sometimes nobody seems to understand..

monkey..thx 4 ur call..
serene..i jus suddenly miss u so much..evntho i jus saw u.. cant wait 2 c u later..wish u were here rite nw..i noe u'd try n understand..at e least u'd bitch wit me..muck
juzme...i cant wait 2 see ya
my princess..could i get one or ur awesome hugz pls

it breaks my heart to hear my best fren cryin... it shatters it to pieces when it's one of my bestest.. sigh felt myself tearing wen i heard all tt pain in her voice... how i wish i could jus hold her close til evrythin jus boils over..til the world's a safe place again for a heart like hers.. babe wat can i do.. tell me coz i dunno wat to say..i dunno wat to do..

i'l b here
i love u...

it'l b ok...

oh my gosh... somebody jus save me pls! drowning in assignments...siggggh...with a whole big box of work related stuff jus watin to be completed...wat was i ever thinking la!!!focus grace focus...

has it been long? it has? well... im back now.. not that long considerin ur take on long.. long to person in pain may juz b one day..but long to a person filled with everythin they every wanted or needed would never be enough...
well so many things have happened... happy stuff... n sad stuff.. n im gonna try my best to jot it down.. let every thing have it's fair share.. it's 1 min of fame....



ali's grandma passed away.. ironic hw we were jus talkin abt her..alil weird hw we squabled n gt over it jus days before..a squabble which put me in the rite mindset to be there for her as best i could..hopefully makin a tiny diff if possible...tt kinda pain neva really goes away... from my point anw... i still feel my heart squeezin n tears comin wen i think of my grandma.. so whoever says it jus takes time.. i have no idea wat u're tinkin... but in a way.. it's gd u always rememebr.. its gd to always miss them.. coz it makes u treasure those days wt them so so much more...so i wish my ali alil peace.. to calm her heart..

its different havin frenz who're married or with kids... t's nt difficult.. jus different.. their piorites in life are different..they're at a different point of they're life...mybe im jus startin to feel it now wen im surrounded by frens who r wives n mothers more nowdays...but no matter i love them all still n still enjoy their company...jus no late nites or impromptu plans... ah well.. late nites.. mayb i jus grew up with too much of DIDI;p haha... my late nite partner..impromptu planner..haha...nw im so used to it sometimes i crave it

movin on to di..my sonkey...i hate wat life is puttin her thru... i hate the way she has to feel... but im sure she'l get thru it.. coz she's gt the strength in her... life can b unfair sometimes.. even the best get hurt.. they take it in their stride.. hold their head high n keep on hopin...coz tt's one thing u can never really lose.. hope.. n it'l get u thru the days somehow...but if even tt fails.. u've gt me babe..i cant mk things better...but i'll hold ur hand while we wait for somethin better...my heart goes out to u.. my heart goes out to him... who knows hw he muz b feeling.. all alone..dam..nt knowin wats happenin here...even tho we're nt the very best of frenz or anythin.. he's stil like family coz he's with u...so i still worry...it'l be ok babe..one day at a time k... sigh....

ok on to a lil happier news.. (i'll b ending soon k) hehe ok... i PASSED MY FIRST AID TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe tt was actually quite some time ago... the examiner really quite fierce n strict..but i passed!!!!! on my 1st try!!! hehehehe N i passed my first exam in my dip!!:) such a gd grade was really unexpected so tt really made me so happy!!!!!i know i know wats the big deal rite.... it is a big deal ok! haha ok last piece of info.. tt day one of my silly boys made me paic n worry.. i had to bring him to hosp..i tell u my heart felt like it was jus going to beat itself outta my chest..spent my whole day there with him...but nw he's ok..i think ;p hehe ok la tt's all for now.. i know it's a jmble... so many things wanting to b told at the same time... so many more things to say.but im lazy n tired n it'l jus have to wat til nxt time...

for sonkey n baba...nicked from one of my fav shows...
Sometimes we don't know our own strength. It can be hard to tell just how much weight you can safely bear, or how much will crush you. I'd like to think you can shoulder as big a burden as you believe you can, that it's all a matter of will. Certainly a comforting thought...Other times it's hard to remember you had any strength at all. Then you can only hope to have someone to remind you you were once fierce and able.

love u all...

for Baba...the in n out of me

im sorry...words tt were always so difficult for the stubborn headed us to readily admit to each other but the very words i wanted to continue sayin to ya.. n the words u sed back...readily.. i guessed we've evolved somehow from squabbling teenies to still squabling semi-adults who cn nw c the big pic faster....our first fight tt din last ovr days? :) hee... im glad things r in the open... n someow u know hw ive been feelin n i know how 've been feeling.... as i sed.. uve always bn such a part of me tt everythin seems magnified somehow... u've always supported me...encouraged me been there for me..even wen i couldnt find anyone else... frm the moment i gave u a piece of my heart u've kept it protected(well almost all the time;p except wen u're fighting wit me n wanting to kill me) it's bn hard fr me... i dunno if i can cope n there's so many things goin on.. n im sorry tt i din give a sec thot to u...i need u ali... to help me n be wit me n jus love me wen everythin doesnt seem to go my way n i cant find a single person who'l understand... i need u to b wit me wen even i dun wanna b wit me.. i need u to mk me feel impt n still the know-it-all of ur life... i need to hear ur sickenin jokes n ur sacarcism...i jus need u... n i know u nd me too... thx for everythin babe... uve been my blessing...i love u

*grace

teacher-by-day-student-by-nite!

i'm so exhausted...there seems to b so many things happenin at the same time i feel overwhelmed sometimes... n its jus the beginning!which comes first... which deserves my undivided attention... which should be my piority.... my family n frenz hv always come first... always...but im nt even giving them the time they so ritely deserve..n i hv no choice.. i cant help it! my poor mummy muz b feelin so taken for granted..she's bn doin everythin..none of us hv been helpin... for my part... ive nt even been at hm most of the time.. to b able to even do anythin! n wen i am im too tired to care! i jus hope se knows tt i love her with all my heart n im tryin my best.. i reall am!
on to happy things:) as of thurs i FINALLY started my class! hehe i wish my grandma were here to hv seen tt day.. i would have received the fanfare celebratin the occassion...i hope u're proud mamma...i jus wish so muh u were here!i might b far behind most of my peers... but only i know all it took to get me here. so now i am a teacher by day n a student by nite! hahaa hw ironic the provider of knowledge n the receiver at the same time! class seems to b ok... i could hardly kp myself awake..it'l take some gettin use to.. n everyone there seems so bloody smart... spewing theories n huge words so efortlessly... like everythin's just stored at the tip of their tongue!! n ere's so many ppl in tt class!!! so many smart ppl in the same place at the same time....sheesh;pit's like sitting in a huge dictionary or smth!
2 more classes to go for fa! dam i cant remember the sequences even!! i really really hope it'll b ok....i jus wanna pass!plssssssss!!!!!!!! =Dok i better go...off to my aunts... n to memorising abt bandages!
one n two n three n four n five n one n two n three n four n ten n one n two n three n four n fiften............................

ahhh! im so super tired! stayed home today aft work to get stuff done but obviously i din rite..;p darn... school's startin soon!!! excited...yet scared...;) yet alredi swampped by work n fa classes! i jus hope it'l all work out ok!hehehe eh im too lazy to blog!
ANYONE interested in helpin me redo my blog??? pls puhleaaseeee?? i promise to love u forever wit all my heart if u do! hahaha.... take care everyone!
erm seriously anyone interested?? :)

RACISM

how does it happen when we live in a multi cultural society.. how can ppl even think it wen our neighbours n sometimes even our own family members r of dff skin colours... how can ppl make themselves so ugly by being racist when they believe in their own gods n claim to b gd ppl n preach tt everyone is unique n special... how can they make thmselves out to be better than everybdy else.. wiser, stronger, richer more powerful... jus by judgin ppl by the colour of their skin.. lemme tell u.. in my eyes... U r the weaker as u jus cant see a person for who they r inside... U r less powerful coz u jus simply disgust me... u r definately missin a few brain cells coz u seem to think tt only certain kinds of ppl r worth occupyin this earth...PLS la! ive heard racist remarks b4..directed at me or otherwise.. i've seen racist stares wen the person in question is not entirely welcomed... n the only thing i can think is... where do u get off... where do u f***ing get off thinkin tt way?sigh wat can i say.. to each his own... anw at the end of the day wen ur time is up it's U who has to provide the ans for ur attitude...i am jus lucky n truly blessed in tt my truest frenz... the ones i love dearly... love me for who i am.. colour doesnt matter... red, yellow, blue, white wateva... some of them...namely my beloved ali shares wit me my culture n her own wholeheartedly...n immerses herself into it...every1 of the really impt ppl in my life dun see a difference in colour but the bondin of the hearts underneath...i guess tt's y they're the special ones=D so all u crazy ones jus go jump off a bridge or somethin

phew.. jus so pissed off abt some comments made by a few ppl... anw.. my poor sissy was follwed home by some psychotic bast*** followed my sis home all the way frm sch! crazy or wat rite! lucky my dad was at the traffic light.poor girl was runnin hm... she was so freaked..U crazy psycho..go jump off the bridge too... n make sure u land on some really pointy rocks... idiot!
hmmm anw, im startin classes on thurs! haha gt my timetable.. 1st module has exam! darn.... okie betta head to bed gt work then FA class somemore aft tt... take care my darlings... it's U i love! heehee...

*c'mon ppl lets live in harmony...let go off the bad thots n u'll realise how wonderful each person is... despite race or religion...yes?

hold my hand... coz smetimes i jus nd U...

missin all my loves...gracie

ppl...ppl are weird sometimes u know... it's lk everyone has ther own funny habits n thots n stuff n each n every person is different n yet somehw along the journey of ur life u meet some great ones...n some not-so-great ones n some downright crazy -n i dun mean in a funny haha way- ones... n in some weird unscientific way u find these ppl tt just fit into ur life perfectly... suddenly u feel like u've known them forever or it jus feels oh-so-rite.. or u really do miss them wen they're not ard.. n u start thinking wat did i ever do before this person came along.. or wat would i b if i never met him/her...in a way i think tt everyone who ever appeared in ur life played a part to help u build ur character or help u shape ur beliefs or make u certain abt the kind of person u rather not grow up to be. then sometimes u find urself growin closer to a person n u share secrets n dreams n jokes n laughter n u've never felt happier and u dunno wat makes u do all these things just that somehow before u even realized it this person's come to mean somethin to u.. and u love them and want to always protect them and keep them in your heart for the rest of eternity...but sometimes it's just not enough n some of these ppl start to drift away or u fight or u quarrel.. but the impt ones stay... not tt they'l never drift or fall out with u it's just tt they're so impt n they're so special tt your hearts built a bond with theirs and no matter how hard u try to break it or how far u tried to run..it never works coz somethin'll just keep pulling them back to u....n these ppl.. some of them know u even better than u know yourself at times... they know wat u need and they willingly offer it... they hold ur hand when the going gets tough and they stand by u thru the scariest things just to protect u...they know how much it hurts to lose ur loved ones to death n they cry with u.. they offer their shoulder at all times and u know their heart is a safe haven for yours...no matter how bruised or broken.... they dun just say things to make u feel better but tell u wat u need to know... and with these ppl u find yourself growing n learning n appreciating the simple things like donkey laughter... or the way their hair curls like mad... or their cute lil rabbit teeth...or way u compare fingernails n hers is always bigger.. or the love-laden hugs...or the way they look wen they're happy...or cuddlin under blankets whisperin secrets.. or swinging in the balcony pretending to slp...or even shared silences...n u know tt no matter wat happens they've got a piece of ur heart for always...so ppl are weird sometimes coz they let ppl in and give away pieces of their heart... n love them so much it hurts to even think of them not being ard...but yet we continue doing it...coz somehow i guess our hearts know tt things n possesions dun make this life meaningful n awesome it's the ppl we include in ours who do....
so to the ppl ive lost along the way.. thank u for being in my life once upon a time... u're always welcome back in...n to the ppl who've stayed with me thruout everything... no words can even come close to sayin thank u for all the love...sometimes..especially recently i do feel in a way like im missing u guys so much... tt somehow ive only got myself..but these moments are fleeting coz my heart always brings me back to u... in my life you've created beautiful precious moments... amazing memories...in a way u guyz make me wat i am today.. wat i wanna b tmr n the day aft n day aft...:) my life is so much fuller with u guyz ard and i jus wan the whole wide world to know hw much u mean to me... life is so short sometimes... days pass b faster than u know but i wan u to know u've always got my love..n nothin'l ever change tt.. nothin!...i love ya each n everyone of u...
aight... was jus lookin thru some old fotos n missed my loves so much...gotta go back to finishin all the lp's ive gt stackin up...sigh.... nites! sweet dreams! muacks!
gracie

back frm a yummylicious meal of meatballs n lime jelly n fish n chips with my dear baboo..:) although i was so tired n really really quiet n prolly not much of a good dinner date...baboo more than made up for it by being xtremely chatty!im sorry dear...i jus hope u had fun!;p which i think u did coz i certainly did!
i jus wanna say to my dear se..im always gona b here la babe!! i know we've only known each other for...wat?only 2 months plus plus..hehehe but i do feel close to u..n somehow we jus click n i do love ya tonnes!! deep inside u'll know wat's the rite thing to do... its ur life.. its your heart.. ur mind..everythin's YOURS..wateva it is u're not alone la k? muaks! u've made a diff bein in my life n i miss u wen i dun c u every single day of our silly little lives! ;plet u toture my ones nxt wk..hehe love love love ya...
ooh my tuesdays with morrie's started..gotta go.. i love the bk..read it if u've gt some time to spare...
gracie

i hate the way u mk me act. i hate the person u mk me beome wen u're ard me. i hate the person u r sometimes. i hate the way u mk me feel. i hate tt u think u know it all. i hate the way u pretend coz u're juz so hypocritical...n how the heck do u manage to say all tt n yet b sooo 'holy'. pls jus stay awy frm me coz i DO NOT want to become the u tt u r... n i do nt nd u polluting my life with all ur nonsense..unless u're plannin to become more humane anytime soon...pls just stay away frm me....PLS!
like tt's gonna happen anytime soon rite? riiiiiiiiiite!
happy birthday aunty!!!hope life is always gd to u..love ya lots...
so tired...so so tired.... eyes forward... breathe in breathe out...brand new day tmr......even more searchin for tt monkey...bleah... in out in out...eyes glaze over...STTTTTTTTTOOOOONE!
nites my lovelies...
mwuah

debs is back.. qn is back... finally we're at our BEST:) no more two ppl runin ard so many monkeys... i hope ;p hehe nw we're more even yah... give us wat u've got man! ahh.... my darling elly's given birth!! to a beautiful baby boy... cameron david simpson... so gorgeous...cute...adorable...its irritatin;p naaaah im really happy for her...wish i could get my chance to cuddle n shower tt baby wit kisses... sendin u all my love babe as u start on ur brand new journey.. it's gonna b full of ups n downs...but u're gonna do it..n u'l b great at it...so i havent been here for so long ... so much has happened... went on our very first girls-only-me-n-my sonkey trip to batam.. well it wasnt technically only us as her mam came along too..but ah well it was a nice trip. we and our batam boys how i wish i had two of them now so we could just sit back n relax n let them do all the work.ahhhhhhhh... yumm;) the ppl there are super nice n sweet well xcept mayb for the back smackkers...phuck phuck phuck PHAT! hahaha but for anyone who's lookin for a great driver cum tour guide cum friend cum go getter in batam lemme know coz we had a great driver who's sweet n nice n could really use all the business he can get... so lemme know yeah...
other than tt a good piece of news...(well at least i hope it'l be...keepin fingers crossed) i finally signed up for the subsidy..n i really really hope i'll get it!! so if that works out then i can start sch nxt mnth!!!!!!!!!!! =D yay! i juz really hope i can cope... im so excited...
ok i feel a headache comin on... i'll b back really soon to update.. REALLY! oh one more piece of impt news!!! im connected again!!! ive gt my lappy with internet.... so i'll b here more often... take care everyone...
lotsa love as always!

!!~its me~!!

MzAbraham's invasion---OKAY i know i dont post aniting here but i just had to...i cut my hair..n just had to share that info!!! =D ( this smile is alot bigger than it seems) peace out people.
hope you guys all doing awesome.
==SARA==

eace n quiet for now.....

i know i know i said i'd be back soon with a newly furnished site n all but wat can i say... im one lazy bugger ;p on top of that havin no real access to any comp doesnt help.. so when i can find one..wit no one else breathin down my neck tellin me to be quick then i'l update... like today for instance.. clever me locked the door so no one can disturb me for awhile... sigh.. the pleasure of some peace and quiet with just me n the comp... heh

anw, been so busy with everythin... im missin out on all the good for nothin gossip and iced chocs with my sonkeybanana...and so many other ppl...but wat can i say days have to go on, the world has to keep turning..ppl have to kp goin to work...blah blah blah and all that crap... i guess sometimes the most u can do is keep those impt to u close to ur heart..and think of them...memories really pull u thru when the heart pangs for them too much... but memories also can b the cause of those heart pangs.. a double edged sword?sigh...

hmm, got my ang bao tt day.. finally :) it just amazes me wat happens sometimes when u jus let go of watever was troublin u and leave it wholeheartedly to higher powers..somehow they suddenly fall right into place. so im one happy girl... i'm happy here and for now i guess here's where im supposed to be. went to watch disney on ice! it was awesome!! awesome!! =D i loved every min of it well, except for the part where these kiddies behind were shoutin n talkin so loudly and banging their feet on the floor...and basically they did tt thruout the whole show...and i dun understand y the parent sitting there din do a single thing abt it.. i mean c'mon la ur kids are misbehavin..TAKE CONTROL! hehe but the costumes were beautiful..and gorgeous and they made it look like dancing on ice was the simplest thing on earth... sigh... ariel reminded me of di..hehe would have loved it if she'd ben ere... i just love fairy tales... i guess it's just a part of me tt'l never grow up...so wat if im child-like...certain things just have to b seen thru the innocent eyes of a child....

ok.. the knockin and banging on the door's begun... my cue to leave the nice computer... sighhhhhhhhhh... will b back asap... take care all... sending my love

gracie

a brand new year's unfoldin.. and look at all we've left behind.. memories, happines n sadness, silly arguements, disappointments, surprises and experiences.2004's been good... filled with many ups and just as many downs.here's hoping 2005 will be much better. to all the loves of my life...who've always occupied my heart...i wish for you..happiness that overwhelmes u...peace that satisfies you and a safe n healthy year ahead. may the joy u bring into my life be quadrupled into yours.

thank u 2004...
* i'm a working gal! a teacher by no simple means... a special person in a young child's eyes... a person for them to irritate to no end and to bestow never ending kisses to lower tempers that THEY themselves have caused to soar;p
*i've learnt so much...and experienced so much..
*the most special people in my life have held on to me and encouraged me and supported me thru all the agonizing months..and i'm so sure they'l just continue to be there for the months to come
*i've felt the simple joy that comes from realising that i've got it in me to reach for my dreams
*i've added beautiful souls into my life...people who make me think... why didnt i know them before now!
*i've contemplated over so many tragedies that the year brought... and learnt to be grateful for what i have..no matter how much or little.

for all the people suffering...in pain and fear...i hope your pain ceases just a little... i hope your fear recedes for awhile... i hope lost loved ones will be found... i hope for miracles....

have a great year ppl!

love, Grace

~Wake the neighbors, get the word out Come on... crank up the music... climb a mountain and shout This is life we've been given made to be lived outSo la la la la live out loud Live out loud, yeah Think about this... try to keep a bird from singing After it's soared up in the skyGive the sun a cloudless day and tell it not to shine Now think about this... if we really have been given The gift of a life that will never endAnd if we have been filled with living hope we're gonna overflowAnd if God's love is burning in our hearts we're gonna glow There's just no way to keep it in~

merry x'mas!

i'm back! finally after a loooong hiatus... so many things to tell ya'll but before i really start my ramblings... i'd just like to say tt our blog's still under construction so forgive the mess! i'll post a proper entry when i'm satisfied with the construction;p so anw... i turned 21!!!!! :) yay! alritey off i go...will be back real soon... i hope hehe... merry christmas everyone... spread the love!
luv,
*Gracie

i'm here again!!=D it's been so long.... this week's the last for me before i finally start my attachment.. i'm filled with anxiety n dread..ok ok and alil excitement too!! haha i'm finally gonna be putting wat i learnt to use on kids..not big buffalos who are acting as spastic kids! haha i dunno how it's gonna turn out but keep your fingers crossed for me k?!? seeing as this is my last week to put more effort into tt irritating folder.. i'm proud to announce that.... i've done nothin yet..zip,nada..NOTHIN! i spent the week meeting up with ppl instead..but they're ppl i havent met in such a long time.. met chris, aisha n yas on mon!! hahaha i was so happy to see them..after so long.. aisha still with her nonsense n loud voice and chris with all her looks.. it was awesome.. tues went ice skatin with clarissa n shamii.. haha shamii n me spent the two hours glued to the railings while lil kids nicely ice skated in front of us silently screamin..looooook at meeee..just when we were getting the hang of it it was time to go...sheesh..hmm weds.. i met my darling boo!! haha with di n fynny.. lemboo is a babe now ok.. no more prawn girl..hahah i love spending time with those two sweethearts of mine.. hopefuly i'll get to see them soon..so that was my week... last week i had dinner with sharon and the rest..her goodbye dinner..sad.. but eh she's still in town just not in that political sch.. ;p went bowling aft with her,claris n wahlau jay..and i fell..sigh..i'm just not satisfied with not makin a fool of myself... hehe
so aisha would have started work tdy... and im startin on MON..haha im sorry la i just cat get over the fact tt MON is almost here and i feel so unprepared...i better get to work and at least have somethin for nic to see tmr... i hate the damn thing..ah well.. it has to be done..
i miss..JULES...if u're reading this.. i miss u!!*huGz
love,Gracie

the past few weeks have gone by smoothly..with jules leaving, me trying to spend time wit ali before her freedom is taken away;p..helping a friend with a class of five year olds who kept going teacher this..or teacher that or i can do it teacher..or it's falling teacher.. every few mins...;p stayed over at ali's place a couple of times..tate like there's no tmr..celebrated ash's b'day with di, her bro, fynny ash-of course rite!- n his new-ahem ahem- girlfriend;) too bad i couldnt spend much time with them tho..some other time perhaps yeah? met up with the sac ppl!!! =D i am SO happy about tt one... i managed to arrange a gathering and actually have more than three ppl turn up in abt two?? three? days! and miss LG finally managed to pry herself away from her busy schedule and grant us mere mortals her time..haha...i am grateful babe! hahaha..it was fun..reminiscing..talking abt the past..talking abt the future..only the IMPORTANT ppl turned up... it went great...we'll meet up soon k ppl?? it just amazed me to see the different paths our lives are taking us and yet how we can still come together..to look at these ppl i've known for so long and see how far we've come... it might not seem a long way to most..but from girls who didnt give a damn wat we did in our futures to ppl who truly want each and everyone of us to do well.. im just happy for everyone... hmm.. wat else... ohh the teaching was fun..one hour plus only...did it for only a day..but it definately gave me insight..thinking of attachment and the damn folder is scary..family lunch tdy..yummy food!! gifts from my uncle!!!! hahaha.. i love the pens.. anw, since tmr is ali's day..here's a'lil something..for u baba dear... just to let u know...
ali.. i dunno who im gonna fight wit when u're not around to get on my nerves and nag at me... to so many ppl it seems like we're the constant squabbling ppl..forever fighting..forever saying "i've had enough!" hahaha but i know to me it's just the way we work.. we fight and argue and say things to irritate each other just coz as u say...fighting=best frens=love... i tell u, there've been numerous times i really felt i could chop ur head off.. but somehow we always just come back together...and it's settled on it's own..and peace reigns for a few days ;p haha... u're the person who can surprise me with ur silly little rubbish thots...or sudden shows of affection..or the way u do things for me silently..without havin to think it thru or ponder....or the way u're forever saying i pay 1st later we find the atm...haha or the way we can be talking and suddenly both of us just keeps quiet coz we're prone to daydreaming..and the silence is comfortable... i know u're not going away...or moving to some distant country,but i'm still gonna miss u.. i'm proud of u..and i'm hoping this new road u're going to embarke on leads u nearer to your dreams...take care of yourself while u're in there...and i'll see u in 12? days k? 6 months will fly faster than u can imagine...so...may god shine his face upon u my darling alibaba.. i love you lots! =) so mushy rite..for someone who's just going to THOMPSON!;p ok la... tt's all for now...SARA!! where have u disappeared to?!?!?
Gracie

||let me fly, let me be free, let me see the world, let me be ME||

it's been a tiring few days..both emotionally, mentally n physically.. everything has just been draining..but ive sed b4..i'm not gonna let anyone drag me down unless i wanna get dragged...the past few days ppl have been trying tho..ive realised tt everyboday loves going round the bloddy bush la.. i dunno y nobody just wans to take the straight path anymore haha..hmm ah well ok let's see wat hv i bn up to the past few days? let's see.. had a misunderstandin wit ali..thru jules.. which resulted in me being harsher then usual with the ppl ard me..haha poor them.. i finished my proj..ON TIME!!! haha with much support and encouragement and comrade from my miss super irritating, nickibayybee n sara..i dunno wat i'd do witout u guyz..i'll probably b eaten by tt croc la huh serenie..haha anw, met up with nic n ayu tdy!!!! hehehe i love them!! we were supposed to go ice skating..but..ahhh we spent a good part of the day riding ard in trains -dun ask!- haha in the end we caught laws of attraction..nt bad..van helsing stil gets my votes tho!but it was good la.. haha we makaned like mad..put our feet up and watched the whole movie with our usual commentary and nonsense la...haha oh yeah and we finialized our nitty gritty details for our attachment..now to start on the folder!!! sigh... oh yeah ytd was my grandma's wedding anni...had dinner at my aunt's...nice nice niiiice!! hehe..i'm talking all over the place arent i..cant seem to get my thots settled la..anw..wen i was so absolutely pissed ytd..crying for goodness knows wat reason...sara sed the exact things i needed to hear..and sara, i 'm glad u're always ard...and tt u understand hw it feels and that u support me like nobody's biz! haha..ur encouragement..sometimes it's the thing tt lifts me up.. she sent me this song..it's so sweet..
~Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't, then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt~ =D it just made me feel SO MUCH better...so i'm hear to tell everyone...Inner strength tt is what i rely on!!haha..wow long entry huh..ok i'll stop now..just needed to clear the mind!even if it is all in jumbles..haha
love,
*Gracie||U gotta know it's true, in the end all u've got is you ||