the letter arrived on mon..
or was it tues.. tues i think..
confirmation of practicum.. urgh!!

starting at the end of nxt wk..
prac supervision will b on the 12th!! at 9.30 am!
dam im scared ardy!!
so many many things n i have yet to start..
die die die.. hw hw hw?!?!
i dunno y mine's 5 days b4 the end of the hours im supposed to clock in!!
its nt fair i tel u!! hehe..
so wish me luck my darlings.. i hope all goes well..
n any1 wanting to help or somethin cn offer i think i will greatly appreciate it! hehe...
nahhh..

jus kp me in ur prayers n thots..
this is important n i HAVE TO get thru it.. k?? ;)
oh n dun 4get my big bunch of
balloons/flowers/choc/congratulatory dancers/champagne/banners/fireworks/confetti
when i actually pass!! on the 12th! haha..
ok its nt gd to count the chicks b4 they hatch or somethin.. ok so i'l hope for the best! n i'll try my best..really..

ahhh.. anw, met up wit ppl i havent seen in..hmm 6..7 yrs?!?! at elly's place the other day.. was great.. nice juz sein them aft so long.. later part of the evenin was awesome tho.. jus sittin ard the table..talkin abt the years gone by.. n learnin babs' secret! haha.. loved it.. n loved kissin n cuddlin tt baby boy even more.. elly'l b leavin soon.. cant believe she'l b back outta here in a few days.. hmmm love ya both la babes..mwuah..
will miss ya..both of ya..kisses to u n cam..
u're doin everythin rite..jus look at ur lil man..
still thinkin of those cupcakes..........
yum! haha

why am i so lazy?
seriously why am i?
i'm so lazy to blog.. when i actually have so many things to blog abt.. ironic aint it
anywayz.. past two..three?!? weeks hv bn full of meet-ups with long lost frens ;p haha
lets c...met

* elly... n her gorgeous, wonderful.. extremely melt-your-heart cutie cameron..
i tell u tt kid.. he'll turn u into mush wit jus one look.. not surprising.. he's elly's offspring aftall.. haha..

*then there was christine, yas, ni, ms ho, ms koh, steph, glad glad, jules, babs.. all at CHRISTINE'S WEDDING... oh.. n the meet-up a few days b4 tt..haha
the bride looked absolutely drop dead gorgeous..
its jus amazin hw we've all grown into wat we r tdy.. lookin at them. i juz couldnt belive tt ive known these monkeys since we were 11/12? sheesh.. i cant wait to see all that each of us will eventually acomplish..it juz felt gd..a homecomin in a sense. bein wit ppl u were once so comfortable wit.bra strap flickin..booby touchin..hair pullin..head massages, hand massages, tt middle knuckle crack ;p head on shoulder sobbin, sleepin on each other's laps, n chairs n tables , at basketball courts.. haha..swappin bks,cheatin,trickin,playin,escapin,runnin,eatin,hidin,hurried homework doin..gosh did we really go through all tt n more

*my darlin elaine n nisha. miss them ever so much.. really..aft seein them every wk..its like bein deprived. haha.. nice jus sittin n chatting

*saw the rest too... eventho it was brief.. the hugs brightened my day..

*QP n her lil baby.. hw is it tt babies mk u fall in luv wit them ovr n ovr n ovr.. she's jus a mnth old but the lil gal's alrdy a beauty. felt amazin holdin tt lil tiny creature in my arms n seein her smilin n yawnin away. its been so long since i held a new born baby.. the last was my lil icy! n tt was wat? 8 years ago?!?haha.. tiny fingers n tiny toes.. hw i loved tt tiny nose..everythin abt her, so innocent n pure...
few months ago she was kicking away in QP's tummy..nw she's out n still kickin strong.. :)

*sonks n her other half.. ;) its bn too long yeah... its wat we mk of our 2nd chances tt matters..

*baba!! hahaha.. who else would pig out like mad then go n wat 2 movies in a row with me?!?! n one of it was a movie we din even hear abt b4..some japanese silly thing abt gigolos.. we bought the popcorn to munch aft the 1st movie then decided we needed a movie to accompany the popcorn... haha.. n by tt time at nite there wasnt much choice. the movie was silly la..doesnt really make much sense.but the company was awesome..

other than all this, ive FINALLY submitted my practicum form.. so it'l start at the end of sept.. n the most important -but-dreaded-prac day will be in oct.ARGH!!! im so scared alrdy. dunno wat to do.. dunno hw to do. it's jus one big case of i don't knows.. once the recep stamped it i wanted to take it back.but i know it's gotta b done..no runnin away from it. sigh.. i know i'm gonna start bitin ppl's head off n gettin irritated for no reason.. n prolly mkin life diff for anyone n everyone but i plead wit all of ya'l to jus be patient n understandin k?? It'l b over soon n i'l b back to sweet me ;p haha.. jus help me out by nt provokin me alrite?! hahaha

ah..i know there was so much more to say.. but im tired alrdy. n i DID mention tt i am feelin lazy! nites ya'l! mwuah!! oh yeah happy very belated teachers' day to all the darlin teachers in my life.. :)

imagine..2 friends..one indian n one chinese
talkin about shows..serials..
wats the catch??

the chinese girl's talkin abt indian shows n the indian girl's talkin abt chinese shows
hehe..
these 2 frens goin to lil india..

wats new rite..one bringin the other ard
the catch?
the chinese gal's bringin the indian gal ard..
to look for indian food! haha
our friendship..
one built ovr years..
colour of skin's nt a prob here.. nvr has n nvr will b..
my lovely fren..
indian gal in a chinese body.. haha
love ya!

anyways..
i'm done wit classes
so lemme remind u ppl,
im free on mons n thurs!!
so start callin me alrdy
haha.. or mayb shud wait til aft my prac..
dinner wit elly the other day..
same old sweetheart..
jus the four of us..
brought me back to primary sch days man...
has it really been 17 years of friendship?!?! geez..
haha 17 years..tt's like one teenager!
so much has changed since then.look at us now..
elly's gt her lil baby..which i still havent seen ELLY!! haha
sonks is flyin witout wings..
babs is a hot young thang.. ;) hahaha..
n then there's me..
we gt to know each other wen we were silly lil six yr olds..
nt a care in the world..except mayb wat to hv for recess...
innocence has bn taken ovr..lives hv changed..the lil kids hv grown up..
but yet i still the kiddies in them..not in a bad way...
like i still see curly haired elly fightin 4 her wat she believed in
n my fellow enid blyton-archie comic-crazy fanatic frn, sonks
n babs...always lookin out 4 us..
its great to hv frens lk tt..
even aft 17 yrs they stil stick by u. n luv u no matter wat..
tt's wat u call luv baby!

the lil one is out!!
QP gave birth ytd..FINALLY!! hehe
aft makin her mummy wait n wait n grow sick of the tai tai life at hm..
the lil tyke finally found her way into the world at ard 10 plus..
n yes its a baby girl..
havent seen her yet.. but i bet she's as beautiful as her mum..
i wish them all the love..
cant wait to see the lil one..
n QP too of course ;)
jus so happy!!
the joys a new lil baby brings..

tdy i had my 2nd last class...
thurs would be the last..last ever.. day of class for me for dis course..
of course ive still gt my prac to do before i can actually graduate from it..
but for classroom lessons.. thurs is it..
for all the grumblin ive bn doin.. i know im gonna miss it..
fun n laughter.. friends n our 'nite club' days..
things tt i'l definately miss.. i think most of all would b the friends n the laughter n fun..
wat'l i do every mon n thurs???!?!?! hehe.. how'l i get out of meetin ppl i dun wanna meet or meetings i dun wanna attend..
how'l i get outta ot.. hehe ;p
but then again like most things in life, i guess there's good n bad..
it's always like tt eh?
n im glad for the lessons ive learnt.. for the chances ive had.. for the frenz ive made..n lost along the way.. but more for the many ive made.. n for the laughter we've all shared..
anw, any1 in the mood of celebratin wit me..
or jus sending me a big big bunch of balloons.. haha..
i'l b one reali happy gal..realli ;)

thx babes.. for all the 'rockin' we did in our own special way every mon n thurs..
same time, same place..
nite club..
thurs i'l give ya'l a proper gdbye..
wil mis ya'l
mwuah..

ps: my lect sed somethin to me a wk or two back..but i'm not to write abt it till i talk to sonks or sara or somebody..nothin bad actually..jus somethin alil weird..nah nt weird..
thot provokin maybe? hehe.. ah wel till then!

so i received a msg quite a few days back...
a wedding invite...
frm none other than my dearest...
CHRISTINE! haha..
yup CHRISTINE K
my monkey's gettin married!!
in sept..
everyone's growin up huh...
am i the only idiot stuck waaaaay waaay back in the 90's
haha... ;p
i wish her all the best in life..
n im gonna try my best to mk it..
hv some other plans but.. i cant possibly miss out on one of my bestest fren's wedding
it only happens once n i shud be there cheerin her on...
hehe.. the way i describe it..like as if its a race
but i know ya'l understand..
it was always us.. one whole gang of us.. stuck thru everythin in sch together..
so i'll try my best to be there.. n i'll bring wit me the wishes n luv of those in our lil grp tt hv no way of makin it...n hopefully my darlin will feel all the love we hv to offer.. haha..
so dun worry..sher, sara,missy..ya'll still b ard..
cant help but think of all the wonderful times we've had...

I hate it tt some ppl r jus so full of themselves..
comin in jus like tt n actin like we owe them so much..
i hate having ur blardy eyes on me all the time..
i hate your sickenin hair u kp flinging here n there..
seriously, no one wans nor needs u here..
most of all i jus hate tt u made them cry..
n tt u're makin life so diff for us..
n tt you're tryin to make a dent in our happy weirdo lil family..
but most of all tt u made them cry..
in a place where we're always smilin n jokin n laughin..lovin n bitchin n gossiping..
U made them cry..
i hate the silence tt now dominates where once it
used to be laughter n jokes n fun..
the sad,stressed, angry faces that once was all smiles..
the hunger pangs when once we used to pass food ard so freely..
if only i could do to u wat u're doin to us
jus kp in mind, we're nt gonna let u break thru us..
keep doin ur lil tricks like a dog tryin to pls its master..
no matter what, we're stronger together n we know it.. throw wat u wan at us..
at least here among each other, we're safe n loved n protected..
u better kp ur eyes open coz
i mite jus burn ur hair one day!

I'm back ppl!back frm bangkok.. n ..batam!!
haha
been back for awhile actually..
went to batam wit sonks n serene to get massages aft all the shoppin we did in bangkok!
we shopped so much we din even have time to get a traditional thai massage..IN Thailand
i had to come back to n get one from the thai embassy..
thailand was...
AWESOME!!
simply great... with beautiful kind ppl.
beautiful ladies N 'men' ;p
their simplicity... friendliness culture and tradition..
"or somethin like tt" ;) haha
i loved my time there..
came back feeling tired..but much happier..cant wait to go back..wen can we ali?!?!?
wen wen?? :)
Ali was great company.. makes things so much easier being on the same wavelengthn wanting the same things!!
mainly SHOPPIN!!!but tt's nt all we did..we took in the culture with sight seeing n shows...
we embraced the food with love..tryn any roadside food tt caught our eye.. n boy was it all YUMMMMY..except 4 tt undercooked sotong..;)
we gt a hang of all the 'large' moolah..
we walked ard late at nite..
we fought wit shopkeepers ovr price(mainly ali)
we gv in to them(mainly me! i reallly nd to train up in bargaining.. hehe)
we saved ourselves frm bein cheated by a tuk tuk uncle..
ali was held onto tightly by a pretty man..
we found ali's thai lookalikewe shopped the WHOLE DAY..
all in all we jus enjoyed ourselves..i reali hope to mk it back one day

ali n i once started a tradition thing..
to tk a holiday every yr together..
n to move further on the map each time.
actually it wasnt tt long ago we talked abt this tradition.
it once sounded like silly talk..

somethin tt wouldnt happen
but then..!!
we started with visiting sentosa frequently..haha yeah yeah
then to batam..n now we've made it back from bangkok..
n so i look forward to nxt yr..
our new adventure..
jus us two gals..
if money n the no. of days off is on our side..we'l make it somewhere further nxt yr!
n maybe alil trip back to bangkok b4 tt.. haha
ok i'll go on more abt it all wen im done with my assignment..till then take care ya'l!!
thx 4 a great time baba!

oh thailand.. hw im entralled by thee...i'l b back someday..
jus wait n see..haha


bangkok international airport

chinatown-early in the morn-

me and ali are....
in the
AIRPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay yay yay!!!
we're on the way redi..
wish us well ppl!!
we are so gonna njoy ourselves
n go mad shoping neating.. n eatin n eating.. hehehe
see u guyz..soon..
sher i'll get u tt thai boy.. promise!!
mwuah! love ya

everythin's settled!!=D
wel almost.. xcept 4 my travel ins..
n the packin.. n the money changin..
but other than tt.. ;)

we're leavin on the 22nd.. be back on the 26th! haha cant wait!!
holiday..holiday!!!!
H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yay yay
YAAAAAAAAY!
it wuld make things sweeter if only i nd nt go for class aft landin at 4.. argh!
Bangkok here we come!!
here we come???
here we come!
haha
2 days to go!!
i cant believe hw fast its come!!
:)

down with fever, flu n cough.. urgh
doc gv me 2 days MC..
but i cant rest yet.stil struggling with the assignmnt tt's actually due..erm.
today! sigh..
anw, my mum gv me this card, kinda sweet..
with a prayer...

teacher's prayer
I want to teach my students how
to live this life on earth
to face its struggles and its strife
n improve their worth
not just the lesson in the book
or hw the rivers flow
but hw to choose the proper path
wherenver they may go
to understand eternal truth
and know the rite from wrong
n gather all the beauty of
a flower and a song
for if i help the world to grow
in wisdom n in grace
then i shall feel that i hv won
n i hv filled my place
n so i ask ur guidance, God
tht i may do my part
for character and confidence
n happiness of heart.

another day.

same old same old.

somethin's disturbin my mind.. n heart quite badly tdy.

so here i was comin up frm the escalator to the train platform n there was this blind uncle standing there. He was carryin this huuuuge bag n holding his stick..and he was saying somethin. Quite loudly in fact. n wen i walked past him i realised his actually sorta askin for help. prob was he was speakin in some dialect..mandarin i can manage but dailect.. i hv no clue.. n there was all this ppl ard him..a distance away.. but still ard him..jus lookin.i waited for a few secs..jus waitin for someone to bother..anyone..no one did..

so i stepped forward.. n i spoke to this uncle n he jus wanted to get down n out.. so i accompanied him.. i couldnt go out.. so i jus had to guide him thru the ticket gate n let him go.. i hope he's ok.. safe n sound.. the best part was tt he gv me the sweetest smile n said thanks.. n sorry for the trouble.. i jus felt like weepin.. in fact i can feel my eyes wellin up alrdy. i mean i din deserve tt thx..all i did was bring him to the gate.. he shouldnt have to ask for help.it should b given to him atomatically. such a sweet guy..pleadin for help n everyone jus looks on.. y?!?! is this the repect n love bein shown among everyone. wat if tt was me!?!?! YOU?! what if tt poor sweet guy was u.. travelling alone.. in a world of darkness.. only being able to communicate.. to "see" thru sounds n touches..how'd u feel.. u KNOW there r ppl ard.. u can hear their laughter.. u can smell their perfume.. u can feel them brushin past u.. but no one stops..no one bothers.no one cares.. in a crowded world yet still alone.. independent yet hving to depend.. but hving no one to depend on. how'd u feel. coz u nvr know..anythin can happen.. one day u mite nt b able to see the world.. n u mite nd some help.. but everyone will juz look on.

nt wanting to get into the mess..not wanting to get their hands "dirty"..
but keep in mind.. someday tt mite b u..

n for those of u who looked down on him.. he's a bigger person than any of u could ever be.. than I could ever be.. coz everyday, in his dark world.. everyday in his struggles..he finds hope to carry on.. n he passes his hope along.. in his sweet smiles n "thank u..sorry for the trouble"

i dunno y the attitudes of others pisses me off so badly.. i dunno why dis uncle seemed to hv touched my heart in someway.. i jus hope he's ok.. n hope to one day hv the courage he possess..coz honestly speakin.. if it was me, in a world of darkness.. i dunno hw id be.. n i wish him all the happiness in the world..

thank U uncle;)

Jus gt back awhile ago frm happy daze with my dear serene.
it was funny i was standing in front of "i love happy daze" n tellin serene.. im here im here.. jus outside... n she goes im outside too!! but mine doesnt hv i love! hehe..
was nice la jus sittin there gossipin.
like we dun gossip enuf everyday..we hv to do it at nite too! haha.
silly girl with her guilt-trippin.. hehe at least im nt workin tmr.. n she is!! HAHAHA!

so me n ali kinda settled for a trip at the end of june.
it's high time la.. kinda feelin alil run down.
a trip would boost my energy levels!!
unless ali's crazy shoppin makes me even more tired.. haha n tt has a very high chance of happenin!!
i was tellin ali tt itd b great if jules could come along..
its like we havent spent much.. actually any time
together for so long.. n we were together so often last time..
missing those times.. n jus the joy of their company..
i'll kp my fingers crossed tt ali will b able to persuade her to persuade her mummy n daddy
hehe..
a trip to bangkok..end of june!! haha.. feelin excited on and off.. haha..i hope it works out la..
jus hv to eat grass for awhile to save up.. hahaa
lucky i save on transport n lunch! haha.. oh n snack too..
we'l go we'l go!!
k la i better get some slp..assignment nonsense remuses tmr! argh!
been hvin dis stupid neck ache the whole day..its torturing me..
maybe i hv to go get more of the remedy my sch aunty gv me.. 100 plus! haha.. but it did work
alil wen she gave me in the mornin.. dunno la..
maybe it worked?!? mayb it was in my head?!! wateva la
as long as the pain subsides!
for now tiger balm's neck n shoulder rub will try its best.
nites ppl!

ps: sandra.. thx for the chat we had.. its like returnin to somethin well loved. jus talkin as if u were somewhere ard here.love ya my dear!

the few mins tt made my day..

i arrived at work dis morning..
walked to my class..placed my bag..
arranged a couple of things..
put my fone on silent..
started walkin back to the rm for assembly..
n there came my yantao..runnin to me with his arms outstretched.
all i could do was smile... n bend down..
n there came my joy..runnin at full blast..banging rite into me...
arms ard neck.. tight hug..awesome smile..gentle kiss..innocent laughter..
"LAOSHI!!"
haha.. n tt my darlins..was enuf to mk my day..

bn feelin odd lately..so down..
mayb nt recently..maybe its been awhile
like somethin's pressin me down..
sleepin at odd hrs..for hrs..
unable to slp when it is actually time to slp..
jus feelin tired..
sick n tired..
i dunno wats gotten into me..
but it seems to be goin round..
sonks is kinda outta it too..
argh!!

but then again.. sometimes it takes juz alil somethin small
insignificant to others..
to lift u out of tt rut..
even if it is for a few mins..
even if aft tt u fall back into the rut..
u somehow noe..tt there'l b other few mins..
sometime..somehow..somewhere..
im tired of this rut n i cant wait to get out..
love u my lil yantao..if only u knew wat ur sweet smiles do...

im sick n tired of being sick n tired!

somethin i heard on oprah. describes my feelings to a T at the mo.
sick n tired of coming home late.
sick n tired of the little time i get to spend wit my mum.
sick n tired of dragging myself to class after work.
sick n tired of dragging myself home after class to do more work.
sick n tired tt i feel this way
sick n tired tt im letting ppl i love slip outta my grip
sick n tired tt ive lost ppl along the way
sick n tired of waiting
sick n tired of listening
sick n tired of the weight on my shoulders
sick n tired of having to be strong
sick n tired of being a meanie
sick n tired of feeling this way.
sick n tired of the hrs escaping me.
sick n tired of all my dreams tt r resting.
sick n tired of pasting on my smile.
sick n tired of sharing.
sick n tired of caring
sick n tired of needing
sick n tired of opportunites fleeing me
sick n tired. sick n tired. sick n tired.
sick n tired of nt sleeping
sick n tired of sleeping
sick n tired of nt crying
sick n tired of bitchin
sick n tired of deadlines and assignments n exams.
sick n tired of being treated like an idiot
sick n tired of being sick n tired.

but then again im in a bring-myself-down mood.. i am untitled to it once in awhile..
im sick n tired of me
i'm sick n tired of u..
wil u help me pls argh!

tell me how..oh tell how hv i offended u..
holy week..

felt a sort of peace come ovr me as we went church visitin last nite..felt it again tdy i as i attended gd fri mass:) goin to church the past few days..sometimes i'm juz very awed n glad for the faith my mum has passed to me..tt this is my faith..

anw i really miss my yantao..havent seen him since tues n i miss him lots! miss his twinkly eyes.. n cheeky grin..miss hving his arms ard my neck..n his sweet lil kisses..miss the way he peeks at me..n him feeding me his twinkle twinkles..haha miss my kiddies..funny hw i wait n wait n wait for some time away frm them n when i am i really miss them..tho not all ;p haha jus miss hearin noise everywhere n hving to talk loud to get heard ovr their voices.. n the surprise hugz i gt frm my 'baby'.. n rulin ovr them! ;p hehe..

really miss su.. realli reali reali..havent heard her jokes n seen her 'irritatin eye' look.. missin serene lots too..n my aunties.. n ping.. n angela n joyjoy..realli miss ppl at work..but i'l b seeing them soon n will prolly b complaining abt too much work again.. haha.. its weird hw u go into a company or a settin nt knowin anyone there..n then u start buildin relationships n sharing ur life with these ppl.. i mean u see them practically everyday..spend almost as much time with them as u spend wit ur family..then u realise they ARE like family..they see u at ur worst(almost) they share ur joys n anger n fears.everytime u turn ur head u see one of them.u walk five to ten steps n u'd prolly bump into them. u give n take easily coz u knw tt's the only it'l work..u joke n laugh..u cry n moan..u completely go mad..yet they stil hv to b there.its not always gd times,hw cn it be wit so many women(wel, for me anywayz) workin in the same confines ;p hehe..we all hv our days.gd days,bitchy days,annoyin days,crampy days,depressed days,frantic days,lazy days,gossipy days,hungry days..but somehw we mk it work.haahaa. i luv it here.. n i luv them plenty ..there r the oddballs..but the majority r alrite..hehe

anw, wat am i doing up at this hr?!?! struggling with my dam assignment.. it's takin so long n im stil far behind.. n i cant really think of wat to write..but i mus get it done tonight! MUST MUST MUST.. cant drag it longer..should not anw.

sonks..my arms r rite here..*huGz* i desperately nd one too;)
sara..havent heard frm u for so long..for too long.. hope u're doin ok babe

hope everyone's hving fun in dreamland..argh!

sonks u betta bring me back tt ramly!! i cannot tahan redi!

missin u badly babes. or is it the green eyed monster in me being sad tt u r prolly hvin fun rollin ard on a bed somewhere with ash while im stuck sittin on my mum's bed tryin to start the dam assignment.. n MATH of all subjects! man! but nah.. i do think im actually missing u!!hope u're hving fun!! n rollin ard with ash was meant in a totally bro-sis kinda way.. or does tt jus mk it sound weirder..MWUAHAHAH..

i kp havin a sort of recurrin dream.wen im sleeping i dream of it.wen im awake i think of it.its always hangin ard.mockin me in a way..eesh! its the same sequence..goin to work, gettin stuck in the lift, callin su..no ans..callin another coll..yes an ans..she cant hear me.. the lift's movin suddenly..too fast.. upwards..approachin the roof of the buildin.open eyes..heart beating super fast.sometimes i wake up and go back to slp and its the same thing all ovr again..sometimes all of us in the lift are now in court fightin for our rites or somethin! i dunno la. i suppose its linked somehow to the lift incident.nicki(who was in the lift with me tt time) tells me im goin mad.. nim(who was also in the lift) says its final destination?!?!?! su(who was the 1st 1 i spoke to n cried like a mad lunatic to once i was out - a lunatic is some1 who is mad rite..so imagine a MAD lunatic-) says ive prolly developed a phobia. i dunno..its jus annoyin me..but im kinda thinkin she's rite. i step into any lift n my eyes r stuck on the numbers..my heart beats a few million miles a min.. i cant really hear wat everyone else is sayin ard me i jus laugh n nod politely feignin interest..im practically holding my breath till i come out..n i'm scared. beig completely honest, i'm scared.all the while the lift takes to go up and down, im actually terrified.i cant wait for the door to open again n im out there where its safer.

those of u who knows wat happened, can stop readin now..those who dun, i have to share..i cant help it im always thinkin of it.. i think its startin to drive me mad! so anw, my classes are held at a "wonderful" buildin in orchard.. i shall nt name any names. its"wonderful" n grey n is popular for all the sex tats supposedly happenin in the stairwells - nt tt i know anythin abt tt;p- so anw, the lifts in this "wonderful" buildin are always hving probs. its always jammin for a few mins n when u go up n down in it u can really feel the pressure in the lift-remember sara?!- so anw, on this one lucky nite a bunch of us get into a lift, after class, at 9.45 and end up comin out of it only at 11! the lift gt jammed! once the lift stopped moving, the ventilation fan stopped too. there was 15 of us in the lift.. FIFTEEN! it was hot and squeezy n we din hv air.. nobody heard us, nobody came to our aid. most of our fones had no network..we called the no given in the lift.. wrong no. we called our sch..ok they told us they'd get mantainence. so we waited n waited n waited.. 14 girls and 1 guy who i suppose worked in the building. so hot, he decided to take out the bulbs.left one coz we din wanna be in total darkness..still noone came..called the fire dept..gt transfered to the police.the mantainence came told us they couldnt find us..went floor by floor knockin n waitin for us to reply. found us..couldnt open the door. We were running outta air..water vapour everywhere..seriously EVERYWHERE.. the walls, the door. the water vapour was makin the walls cooler then our own bodies. my fren started hyperventilatin..couldnt breathe, felt faint. maintence guyz told sed to some1 else tt we were impatient. the guy in the lift himself started shoutin at them.. throat so dry..everyone sweating..everyone breathin harder..nobody could move..so constrained..so packed..so awful..so scared..dammit.i can actually feel it..typin abt it.. the images still so clear in my hear. mantainence sed they had to go to control rm..y couldnt they get us out?! wat happened? hey left us without even a single person reassurin us. ppl shoutin..jus wantin ans..ppl squatting feelin faint..call manainence again is it they say? someone's fainting..is it?finally they open the door, we're stuck in between.. my god thank u for the air. cimb down onto dustbin then jump off we're told.now i realise it's nt the correct procedure, the lift culd hv started movin suddenly n someone could hv been stuck in between.. or could have fallen thru the lift shaft frm the bottom, eventho there were ppl blockin it. jumped down..sat down.hands shakin badly..breathin seems difficult.everyone's dazzed and tired.n crying..faintin girl gets tended to. no one apologizes..no one calms us. uniformed officers tk our accounts n leave..most walk down the stairs on their own.. frm the 20 somethin floor.. i was dragged profusely refusing n on the verge of tears into a lift with a few of us and a fren's husband. i go down, tk a cab,su calls to chk if im ok..tt's wen i became the mad lunatic..she listens n mks all the rite noises, mks me feel safer.gt home sonkey called..heard me out..calmed my spirit..calmed my soul.. n tt my frens was the lift incident.. prolly nt the whole agonizin story..but the gist of it.. n this is wat i believe is causin my current lack of sleep..

sigh.. anw, my bro brought home a fren's cat(big kitten) ;p to help care for it while he attends a grandmother's funeral in some other country..poor thing's so lost n shy n keeps running away frm my sis.. n it runs after it's tail.. like a dog!! i swear it jus goes round n round n round.. n then.. dis is the funniest thing.. once it catches it, it sits there n sucks it.. at first i thot she was cleaning her tail.but then realized she was actually suckin it and it was puttin her to sleep. my sis sed she can hear the suckin sound some more! haha.. juz reminds me of some of the lil babies in sch who nd pacifiers and security blankets and pillows to slp.. n how they'l smell smell or rub the corner of the pillow.. haha this cat's tail is her security blanket!

in all this suckin excitement ;p hehe i dunno where i left my fone..forgetful me as always la! it'l turn up in awhile i think..hehe
lastly, i MIGHT hv annoyed sonkey somehow.. i hope i din sonk! really sorry abt tdy..see ya soon.. love ya tonness.. hope poor lil andrew's allergy clears up soon..you're still a handsome lil guy..allergy or nt! *mwuah*

it was sher's bday on fri! =D all i could do was send her my greetings n luv via sms.. would hv luved to give her a big hug..haha.. anw, happy birthday babe! hope u had an awesome day..miss ya! the crazy gal i met wen we were 14?!?! now TWENTY-THREE!! heehee...

Mahal kita! hope i got tt rite;p

ive been a bad..blogger..friend..daughter..sister..cousin..niece..
god-daughter..sonkey..longan(yes yes ali)..teacher..best friend.. i actually feel guilty.. all these ppl deserve my undivided attention and time..but unfortunately ive been unable to even give them even a resemblence of a normal relationship..a phone call.. a sms answered on time.. a chat that lasts longer then 15 mins..hugs..kisses..gossip..emails.

so to all u ppl, i am truly sorry. i promise to try harder..really.. nxt wk maybe? ;) i miss every one of u. Even those i 'see' everyday at home but dun hv time to spend with. I jus plead with ya'l to b understanding at the moment. Work and studies seems to have gotten a tight hold of my neck. between these two, i seem to hv no time for even myself. this is the first sat since the yr started tt i am actually at home at this hr jus happy to be typing on my lappy and not sitting somewhere doing group assignment and fighting with my grp mates! u dun noe hw gd it feels. i even miss my house! sometimes my schedule gets so tight i feel suffocated.. do i really nd to do this i ask myself.. i know alot of u muz b thinkin..wth i can study n still hv time for ppl..but im STUDYING AND WORKIN at the same time. n my job is one tt requires late nite lesson plan writing, material makin, chart making, progress writing, board material makin n asemblin..its a wonder i havent gotten a papercut frm all the paper ive been cutting n tearing n clourin n writin on n printing on and arranging.. my studies on the other hand requires grp meetings every wkend.. n some weekdays..AFTER class!! argh..assigments.. lesson plans..teaching aids..materials.. presentations..nonsnese..every nonsense u cn think up tt sucks the precious time of ppl ;p haha ok enuf moaning.. haha
the main aim of this post was to say sorry to all the loves of my life.. n beg them to continue loving me and being there coz they get me thru the tough days..

so in light of this..lemme introduce u to a few of the loves of my life..(no pictures due to the respecting privacy-n-wat-n0t issue ;p)

sonks - the gal i practically grew up with.. the bestie frm pri sch! tolerating my nonsense n moods.. understandin even when understanding me seems difficult..providin luv n encouragement.. n choc n calamari;p hehe..gives awesome hugs that calms my soul.. feels at hm in my sty(only person who'se probably seen the sty in its original state so many times).has loooong toes

ali - the best fren who sees thru me n my fake lies n knows wen somethin's nt rite. the one who does nonsense with me.. like walkin in drains.. n nvr lets me forget it.. the one who's prolly had the most sleep-overs with me tt i know her sleeping patterns so well.. i know when i hear tt voice tt she'l b gone in a few mins n i'll still b talkin..the one who fights wit me yet gives me the luv i nd when i nd it..the indian gal in a chinese body ;p hahaha

sara - the luv of my life who's in can!! ..another person who knows when my heart is hurtin n wen its genuinely happy;) the one i can hv serious talks with.. yet in a few secs b laughin hysterically on the floor wit..the sweetheart who can seems to hv a radar for funny situations..a generous heart with a beautiful face..

su - the darlin..some1 im so happy to see everyday..the mentor..friend..gossip buddy..the luv..the sch neighbour..the snr teacher..the darlin.. the one i turn to for advice on silly things like dealin with obnoxious parents.. the one i also turn to for serious advice n talks..the one who provides me wit so much laughter every single day!the one wit the beautiful smiles n words tt warm me rite to my soul..of course nt forgettin..the one with the revolting rhymes!!!=D

serene - another darlin at work.. best fren who looks at me across the cupboards n knows wen i nd some tlc.. the one always drownin wit me durin lesson plan writin n settin up in a hurry.. the one who hears n knows my gossip first! the on the surface ah lian wit a heart of gold..

sher - the hot mama who is always willin to help me out from across the miles.. the best fren i havent seen in YEARS.. n will prolly not see for yrs to come.. the one who left a hole in my heart wen she left.. the beautiful lady who's nw an awesome mother..the one who used to sing me songs whenever i demanded it..the no-nonsense fren who tells it to me like it is..always encouraging and supporting and loving.. even with so many other things on her mind.. the one who always believes..

stardust - the one who while was here listened to all the nonsense i had to talk abt.. hehe the one who seems to be able to tell hw i am juz by hearin my voice..the one tt's definately missed..

these r jus a few.. i seem to be blessed wit beautiful ppl in my life..n these are jus a few! n i know hw lucky i am for tt..

e luvs i miss so much:
jules, lemboooooo,ayu(the idiot..y am i still missin u),glad glad,serene,bangbang,godma,aho,ni,
le,monkey,clown,missy,sharon l,rac

i luv u ALL..u r my blessings...mwuah

hugz, grace