I cant believe hw fast time flies.. n yet seems so slow at the same time..
tmr will be my 17th day on mc.. finally it comes to an end..
part of me is lookin forward to goin back...
its been a loooong time n i miss them all..
..but..
there's alwiz a but isn't there..
the other part of me.. the lazy part..
has gotten used to n is loving this bummer's lifestyle!
i mean the first week or so was bad.. pain n agony...
fever tt wouldnt leave me..

but nw.. i cant go out.. but i can sit n watch tv.. slp at any time i pls.. wake up at any time i pls..
the best part i think of the whole thing was the amt of time i got to spend with my mum.

On normal days i rarely see her.only for a few mins b4 i head to wrk.
by the time i'm back she's gone to wrk.
n eventho she spent time sleepin n stuff.. still on a whole i spent more time with her.. jus havin her ard me..
n tt was nice.. really..

if only i could jus sit at home lk dis everyday (WITH the option of goin out if i wan to!)
n still get paid!

the perfect job! haha

i'd jus lk to say thx.. to my dear ones who hv stood by me thru this
calls n smses...
msgs to send their luv n laughter..
for visits bearin gifts :)
for hangin out online wit me practically the whole day sometimes...
givin me tips n ideas to ease the irritation
but most of all..
jus for their care n concern n luv..
i needed tt.. n u gv it to me..
thank u..
u knw who u are...
i luv u..

sad to say.. ive accomplished absolutely nothin significant over these past few days...
absolutely n.o.t.h.i.n
but if any of u need ideas on perfecting the art of bummin.. lemme know..
i think ive almost gt it dwn pat!
hehehe...

I'M HAVING THE POX!!!!!!!! :(

sigh.. yes u've read it rite.. im down with chicken pox.. caught it frm the kiddies in sch...
to tell u the truth im absolutely, completely miserable.. the spots have been poppin up everywhere... EVERYWHERE!! even in places u cant imagine...

y am i so unlucky?!!? reali?!? thank u.. those of u who hv been keepin in touch n chkin up.. pls continue to do tt coz u know wat a baby i cn be abt some things..n dis is definately one of those things.. hehe...

tdy a dear fren came to visit.. made my day..tho i look so super scary - esp nw tt i literally poured tonnes of calamine all ovr myself- her company made me feel betta... its bn lonely being stuck in this rm the whole day..eventho sleep keeps takin hold of me... she brought me yummies... chilli she made herself with chips to go with it!! fruits and choc(which i cnt eat :( ) n flowers!!! oh oh n games to occupy me.. thx la my dear... u dunno hw much its meant to me...MWUAH! heehe

sigh.. i cnt wait for this to clear up, end dis pain n discomfort n actually go back to wrk... meanwhile i shall go back to poxing...

pop pop pop poooffff
calamine's my new best fren!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!! TO ME!!!
hahaha...
yup it was teachers' day over the weekend...
a special day to celebrate.. the awesome teachers...like me.. ermm.. hahah ;)
kiddin kiddin..
i wish all the teachers ard the world.. young n old... those who hv spent their lives teaching..
those who r still dreamin of teachin...teachers who hv come n gone.. teachers yet to be...
a very happy teachers' day...


esp to the wonderful ladies i work with...
n my classmates....
u gals r wonderful teachers.. touchin n enrichin hearts n minds...
i love u all...
u bring so much to those who trust their lives into ur hands...
u love with ur heart...
u teach with ur soul..
u touch those ard u.. with ur laughter n joy...
u brighten the lives of those u teach...
teachers, u brighten my life too.......

n of course to those teachers who've helped me be who i am today...
thank u...
i wil alwiz love u...
tts a given

din get much this yr...
on top of tt had to wrk..
on teachers' day!! sigh...
ah well...


ok i better go concentrate on the "play" for my kiddies' grad...
ppl i NEED NEED NEED x'mas songs...
christain/catholic x'mas songs...
pls help me those of u who hv any...
i promise to love u forever ever if u do?!?!? hahaha

I LOVE HAIRSPRAY!!!!!!!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!!!!
i shud hv been in the 60's la.. all tt music n dancin n clothes!!! n the moves!! oooohhhhh!!!
only for those reasons la hahahaha
its an awesome show..
catch it if u can.. i think i jus mite catch again! love it!!

anw, sonkey's 24!!!!!!!
happy happy bday babe!!!
may the creaking begin... love u hehehe

this song tt has been runnin havoc thru my mind since tt day...
njoy everyone!!! while i shake n shimmy!!!
hahaha..
mwuah

ovr the past few days ppl have been tellin me tt its bn awhile since i've blogged ;)
hmm... so here i am! haha

so many things have happened...
but... i dun wanna tok abt them rite nw...

i really really miss su...
how long more do i have to wait for her to come back.. ;p
its nw tt i really realize wat a touchy feely person i cn be...
i mean i alwiz love hugs.. especially ones filled wit luv frm my best frenz...
n i'm nvr one to turn away a pat or a squeeze.. or a hand tt needs holdin..
but wit su nt ard i realise hw much i miss jus reachin out everytime i walk by...
or receivin a lil surprise 'poke' or 'hit' hehe
or jus tt hand on my shoulder.. or the sound of "daaaaaaaaaaarrrrlllllinggg"
i'm afraid i mite jus accidently reach out n touch the dog jus out of habit...*shudder*
hehe..
or wat if i accidently get my hands tangled up in her super long hair?!!? haha..
there goes my imagination..
i dunno hw i'll eva pry myself away frm dis place wen they hv gt such a strong hold on my heart...
sigh.. jus a few more days... she'll b back soon.. n i'll b a happy touchy gal! hahahaha n i cn go back to havin my 2p... 3p?!?! 4p 5p??!?! hahah...

ok i know dis doesnt evn come close to a proper entry... but im jus too lazy for tt rite nw...
tmr.. i promise.. or the day aft.. promise promise!! haha trust me ok!?!?
ok nw i jus hv to trust myself..

i'm tryin to kp to my wrd on comin back sooner..
i told u i would din i? ;)

wat happens wen strength alone is nt enuf?
to carry u on..
who do u depend on?
who's strength cn u rely on.
or cn u dig deep enuf to find somethin in urself tt will pull u thru..

1 of my kiddies has bn diagnosed with stage 4 cancer..
to imagine this disease wreckin havoc in the body of one so young..
wen to visit him..
n i culd feel my heart breakin..
ovr n ovr n ovr...
n to look at the mum's face..
is another heartache all on its own...
i jus kp thinkin of him n seeing his face in my head...
n remembrin all those times wen he jus entered.. jus a lil baby. still.
nw older..n sufferin.. sigh..
saw a toddler at the hosp..also sufferin frm cancer..
really jus a baby still..
if only luv was enuf to cure everythin..
coz if tt was enuf, he'd hv an abundance of it...
ahhh!!

had a retreat in church the other day..
it was gd..its bn a really long time since i actually went for a retreat...
the songs esp.. made me get lost in them...

i think my religion n god on the whole deserves more time and much more effort frm me...
i pray n turn to him wen i nd...
but i know i shud be doin more than this...
all my life ive been brought up in a family where religion alwiz plays a big part..
i saw it in my grandma...in my mum.. in my uncle n aunt..
sunday mass is alwiz a must..
days of obligation...
special masses...
confessions...
daily mass..
but at the heart of it all..
i know tt god deserves more frm me...

i've bn thinkin things thru..
n thinkin of piorities..
i realise tt i nd to mk changes
to hv the courage to mk changes..
jus gimme time...
hmmmm..

anw ppl, jus kp in mind n say alil pray for all the chn sufferin..
in whichever way or form..
may they hv the hope of miracles..
at the end of the day..
they r truly the innocent ones....
with a whole lot of life in front of them...

i'm writing all ovr the place i know.. sry folks!
nites...

- In Christ alone,
i place my trust
and find my glory in the power of the cross...
In every victory,
let it b sed of me...
my source of hope..
my source of strength
... in Christ alone... -

i know i know its taken me a super long time to return this time..
n i'm sorry..
u dunno how many times ive wanted to come back here..
but laziness alwiz gets ahold of me..dam u lazines!
n my lappy's starting to act alil funny.. so u cnt really blame me! hehe
procrastinator extrodinaire!!
sonks, my aunt actually read tt froggy book!while till nw i havent, have u?! hehe..

ahhh.. the days are going around on thier own lil axis..
everyday is a brand new day..most of the time its the same old thing..
but with various outcomes...
things hv been goin mad at wrk. i dunno wats got into ppl..
nw everyone's gotta b on their toes..esp tt 'bunga' ;) haha..
i laugh at my own silliness..thinkin tt i am smart!
but then again.. im funny tt way..
anw, things r topsy turvy..
which isnt a gd sign..
our brand new place gt vandalised..
see i tell u..wrk's bn weird...

few wks back i had a whole wk off!!
coz of the renovations.. n eventho i din get to leave the country..
which i so wanted to do by the way!
i had a great time with a jammed packed week!!
had hi-tea wit the rest of the ladies...
saw su's time in a bottle!! haha..
where we went crazy havin our 'touchy time'
haha..
had some time with jo..
then there was the JAG*s meet up..
time with my darlin QUEEN S!!!-long john's as usual;p-
a nite out with the girls.. sonks n sara!! we shud do it again babes!!! we'll start earlier this time.. promise!! hahaha...
a day of lepakin at sandra's..
haha u get the idea la..
but all in all jus wanna say thx to these lovelies in my life...
for fillin my days with fun n laughter..
it was an awesome week.. n its kept me thinkin n wantin more of them...
if only i culd keep wks like tt comin!!! haha

anw, bn thinkin of goin back to sch..think its high time for my nxt step..
few probs ive gott get thru tho..
major one is def my shift at wrk.. its really gettin in the way
but then again.. its jus another erm.. 5 or 4 months to go.. hopefully a better one will b comin my way by tt time..
then there's tt thin abt decidin wat to do first.. eventho there's so much askin for my attention.. i shud really mk a choice n stick to it..
theres also tt thing abt wrkin n studyin.. to b able to fund my studies.. did tt for more than a yr .. n truthfuly its nt easy..
sometimes i jus wish i culd jus depend on moolah frm my parents to support my every step up the ladder..
i see ppl studyin full time.. n sometimes i feel the green eyes monster startin to peek out.. ahhhh the life of a student.. i know i know.. there's so many things a student has to do n worry abt.. but it jus seems so.. so 'happy' u noe? u go to sch.. u study.. u hang out with ur frenz... u do assignments.. compared to u go to wrk.. u do ur job then u go to sch.. go home.. study , do assignments...n still have to do things for wrk..blah blah blah... its jus tiring sometimes.. but dun get me wrong, u full time students.. i know u have ur own disadvantages too.. i jus miss my 'student' life sometimes.. argh..

on to happier things!! look wat i got myself!!!



















its so beautiful i absolutely adore it.. haha
i love earrings... n its time i show off all of mine.. so ive hung some of them up..
colour-coordinated - for now- haha.. n i love how it looks.. i keep callin it my queen.. jus to irritate my sis.. hehe..but truly it is my queen.. magnificient.. hahaha.. ok mad i know..

oh oh n look wat my aunt did for me.. for free!! haha









love it!! its kinda weird coz it actually turned darker overnite.. after i washed off the henna.. the next day it was super dark.. the babies esp love touchin it n tryin to press their palms on mine to get it to transfer.. hehe..

alritey folks.. think i shud actually start tt research i came online to do... take care all of u...till nxt time.. i'll try to make the time in between shorter.. :)

its been a long while...
i miss being here...
the week's bn gd.. really :)
last last sat was bad.. for those of u who know..
it kinda broke my heart...
seein n hearing such things...
but the days aft tt...
wheeeeeeee!!
i started the yr sayin tt i wanted to expand my circle..
n somehw.. it seems to be happening slowly..
ive managed to pull back frenz frm long ago.. n i jus hope tt this time they stay in my circle..
ive started buildin new friendships..
ive met an old fren's sis!!! haha without knowin..
its been good..

had an awesome nite out with sonks n cd the other day..
funny hw it all started out as a gal's nite out wit michelle! haha..
we din make it there tho.. but we had fun.. really..eventho we met n saw some unforgettable ppl n sights.. n nt for the gd reasons haha *winks
ESPECIALLY THE MAD CAB DRIVER LA.. HEH HEH HEH HEHEHEHEHEHE...
we danced..we toked..we laughed..we walked.. n walked.. n walked.. we hunted for a drink..cn u believe my luck la sonks!! haha.. n we ended the nite with breakfast..yum! it was a gd nite/mornin with awesome company.. too bad the magic sch bus wasnt with the owner..hahaha..
my mum was surprised seein me comin in at 8.30am! but i had a blast!! cnt wait for tmr!!! yay! haha

met jo the nxt nite.. tts an even more silly story.. i think my luck's really screwed.. we both misunderstood each other n ended up waitin at different parts of spore..
best part was tt she was so near my hse! n i actually took a cab to get to my destination.. so i took a cab back! OMG!! i tell u i culd hv smacked some1.. anyone!! but the situation was so funny.. hehe.. it drowned out the screwed-ness of it all.. haha.. at least the gal saved herself by being sweet..albeit laughin her ass off at me.. ;)

had an evenin out wit cheryl, her cuz n farah the nxt nite.. n i truly njoyed their company.. tho everyone was stonin so often.. haha.. the movie was good.. the company was better.. farah looked great.. so haaawwwwwt... seriously! haha.. i jus had a good weekend.. i loved being with these ppl.. n gettin in touch again.. i loved the plans tt are in progress for future meet-ups.. i love tt these ppl are in my life..at least for nw..

my darlin gal is back in town!!!! =D omg babe my smile cnt possibly b bigger!! but somehw i havent gotten a chance to tok to her.. i kp missing her call.. n wen i wanna call her back i feel like its so late! sigh... i miss u babe!! i MUST MUST MUST call u tmr.. n im so glad u're back.. seriously.. i love u.. thx for tt heart to heart "chat" we had.. it reminded me of back in those days when we'd sit as a grp n hv heart to hearts remembr babe?!?! haha.. especially tt one where some1 in particular did tt hair pullin thingy!! hahaha.. drama!!tt was our life then.. full of drama.. we caused ourselves..hehe.. but seriously..every wrd u sed meant so much to me..
thank u.u will alwiz b in my heart.. u will alwiz b in my life.. u will alwiz b with me..
anw babe, ive gt all the red paint redi for wen we'll start paintin the town with it.. haha

k progress reports waitin for my sweet words to fill them!! argh..haha..
take care ppl.. hope to hear frm ya'l soon!
eh its the 6th redi..
Happy Bday my dearest babs!!
i doubt u'll b readin this..
but i wish u only the best.. mwuah

sitting here sipping my baileys...
yum :)
im a satisfied child..
n no di nt the caramel one...
not yet anw.. hehe...

anw, jus gt back frm bkk..
had a great trip wit sonks..
thnx for the memories babes...
all the funny ppl and silly times..
nt forgettin the crazy rides! hahaha
1 wat?!?!? heehee...
the yummy food..
bug n bee!!! hahah
chrysenthemum tea!! can u believe i actually drank tea n loved it..
tho i dunno where i can find tt wonderful tasting tea again.. haha
cravin for it di! ;p hehehe..
n the "SMALL" bowl of soup...n mango sticky rice!!
yum yum yummmmmmy
i cant wait to go back to bkk..
i luv tt place..
sad tho tt it was alil rushed!
ahhhh...
next time? =D

was pretty sick jus before the trip..
realy really knocked down..
the world was like going round me the wrong way or somethin..
sweet sweet sandra actually paid me a surprise visit.. jus to bring me fruits n strepsils..
man i was so so touched.. no one's ever done somethin lk tt for me bfore..thank u so so much gal.. reali.. u dunno hw much it actually meant to me...luv u..mwuah..
j to was kinda sweet too... jus keepin me company n givin me the feelin of being taken care of wit constant chks..
u gals are the bomb la!!
hehehe...

ah.. im lazy to type redi...
oh.. aisha's gettin married.. nxt month?? or was it july..
we'll see when the actual card arrives i guess..
everyone's gettin married.. who's nxt? hmm?
hehe..
oh one of my godma's gv birth on the 15th..
a precious gal.. Katie.. hope i get to see her soon.. bet she's as beautiful as her mum..
wit an equally gorgeous heart...
congrats on the bundle of joy which god has blessed u with godma..

oh oh
met cheryl for dinner the other nite.. soup spoon n choc fondue!
can i jus say YUM!!!! hahaha..
deliciou food and great company...
eager chatter to catch up with 5...6?? years?!?!
loved it...we'll meet again soon??
m so glad she's back in my life...
for good this time i hope..

alritey think i'm gonna start unpackin...

i'm still waiting for an apology...
waiting for apologies frm certain ppl...
i think i deserve tt at the very least..
dun u??
no matter wat... i'm still a person..
with a heart...
tt still feels the pain...
even wen i tell it nt to..
n no matter hw small the cut

hmmm...

anwayz,
the zoo was....
fun?!
can would hv bn better (*winks at sara!)
but... it was definately fun
hehe hectic n tirin.. but fun..
i'd love to go back soon.. without the kiddies tagging ard this time...;)
any1 up to it?
sonks??
at least i managed to c my white tigers...
maaan i love the white tigers..
so beautiful.. jus sitting there...
perfect...
nt forgettin the eye candy tt jus happened to b there...
mmmmm...sweeet
hahaha
i noe i noe.. married man.. but still.. hahahaha
kiddin kiddin...
n he was really nice.. haha OK OK!!
off to rest my tired achin bones...

hope bkk works out babe.. mwuah
so sry, u're lk doin everythin on ur own! haha...
dun forget u still owe me a tapas date.. hehehe...yum!
take care ppl.. too lazy to type much..

i cannot belive wat's gotten into me..
i spent close to 300 bucks tdy!
all in one aftnoon..
n tts only the nets transactions..
all the actual cash tt actually came out of the wallet..
could v well put the amt way above 300..

add to tt the 2 pairs of shoes, the starry bag n the top i bot while wit sonks last wk..
i'm totally screwed cash-wise for this month...
hehe
best of all.. i was wit my mum the whole day..
shudnt shop with my best frenz coz we spend too much..
shudnt shop wit my sis coz i'd spend..
looks like i shudnt shop with my mum too.. hehe...
but tt wont stop any of us.. ;)

n once i came back, i started doin the normal thing i do..
which is second guess my purchases...
did i really hv to get tt??
does this really look nice??
how come nw it looks bad... hmmm
hahaha...
but at least i feel some satisfaction tt all of it was spent on me..
havent really done shoppin for "me".. just me in awhile..
nxt thing i think is i need some me time..
n i'd b happy...
sonks i think aussie's def gonna b out at the rate i'm going...
mayb lk u sed.. nxt yr?? hahaha...

nw i jus nd to hv some awesome days out to wear the new clothes n shoes! hahaha...
n clear my cupboard..so i finally hang up everythin or somethin..
its a wonder hw many new stuff i hv which has nvr been worn..frm so long ago..
sheesh...

anw, tt day went i went for confession..
the priest sed somethin which is pretty funny..
n i'd love to share it wit ppl..
but i guess confessions are between u n the priest n god..
so i shall jus keep it to myself.. hehehe...

happy happy bday my dearest elle...
wishin u only the best..
love u..

the time comes when u hv to let go and blend back into the background...
tho its hard to do...
nt everyone's lives r meant to revolve ard each others all the time..
other things/ppl/situations/errands/days/obligations slowly tk ovr the priority u once had...
so step back and blend...
take the colours of the rainbow that ya'l once made and blend back in to create the dull, mundane background again...
wat hurt dis stoopid lil heart of mine the most is tt u din even say goodbye...or see u..or i'll b back...
i know, wat a silly lil heart ive gt..
but i still miss u...be safe my dear...love u
seriously, will dis heart of mine nvr learn...

sonks babe, thx for everythin..
let the shoppin nvr end!!!!
sorry "PUMP-ing" nvr happens...
haha tt doesnt sound too gd..;p
nxt wk babe??
SMACK TT! =D

sara darls.. thx for the letter!!
as u could hv guessed i LOVE it!!
awesome!!mwuah...
it was like gettin a nice surprise then realizin there's so much more inside..
like one of those russian doll thingies u know?
where they keep fitting inside each other?
i'm sure u know what i mean..
hehe
love ya my darlin..
for always...

if given a opportunity..
would u...
grab it and run like the wind..
or back off n let it slip by..
only to curse urself in the end IF everythin clears up n u see what u could hv had..
or would u live in constant IFs and MAYBs of what could have, would have or mite never have bn

i think i noe what i've gotta do..
i know wht i WANNA do...
but its nvr tt easy is it...

i juz wanna live

i see their innocence shining thru their eyes
n i cant help it
i'll always wan the best for them..
funny hw they're nt my flesh n blood..
yet they hold such a special place in my heart..
even more funny...
hw in a couple of years they wont even remembr me..
aft leaving me with such sweet crazy memories of them..
my babies.. u mean so much to me...
may u never lose tt amazin innocent wonderment..
may every solution alwiz b as simple as it is nw...
may ur dreams..no matter hw wild.. alwiz excite u..
n may u alwiz..alwiz..ALWIZ...love wit tt simple, fulfillin love of yours...
may no1 ever tarnish or taint ur beautiful hearts...
i love u, u monkeys..
thank u 4 lovin me..

its a wonder hw we change as we grow..
hw we lose our true selfs and somehw conform to wats expected..
to wats required of you..
yet u know tt,
tt lil u is still in there..
struggling to get out..
but every1 keeps pushing her down...
we dont even realize it..
it happens over time..
and somehow u start settling for less..
u push ur dreams aside...
and take wats given to u...
and before u know it...
tt's the only life u have...
the true u becomes jus a distant faded memory..
u know u're jaded... but u cnt find ur way out...
n u are happy to accept yourself as wat u hv become...
forgetting all the awesome dreams and aspirations and greatness u once yearned so much for..
u once dreamed so vividly for...
i've alwiz believed in dreaming...
i've alwiz dreamt with all my heart...
but it seems harder and harder somehw....
wen in a world of cold hard reality....
u feel lk u're the only dreamer...
n ppl kp tellin u tt shootin stars dun exist....
n u start belivin...tt everythin ur heart holds is silly..
i want to continue believin...
in the beauty of life again....in the power of dreams n love n hugz.. in the sense of findin one's passion..
in the dream of complete, utter, happiness...in the goodness of a fellow human being
i hope i cn...
i hope i find reasons to..

havent bn bothered to blog coz was lazy to do the whole change to a google account thingy..
but who knows wen i actually did it,
it took such lil time!
argh..
hehe..
its bn a gd week.. really

2 parties within a wk
parrrrrrrrttttttttttaaaaaaaaaay!!!
haha..
new frenz..
old frenz..
really really old frenz.. hehe
-sonks u fall into tt category babes! hehehe-
drinks..DANCING!!!
hugz n kisses..
loved it!
LOVED IT!!! =D
awesome...
the other days of the week also went pretty well..
so its bn a gd one.. n i hope for more of these.. =D

met up wit a bunch of awesome gorgeous ppl last nite..
sec sch frenz.. pri sch frenz!!
man im gettin old... haha
michelle, cheryl, elly, ceedee, sonks...
it was so so gd to see them
had a blast babes!
added to tt mix were ppl we juz met a couple of days earlier..
N ppl we met on tt day itself.
we definately shud do it again soon...

random thot,,

some1's seemed to hv taken my ang pow money..
yes yes it mite hv been a measly sum to some but they all meant somethin to me
especially the one from my silly partner..
i hope the idiot who tk it falls into a drain or somethin..
;p

glad to say tt ive finally managed to start towards makin some peace with an old fren.. i jus hope it all goes well..
i told ali at the start of this yr tt i wanted to widen my circle of frenz..
to experience new things..n new ppl
n mayb one way of expandin tt circle is to take in old frenz who hv somehw bn misplaced..
i wan this to b a gd yr..
i wan it to mold a gd me...

there was once a gal...
who aft bein in the sun for so long
finally made frenz with it...
n the frenship was great..
the sun gv her wat she needed...
a comfort from the pouring rain...
a loving, warm place to explore n roam...
a beautiful smile weneva she felt down...
n the gal gv the sun wateva she could..
a listenin shoulder..
unconditional love...
n a promise to alwiz b there
the gal n the sun were inseperable..
somehw they found in each other somethin
both had bn missin for a long while...
but no matter hw strongly they believed in their friendship..
things went wrong as they sometimes do..
n the sun n the gal
grew apart

the gal couldnt understand it..
she loved the sun so..
she felt so lost and cold without the sun's lovin rays..
but as time passed it seemd tt the sun wuld nvr come back
n so the gal learnt hw to live life witout it...
the sun was a distant but painful memory...
n all the gal had were these memories to hold onto..
she found other friends n they helped mk her world bright again..
in her heart she alwiz missed the sun
many years later, the gal bumped into the sun..
everythin felt so familiar yet different n unknown at the same time...
the nxt time they met, the sun finally sed tt she too had missed the gal..
so the gal n the sun hv decided to try puttin the past behind them..
n findin tt safe, happy place they were in before..
n with all my heart, i hope they do..
gal, wen u left, my world seemd darker somehw...
ive really missed u..
u've alwiz gt tt space in my heart..
come back to it wenever u're redi....

i need some gummi berry juice!!
hehe..
i'm jus missin all the years tt seemed to hv gone by so fast...
so so fast...
23 years of my life..
maaan...
but as i told sara..
im glad tt eventho the years hv gone past jus like tt..
I'm glad ive somehow managed to hold onto
some pretty special ppl..
anw, i jus wanted to share dis...
the ppl from "my time"
..am i really sayin my time!! hehe
ya'll shud remember this guys!!!
i grew up watchin great cartoons..
care bears, smurfs, gummi bears...
n looked hw great i turned out! haha
n there was golden girls, murder she wrote..back to the future...
argh.. i feel so old just remembering..
anw, i loved gummi bears.. one of my favs.. so go on.. sing along.. i know u want to..

Dashing and daring, Courageous and caring,
Faithful and friendly, With stories to share.
All through the forest, They sing out in chorus,
Marching along, As their song fills the air.

Gummi Bears!! Bouncing here and there and everywhere.
High adventure that's beyond compare. They are the Gummi Bears.

Magic and mystery, Are part of their history,
Along with the secret, Of gummiberry juice.
Their legend is growing, They take pride in knowing,
They'll fight for what's right, In whatever they do.

Gummi Bears!! Bouncing here and there and everywhere.
High adventure that's beyond compare. They are the Gummi Bears.
They are the Gummi Bears!!



n here's another of my favourites.. dedicated to the awesome
ppl in my life...
sara, sher, sonks, sandra, ali, jules...n all the rest.. who've just been there thru it all..
guys,
i love u
thank U for being my friend...

anw, had to say gdbye to my babe tdy..
the day fionally came..
im so gonna miss u babe...
but we'll kp in touch k
no worries..
would i let go of one of my bestest frenz?

hmmm..?
thx for the awesome memories..
we'll continue buildin them for years to come yeah?
jus nt at work tts all..:)

n lastly.. a bday shoutout..
happy bday sandra!!!
i hope the day was awesome...
best wishes...love ya

k im goin back to watchin n repeatin my gummi bear song...
i mourn for all the wonderful yrs gone by...

babe...jus another 4 days to go...
its scary hw these two blissful, awesome yrs hv jus flown by..
circumstances hv lead to this decision..
its hard to let go.. but i understand...
our days of 'cilly' gossip sessions r numbered...
no more toilet break visits..
no more mam mam times and bowl sharing ;p
no more bubble tea times...with cheesy hotdogs...
such an unexpected sistahood..
its jus blossomed into so much..
a bond between hearts
i love ya babe...
u've bn such a blessing...
i will definately miss u like crazy..
but nvr will i forget u...
n nvr will i forget the love u always shower on me..
my babe..
lets njoy the last few days...
till we get a chance to wrk together again..
it wont b the same witout ya..
kp in touch..
love u for always...
sistas for life..
mwuah mwuah
babe

honestly speakin...
u're nt a true fren to me...
coz if i ever ever needed anythin...
i'd nvr ever turn to u..

i hate the u tt u are..
n as usual...
i hate the me tt u mk me...
so dun bothr tryin..
coz u'll never ever

EVER

mean as much to me...
as those who are truly...
my frens..
u dun even come close...
n they dun even nd to try...
they'v gt my heart alrdy...
n u nvr will..
so pls la jus get urself off tt pedestal tt u've placed urself on..
u're seriously nt tt great..
in fact u're barely even mediocre

bn sleepin at 5 practically every nite this week..
jus stayin up tryin to catch up on my wrk..
u'd think.. like everyone else alrdy does
tt my job wuld b one tt is free of extra work...
n nonsensical things..
but hw wrong u are..
the lesson plans themselves...
maann...
n the cuttin n cuttin n cuttin...
n all tt thinkin...
hahaha...
am gettin used to the nw shift..
mayb its nt tt bad??
jus leaves me very lil evenin time...
so nothin much can b done..

en there's tt thing abt classes..

hmmm.. dunno..
but everyday its like playin the waitin game..
wait wait wait.. hehe

u know there's this part in coyote ugly..
where dis gal.. lets call her A.. returns home frm her best fren's wedding (B?),
to hear tt her dad's in hosp aft being in an accident..
she rushes to the hosp n in awhile sees B runnin in still in her weddin gown n all..
n wen questioned for comin eventho it was her weddin nite..
B answers.. u've been in my family all my life, he's only been in my family for five mins..
or somethin like tt la..
but this part jus touches me somehw..
n eventho its only fiction.. n would someone really do dis for someone else on their WEDDIN day?,
it makes me think if anyone would ever do tt for me...
n no, honestly im not hintin anythin at anyone.. or disguising some contempt with my best frenz
or anythin.. im jus wondering tt's all..
coz i also wonder if i'd do tt for one of my best frenz if the roles were reversed..
n i'd like to think i would...
n deep in my heart, i'd love to believe tt each n everyone of my bestest frenz would do this for me too...
no matter wat the situation...


my darlin's comin back tmr...
n i cant wait..
i miss her so..
the enquiring eyes.. the silent looks...
the gossip
the fun times..
the crazy times..
the BBT times..
the curly times..
with the chewy chewy bits.. hehe..
bring it on baby!!!!
i cnt wait...
chewy chewy och!
haha

attended elaine's weddin chalet ovr the wkend..
how fast everythin's fallen into place...
feels like they just started..
hehe
miss those gals of mine too..
lookin forward to more complaining and nite 'rockin' with ya'l soon yeah?
quick find a place n let's go alrdy!!

qoute of the day frm lil jay's mouth:

yahoohoo... later the kanchi koni man's goin to come.. hehe..
the lil tyke was tryin to say karang-guni..
the things tt come out of the mouths of lil babes...
u'd b surprised at hw un-innocent some of them really are..
n hw sweet/cute the others reali are.. hehe
alrite..tt's all for tonite folks!

wats happened to me?? i'm still alive n kickin ppl.. jus as usual.. no mood to come here to type.. nt to mention the big fiasco with the laptop n all.. some of u know the whole sordid story.. the rest.. ah it doesnt matter anymore.. i seriously do not want to think abt it..
so the 23rd bday came n went without much hooha.. it was raining the whole day! crazy i tell u..
x'mas has also done its run..had mass.. then lunch at my aunts the nxt day..with a big huge feast.. yummy! haha.. n with all the celebrations and all. we've once again come to a brand new yr.. it's amazing how the years go by at such speed sometimes..n suddenly u jus find urself gettin older n older.. new yr's was good.. started the yr wit ali by my side at church.. then we did the usual stupid things we do when we're together.. tho i think dis one takes the cake.. 30 bucks for a 7 dollar mac meal ali?!!?! hahaha..
things mite have been quieter than usual on my side.. but ive been thinkin.. n there r definately things im so grateful for..for the yr that's gone past
-tt it was all spent surrounded by those i luv the most.. my family..
-tt we've all been kept safe and out of harm's way
-tt my darlin gal came outta the accident with only minor injuries
-tt my besties r still all mine ;p
-tt i've marked another yr of life
-tt im learnin n growin n experiencin more in life

-tt there r still ppl lovin me, prayin for me, guidin n guardin me..
-tt i've bn given awesome colleagues who brighten my days
-tt my kiddies love me.. no matter wat.. hehe
-tt sonkey still knows me like she does
-tt ali n me share serious/weird/funny/silly/nonsesical/meaningful talks once in awhile
-tt sher my hot young mama still remembers me heehee..
there's so much to b thankful for..n truly im thankful for it all.. for U all..
so i jus wish for each of u.. for all of us..
only the best things in 2007..
may it be a yr filled with happy moments and great memories..
may it be a safe yr..
may it be an awesome year..
may it be exciting and invigorating! :)
n if.. IF our strength, courage, faith,hope is tested....
may we face it all head on.. only to come up on top...

i wanted to talk abt my decisions for this yr.. but..
nxt entry perhaps...
i love u all..

may it b a yr tt dreams r fulfilled..

i miss the times with u my loveable lil one...
u were like one of my best frens... only, obviously so much more
we shared so much..
days out.. n nite talks..
movies n shoppin...
n talks without sacarsm..
now only thots of him fill ur head.. ur heart..
i guess u dun hv much time for us.. for me no more..
thinkin things true.. i think i mite b a tad jealous..
nt tt u've gt him..
but more like tt he's got most of u..
leavin nothin much for me..
n tt's wat hurts the most..
i guess its time for the fam to step aside..