
n then there's me..
we gt to know each other wen we were silly lil six yr olds..
nt a care in the world..except mayb wat to hv for recess...
innocence has bn taken ovr..lives hv changed..the lil kids hv grown up..
but yet i still the kiddies in them..not in a bad way...
like i still see curly haired elly fightin 4 her wat she believed in
n my fellow enid blyton-archie comic-crazy fanatic frn, sonks
n babs...always lookin out 4 us..
its great to hv frens lk tt..
even aft 17 yrs they stil stick by u. n luv u no matter wat..
tt's wat u call luv baby!

the lil one is out!!
QP gave birth ytd..FINALLY!! hehe
aft makin her mummy wait n wait n grow sick of the tai tai life at hm..
the lil tyke finally found her way into the world at ard 10 plus..
n yes its a baby girl..
havent seen her yet.. but i bet she's as beautiful as her mum..
i wish them all the love..
cant wait to see the lil one..
n QP too of course ;)
jus so happy!!
the joys a new lil baby brings..

tdy i had my 2nd last class...
thurs would be the last..last ever.. day of class for me for dis course..
of course ive still gt my prac to do before i can actually graduate from it..
but for classroom lessons.. thurs is it..
for all the grumblin ive bn doin.. i know im gonna miss it..
fun n laughter.. friends n our 'nite club' days..
things tt i'l definately miss.. i think most of all would b the friends n the laughter n fun..
wat'l i do every mon n thurs???!?!?! hehe.. how'l i get out of meetin ppl i dun wanna meet or meetings i dun wanna attend..
how'l i get outta ot.. hehe ;p
but then again like most things in life, i guess there's good n bad..
it's always like tt eh?
n im glad for the lessons ive learnt.. for the chances ive had.. for the frenz ive made..n lost along the way.. but more for the many ive made.. n for the laughter we've all shared..
anw, any1 in the mood of celebratin wit me..
or jus sending me a big big bunch of balloons.. haha..
i'l b one reali happy gal..realli ;)

thx babes.. for all the 'rockin' we did in our own special way every mon n thurs..
same time, same place..
nite club..
thurs i'l give ya'l a proper gdbye..
wil mis ya'l
mwuah..

ps: my lect sed somethin to me a wk or two back..but i'm not to write abt it till i talk to sonks or sara or somebody..nothin bad actually..jus somethin alil weird..nah nt weird..
thot provokin maybe? hehe.. ah wel till then!

so i received a msg quite a few days back...
a wedding invite...
frm none other than my dearest...
CHRISTINE! haha..
yup CHRISTINE K
my monkey's gettin married!!
in sept..
everyone's growin up huh...
am i the only idiot stuck waaaaay waaay back in the 90's
haha... ;p
i wish her all the best in life..
n im gonna try my best to mk it..
hv some other plans but.. i cant possibly miss out on one of my bestest fren's wedding
it only happens once n i shud be there cheerin her on...
hehe.. the way i describe it..like as if its a race
but i know ya'l understand..
it was always us.. one whole gang of us.. stuck thru everythin in sch together..
so i'll try my best to be there.. n i'll bring wit me the wishes n luv of those in our lil grp tt hv no way of makin it...n hopefully my darlin will feel all the love we hv to offer.. haha..
so dun worry..sher, sara,missy..ya'll still b ard..
cant help but think of all the wonderful times we've had...

I hate it tt some ppl r jus so full of themselves..
comin in jus like tt n actin like we owe them so much..
i hate having ur blardy eyes on me all the time..
i hate your sickenin hair u kp flinging here n there..
seriously, no one wans nor needs u here..
most of all i jus hate tt u made them cry..
n tt u're makin life so diff for us..
n tt you're tryin to make a dent in our happy weirdo lil family..
but most of all tt u made them cry..
in a place where we're always smilin n jokin n laughin..lovin n bitchin n gossiping..
U made them cry..
i hate the silence tt now dominates where once it
used to be laughter n jokes n fun..
the sad,stressed, angry faces that once was all smiles..
the hunger pangs when once we used to pass food ard so freely..
if only i could do to u wat u're doin to us
jus kp in mind, we're nt gonna let u break thru us..
keep doin ur lil tricks like a dog tryin to pls its master..
no matter what, we're stronger together n we know it.. throw wat u wan at us..
at least here among each other, we're safe n loved n protected..
u better kp ur eyes open coz
i mite jus burn ur hair one day!

I'm back ppl!back frm bangkok.. n ..batam!!
haha
been back for awhile actually..
went to batam wit sonks n serene to get massages aft all the shoppin we did in bangkok!
we shopped so much we din even have time to get a traditional thai massage..IN Thailand
i had to come back to n get one from the thai embassy..
thailand was...
AWESOME!!
simply great... with beautiful kind ppl.
beautiful ladies N 'men' ;p
their simplicity... friendliness culture and tradition..
"or somethin like tt" ;) haha
i loved my time there..
came back feeling tired..but much happier..cant wait to go back..wen can we ali?!?!?
wen wen?? :)
Ali was great company.. makes things so much easier being on the same wavelengthn wanting the same things!!
mainly SHOPPIN!!!but tt's nt all we did..we took in the culture with sight seeing n shows...
we embraced the food with love..tryn any roadside food tt caught our eye.. n boy was it all YUMMMMY..except 4 tt undercooked sotong..;)
we gt a hang of all the 'large' moolah..
we walked ard late at nite..
we fought wit shopkeepers ovr price(mainly ali)
we gv in to them(mainly me! i reallly nd to train up in bargaining.. hehe)
we saved ourselves frm bein cheated by a tuk tuk uncle..
ali was held onto tightly by a pretty man..
we found ali's thai lookalikewe shopped the WHOLE DAY..
all in all we jus enjoyed ourselves..i reali hope to mk it back one day

ali n i once started a tradition thing..
to tk a holiday every yr together..
n to move further on the map each time.
actually it wasnt tt long ago we talked abt this tradition.
it once sounded like silly talk..

somethin tt wouldnt happen
but then..!!
we started with visiting sentosa frequently..haha yeah yeah
then to batam..n now we've made it back from bangkok..
n so i look forward to nxt yr..
our new adventure..
jus us two gals..
if money n the no. of days off is on our side..we'l make it somewhere further nxt yr!
n maybe alil trip back to bangkok b4 tt.. haha
ok i'll go on more abt it all wen im done with my assignment..till then take care ya'l!!
thx 4 a great time baba!

oh thailand.. hw im entralled by thee...i'l b back someday..
jus wait n see..haha


bangkok international airport

chinatown-early in the morn-